So that happened a week ago.

Tomorrow we're starting our first game into the State playoffs ❤️💕

I'M SO EXCITED.

We're ranked seed #8 in the brackets, and we play seed #1.

Basically, if we beat them, we can easily beat the next three teams to win state.

God I hope we do. I'd literally be sobbing on the court if that happened.

When we beat the team last week to become champions in our district, I literally started crying so much because I was so happy.

Lmao I was the only person crying. I'll show you guys the video later, but the first four seconds are SO FUNNY.

Right when the buzzer goes off the end the game, since I was in at that time, I literally ran over to our bench and all of a sudden my coach literally LIFTS me up into the air like Simba, like holy SHIT.

He's like, 6'2" or something like that, so it was like "HOLY SHIT I'M SO HIGH!"

Does anyone wanna snapchat?

Well that went way off topic.

That's a strike. Oh well.

Okay, I'm literally over everyone. Every guy.

There's NOBODY who can steal my heart.

Yesterday, I held the door open for Joe, and he was just minding his business with a baseball player, chatting it up.

FYI, I can't remember what I called recent bae, but his name's Joseph if y'all just wanna know. The friend/teammate of Bennett.

But anyways...

They don't even acknowledge that a fucking person is holding the door from slamming into their faces.

Don't even bat an eye at me to say thank you.

BRUH.

So I sassily walk in after them and just spat "Um, ru-ude." Out loud right behind them, then give him a smirk while I walk to my seat.

Sometimes I think I need to control my sass-meter, but it's all cool.

Later, when the class is working on some chemistry thing, I was working with a girl at one of the back lab tables. Joe was working with that same baseball player at the table next to us, but was facing away so we were in the same column.

During that period, he stands up and starts waving his paper while walking to the front saying "I finally finished something." (Because he NEVER does any work during class, like ever)

So when he walks by me, I'm like "Well that's surprising." Just all out SUPER SASSY, and then he's sassy back like "Yeah, I know right."

So I'm like "Mm-hmm, okay, oh-kay."

My partner looks at me and just starts dying because of how sassy I was.

Hey, I ain't gon' let anyone push me around.

A few minutes later, I walked to my teacher to ask a question about something, and then I walk back to the lab table. Since the column's a small gap, Joe was getting up, so I just stop, and pose with my arms crossed while leaning on one hip, then gave him the most sassiest look ever.

"Okay, I'll wait."

Literally what I thought in my head.

Man, I guess I was a lil' bit extra saucy with the sass. Oh well.

Too bad it was his birthday too 😂

Then towards the end of class, im telling my teacher about the latest news of how Icelands President wanted to ban pineapple from going on pizza, and I'm literally just laughing my ass off because it's too FUNNY.

I'm not even joking guys. On Tuesday, I was watching the news in the morning and it showed that the president of Iceland wanted to ban pineapple from going on pizza.

Anyways, all I see from right next to me is Joe just kinda chuckling while looking at me while my Chem teacher's dying because he searched it up on our laptop.

My teacher: Well son of a B! America's president's fighting about a wall, and Iceland's president's fighting about pineapple going on pizza!

So yeah, moral of the story, I'm not into this guy anymore.

He took THREE STRIKES.

And y'all know what that means, he's OUT.

I'm through with lax players.

Maybe not totally but 99.99%.

Hahaaaaa... I haven't told y'all what happened last Friday with Bennett...

Laugh my ass off. I promise I'll tell y'all this weekend, I'm just a little bit tired right now from practice all week.

Bennett switched from my 4th period class to Cece's 4th period, which is gym.

Okay, for gym class at our school, apparently you don't have to wear gym clothes? WTF BRUH.

Everyday, they literally do whatever they want, as long as everyone's active.

Why didn't I go here freshman year?

My 4th period college prep class is right next to the gym, except the entrance for our classroom is outside, but whatever.

On Wednesday, Cece's sending me Snapchat pictures of freaking Bennett -_-

Some of them were him playing hockey with other students, or when he was sitting right NEXT TO HER. BRUH.

It's not weird guys, they play lax together for the school. They don't really talk to each other though.

Oh god...

Lacrosse starts on Monday.

Throwback to that one time I went to a lacrosse game with Andrei and we were the only people there watching. That was awkward.

I'm never going to another game, it was TOO WEIRD.

Anyways, I snap Cece saying that I'll go use the restroom as an excuse to visit her, and we meet up right outside the gym and just automatically start dying because of all the Snapchat pictures we were sending.

Awkward timing because Bennett was just watching us laughing out asses off and that I was kinda ditching class.

Now today, after school I meet up with her and she's like "Dude, hear me out!"

I'm like "I couldn't ditch class today, sorry bruh."

So she says "Nah it's good, but today in class, Bennett was actually encouraging me to play in the hockey game today. Actually like, cheering me on."

Bennett's never been mean to any of my best friends, like ever. He's always been pretty nice, and I guess since he knows that Cece's legitimately my best friend now..

Of course he's gonna be nice to her 😊

I swear it's because of me. If I didn't exist, he wouldn't have said a word to her, especially because Vince's her older brother -_-.

Then Cece's like "Yeah I'm gonna hook you guys up."

Me: "NOOOOO nononono just cause I've stumbled over stupid feelings again doesn't mean I'm gonna take any chances, I'm GOOD."

Throwback to XC when she promised me she'd hook us up, but I thought she was JOKING.

I'm fine 😂

Yesterday him and I were accidentally twinning again too -_-

Long sleeved gray cotton shirt, blue jeans and white vans with white Nike basketball socks.

BRUH, COME ON.

Whatever. I wasn't wearing much eye makeup that day, so today I really enhanced the eyeshadow. I mean, I straightened my hair for an hour, why not go the whole way.

I used a red lip liner instead of a pink today, and it looked SO GOOD. Everyone was like "Woah, your lips are like, pinkish-redish!"

Hahaaaaa I felt like dressing up a lil' but more than normal. Just a lil' bit extra on the eyeshadow and makeup, but apparently it was super noticeable, in a good way.

Yesterday's makeup wasn't good. It was really basic. Today's was just flawless, kinda like a slight similarity to Taylor Swift's makeup.

Apparently one of those people who couldn't stop LOOKING at me what him.

That's it. I'm done dressing up.

I don't dress up to impress anyone anymore, I do it for my own satisfaction bruh.

Struggles.

Next chapter I'll post another selfie ❤️💕

This chapter is just long and cringy, so I don't blame anyone for not reading the whole thing. If you did, you're freaking amazing.