Justin

Alright god, I never really talk to you half the time but here I go; I'm sorry for all my wrong doing especially the biggest one of all, cheating on my final exams in college.

I didn't mean it, I just wanted to get ahead in life man.

You know, get a nice house with my degree? A decent job?

Anyway, I'm sorry for everything. Amen .

Feeling Sequoia's small hand grip mine, I look down at her shocked expression; she was really shaken up right now. I didn't want her yo have to sit through this but we had no choice, her mother was approaching us with a bright smile. "Sequoia, ma Cheri. " then she started to talk to her daughter briefly in a different language, which Sequoia didn't respond.

Camellia then pulled me into a quick hug in which I returned immediately, I looked at the other unwanted guests and noticed that fota and Penelope were glaring at Sequoia, and well Daniel was doing the same to me. Fùcking punk.

"Sequoia and Justin, I want you to meet my girlfriend Fota Cruz. " Brandon said, gesturing towards fota who plastered a tight smile on her face. "Fota this is my neice Sequoia and her boyfriend Justin."

"Brandon honey, we already know each other quiet well." Fota explains, while patting Brandon on the arm. "Sequoia here is one of my best employees. " she beams, Sequoia raises an eyebrow at her skeptically.

"Oh well isn't that nice, Justin and Sequoia you two can have a seat now."

I put my hand on the small of her back and lead her around to two chairs that were seated directly next to Penelope and Daniel, could this night get any worse? I wanted to take the chair I was pulling out for Sequoia and hit myself with it, I know I'm being overdramatic but I just didn't want to deal with these people tonight.

"We ordered for you two already, I hope you don't mind." Camellia explains, and I surprisingly didn't have enough energy to be angry about it.

"Its fine mama." Sequoia says , finally speaking up after being silent for a few moments but her voice was different; forced even. Like she wanted to make it look like she was happy, but I knew better because I know Sequoia better than she knows herself sometimes. Sequoia crossed her legs and avoided eye contact with her mother, probably fearing the she would see right through the act she was putting up.

"Oh must of forgot about these two, justin you know my sister Penelope and her friend Daniel." fota says smiling widely at us from across the table. "Daniel is also Sequoia's coworker, they're so close. I mistaken them as a couple sometimes. " fota explains to everyone, she was trying to make them seem like they were together. Did she think I was stupid? I know Sequoia is my girl, he can only dream of it.

I place a hand on top of Sequoia's thigh and squeeze it reassuringly, "Yes, I know those two. No need to introduce us. Nice to see you again Daniel, same to you Penelope. " I speak up , looking them directly in the eye. I wasn't intimidated by them, the hell did they think they were going to do?

"This is great, old friends back together. " I wouldn't say friends. Brandon smiles, pulling fota's hand in his and bringing it up to his lips. Fota gives him a smile and at that moment, I wondered how those two could ever be together. They're complete opposite, fota is cold, mean, heartless even; while Brandon is different.

Sequoia leaned in like she was going to say something so I lower my head to hear her, "I need a damn drink." she whispers annoyingly. "Daniel won't stop looking at me and if Penelope doesn't stop eyeing you, we're going to have a problem."

My eyes flicker up to find them glancing at us every few seconds, they weren't discreet about it at all. Sequoia pulls away from me and gives me a look, I told you. "How about we go to that bar over there? Only for a few moments. " I whisper back to her, since she felt uncomfortable under their gazes; I wanted her comfortable.

Sequoia nods slightly, "Ma, Justin and I are going to step away for a moment. " camellia looks suspicious at first but nods her head , I stand and hold my hand out for her which she gladly takes. Once she is up, I maneuver around the table with her behind me, ignoring the looks from the others at the table. Sequoia visibly relaxing once we are out of their sight, "I really want to go home. " she says, taking a seat at the bar and I do the same while signaling the bartender over.

"we could go, you know. They can't force you to be here." I assure her before turning to the bartender who was waiting patiently. "What would you like sweetheart?"

"Something strong, I don't care."

Now any other time I would not tolerate her drinking strong alcoholic beverages, mainly because she has a low tolerance level. But now I can see that she needed it, hell even I needed it. I let out an audible sigh and nod towards the man, "you heard her, give me the strongest drink on that top shelf there."

The bartender looks skeptical but does it anyway, Sequoia is rubbing her temples slowly. "What are the chances that fota is the girl Brandon brought? This shít is too bizarre. " she mumbles, I grab her hands and she looks up at me with her doe like eyes. "Penelope is gonna spill Justin, I feel it. And when she does my mother will try to regulate my life again, call me stupid for ever being with you and send me back to France where she'll force me to take the job that one of her friends offered me."

Sequoia looked disheveled and worried, I hated it. I only wanted to see the mischievous glint in her eyes, along with the look of excitement and happiness. That's the Sequoia I prefer.

"How about we tell her before she can? Wouldn't it sound better hearing it from her own daughter?"

She tilted her head to the side and rose her perfectly arched eyebrows at me, "No way Justin, she'll kill us. Didn't you just hear my speech?"

I shrugged and looked down at the drink that was placed in front of me, I dropped her hands and picked up the glass. "Either way we tell it, she's going to be pissed. But she can't force you out of the country baby, well I won't let her. They'll have to shoot me before that happens." I explain and shoot her a grin before passing the drink to her.

Sequoia mumble something under her breath and took the glass from my hand, she brought it up to her lips and took a big gulp. I laughed at her facial expression and leaned onto the wooden table, who knew watching her drink would be entertaining? Fascinating? I don't know.

"how many times did I tell you how beautiful you look tonight? "

"Three times."

"Now that isn't enough, you look beautiful Ms. Smith." I say huskily leaning down to place a small kiss on her cheek, then another one on near her ear; pushing a lock of her beautiful dark hair away from her cheek. "Too beautiful, will I be able to see more when we get the hell out of here?"

Sequoia shivered slightly and pulled back from me, "You really think about fùcking me at a time like this?" she whispered teasingly, I chuckle and hum in response. "Seriously my mom might behead you and you're thinking about having me when we get home, only you " she giggled, then took another sip from her glass.

"I won't mind, as long as I get to taste you first." I say casually with a small shrug of my shoulders, signaling the bartender to get two more drinks. Sequoia swatted my arm and sent smirk my way, quickly catching on to what I said. "Thanks," the bartender sat the drinks in front of me, and I offered her another one after seeing her glass empty.

God she's gonna be tipsy.

"Trying to get me drunk around my family, how classy."

"Speaking of your family, we have to get back before camellia sends out a search party."

Sequoia agrees and finishes up her second drink quickly, I do the same and pay the bartender. The walk back to the table was atrocious, Sequoia's alcohol kicked in and she was very touchy, giggling at me and if she wasn't touching me she was walking ahead and catching the attention of the men who looked at her hips appreciatively. I hated when they looked her, I hated it so much. Fùcking Sequoia, why is she so beautiful?

I let out a breath of relief once we reached the table, they were eating and our plates were sitting in front of our vacant chairs. Everyone indulged in their own conversation while we maneuver around the table, Sequoia slightly tripped but I caught her while she laughed at herself.

What the hell did I give her?

"I see you two are back, " Camellia says, smiling at us. "I ordered some wine, Sequoia don't drink too much."

"Too late," I mutter then look at Sequoia who is already done with her wine glass. Fùck. "Babe why don't you eat first before you drink?" Sequoia nodded and sat the glass back on the table, then picked up her fork and began to eat quietly.

"So Sequoia we were just talking about you. " Brandon says breaking the momentary silence, "Fota here says you work so well, she might give you a promotion "

Sequoia chuckled and shook her head, "Her?" Sequoia questioned incredulously, almost as if it couldn't be true. My eyes widen and I knew she was about to say something wrong but I didn't stop her. "Uncle B , I hate to break it to you but your girl is a bitch to me. So is her sister, the blonde one with the evil eyes."

Fota gasps, while Brandon looks at his niece with wide eyes , Penelope and Daniel doing the same. "Sequoia Smith, watch your mouth!" camellia hisses, and I laugh lowly as I cut my steak; I didn't plan on stopping Sequoia to make her be quiet.

"Eh, mom but its true. Fota and Penelope both tantalize me at work. Giving me bullshit almost every time I step in that building." Sequoia shrugs and reached across the table to grab the wine bottle. She was revealing new information to me also, I never knew they were doing shít to her; if I would've knew that then I would not have let her step foot in that place again. "I think it's because Penelope there is jealous about Justin and I. I would be pissed too."

I look at Penelope, noticing she's turned red. Brandon looked at Sequoia then to Fota, as if he were trying to process what the fùck was happening. It was happening fast too, I felt like Sequoia and I will have to make a run for it before I could finish my steak. Camellia looked embarrassed by Sequoia while I was beaming with pride; my baby girl, let 'em know baby.

"My and let me tell you about this one." Sequoia pointed at Daniel who happened to avoid the spot light all night, until now. "Did you guys know he sexually harassed me on the job a few days back? All because he's in love with me, I bet if I reported that to your girlfriend she would say I was asking for it."

Daniel seemed to clench his fist and his jaw also, that's right get mad. I'd like to see him try to say something to Sequoia so I can have a reason to beat his ass.

"That is enough young la-"

"No, no, no. I am getting to the best part, you'll love this one."

And at that moment, I called the waiter over to ask him to wrap up this delicious steak u-

"this man here, I'm so deeply and madly in love with, is married!" she giggles, pouring herself another glass of dark wine. Her mother gapes at her, angry glares are shot towards us. I openly gape at the fact that she said that she loves me, me. "me, I'm the one who caused him to divorce that one right there."she points to an embarrassed penelope, "Crazy, right? I'm not very proud because I feel bad for even messing with him. Penelope didn't deserve it but it happened , its life. You feel me?"

That's how Sequoia ends a speech ,

' You feel me?'

Returning from my shock, I laugh, loud. Everyone's faces were priceless, why didn't I record this? Daniel was angry, penelope and fota embarrassed, Brandon shocked by the words of his own niece, and camellia- well let's just say she looked like she was going to strangle her daughter.

A wave of silence washed across the table for what felt like an eternity. Sequoia didn't care that she had spilled everything she was drunk, Penelope didn't even have to say anything; Sequoia smith had just told on herself. "Leave," a cracked, menacing voice said and we all turned our heads to see that it was coming from a hurt camellia. "Sequoia you leave right now, I can't stand to even look at you. "

Sequoia's face fell slightly and she opened up her mouth to speak , camellia gives her a hard glare but she ignores it and speaks anyway. "Mother, that isn't necessary is it?"

"It is, we came here to celebrate and you come out with this bullshit! I will not tolerate my daughter being a slut, imagine how that woman feels, you're just like her. "

Sequoia happy expression drops completely and I grow angry myself, camellia maybe her mother but that is distasteful and disrespectful to call your own daughters those words. "camellia, that is enough. Leave her alone." Brandon spoke up, surprising fota and I.

"Brandon, I will not have my daughter ruining marriages like that slut did to me. This young lady deserves the world, not this shít! "

The surprising thing was , we weren't kicked out of this restaurant by management yet.

"she's your daugh-"

"No, I'll leave if I'm such a problem. " Sequoia says, her voice cracking but she smiled at her mother as she stood from her seat. "Now I know why father left you. Just so you know, I'm nothing like that woman but I can be just like you evil as hell."

I stood along side her like I always going to do, "Goodbye Camellia and everyone else." I say as I wrap Sequoia's hand in mine, she squeezes it as I lead her around the table and towards the entrance. From the way she was squeezing my hand, I knew she needed me tonight; more than she thought she did. Sequoia will probably try to brush it off tonight but I wasn't going to let that happen, no way.

I hastily pull her towards the exit, ignoring looks from passing waiters we've bumped into. Once we're outside, I feel her stop and I quickly turn to give her a questioning look. But my confusion quickly washes away once I see tears falling down her cheeks and her green eyes are filled with more unfallen tears; Sequoia Smith was crying. I pull her into my chest with no hesitation and she wraps her arms around me, the sound of her whimpering into my chest broke my heart.

This shouldn't be happening.

I shush her as her whimpers get louder, kissing her hair and rubbing her back also. Forgetting we were in front of a restaurant, my attention was focused on my angel in front of me. How couldn't I pay attention? When Sequoia hurts, I hurt. "Its okay sweetheart." I mumble as I continuously rub her back.

"I'm so stupid and careless, why did I even do that?" she sniffles slightly, her fingers tightly clutching into the fabric of my shirt and I didn't mind one bit.

"No you're not baby, you were telling the truth. It's okay." I sooth, squeezing her soft body into my hard chest. I wanted her to know that she isn't at fault here, it was bound to come out. All she did was speed up the process, she let her mother know about her life choices; one was deciding to be with me despite the fact that I'm going through a lengthy divorce.

Sequoia pulled away and looked up at me, her eyes were red and her nose was slightly the same color. I lifted my finger and wiped under her eye, "Justin, my mother doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. Now I really have no one." her voice lowering as she noticed a few people walking passed us, shooting us questioning looks.

Suddenly, I feel a ting of anger come and quickly vanish; Sequoia knew she had me! "You know what baby, I think you'll be fine without her. You don't need her, we don't need her." I assure, the touch of my hand on her back never flattering. "We can just have each other, if that's okay with you." I visibly start to panick, as I feel like our love and our relationship wouldn't be enough affection for you. "That is okay, right?"

"That is okay," Sequoia laughs through her tears, nodding her head and laughing at me. We both stay silent and stare into each other's eyes, probably looking weird to everyone passing by who wouldn't understand what being in love with someone would looked like. I wasn't afraid to admit it to anyone, so why was Sequoia? She couldn't say it to m- "I love you so much."

Did I just hear that correctly?

Sequoia loves me, she said it to me; after how long ?

This is all too good to be true.

When I realized she makes a mistake of telling me that when she's drunk, my mood slightly deflated. "Sequoia, let's get you home and sober you up."

"But you didn't say you loved me back."

Now you know how I feel.

"I will say it back when you say it to me without having alcohol in your system baby, let's go."

"But I- " she starts but she pulls away from me and wipes the rest of her tears from her face, "Never mind then." she says, turning and walking ahead of me shakily towards the car. I run my fingers through my hair and catch up to her, I reach out and try to grab her hand to help her but she snatches it away from me leaving me confused.

What just happened?

Sequoia

"you guys are missing the whole point here, I told that man I loved him and all he did was stare blankly at me." I complained to rose and Jade, rose was Ethan's girlfriend who I had just met today. She and Ethan were invited over for a small get together, Ryan was also here but did he matter much? Anyway, Rose is 23 and resembled a porcelain China doll so small and delicate when I saw Ethan stand next to her it was like seeing the head line of an XXX video ; small girl takes huge-

You get what I'm trying to say

But either way, that girl is gorgeous, funny, and absolutely lovable. She's like breath of fresh air from all the negativity I've been around lately. Ethan was the exact opposite, he is 32 years old and charming but childish when he wanted to be; when I told him my name he kept calling me saqwa , my name isn't that hard to pronounce. But other than that he was a nice guy, I can see why Justin is friends with him.

"I am not missing the point, I can't believe you spoke to mama mellia like that!" Jade said, bursting at the fact that I finally stood up and told my mother everything. She was so proud, she even pulled out our stash of patron and various other alcoholic drinks. "We have to take shots, holy hell! I'm excited as fùck. "

Rose laughed at the excited jade would not stop bouncing in her stool, I shook my head as I smiled slightly at my over excited bestfriend. "Jade, how about we save those for later?" rose suggested, placing a hand on Jade's shoulder which made her settle down but she was still beaming. "anyway, about your problem, maybe Justin doesn't think you're honest. I don't know."

Of course I'm being honest.

Besides the fact that I was drunk last night, I knew what I said and I meant what I said. What more does he want? I don't understand him, didn't he want to hear me say that and mean it? Before I could tell that he was eagerly waiting for me to say it back to him, but now once I say the words he wants to hear and mean them , he doesn't react. Who does that?

This is too much.

"You know what, forget I even brought that up."

"Yeah let's focus on what you said to your mother la-"

"Jade please, I don't even want to think about that." I cut her off, cringing because I wanted nothing to do with that situation right now; it was embarrassing and repulsing the way I acted. The fact that she disowned me and called me a slut in a matter of minutes is even worse. Brandon had texted me this morning my mom would be boarding a plane back to France tonight, and I was happy to hear that. I was also told that despite everything I said about fota last night, he was extending his stay here with her.

The surprising thing was that I also still had a job.

But I will be looking into other ones, I feel like it would only get worse if I go back. With my degree, I can get another job and hopefully make more than what I used to make. I don't want to work at a place where I see my boyfriend's ex wife everyday, giving me that same crazy glare; like was plotting to strike and I had no clue of it.

I just couldn't.

"Fine, but we're still drinking this." Jade held up the bottle and gave me a cute smile, I shrug and take the bottle from her; hey, it won't hurt will it?

Before I could take down the shot glasses, Justin, Ryan, and Ethan came in laughing. Justin came by and whisked the bottle from my hands, giving me a snarky smirk. "No way little one." he held the bottle behind his back and wrapped his arm around my waist, pressing his hard body against my soft one. He trapped me against the counter and held eye contact with me, seeing the lustful glint in his eye; I can tell I wasn't going to get away untouched. "Haven't you learned your lesson yet?"

If I'm still trying to take shots, I guess not.

I shake my head no and slide my hands up his broad shoulders , remembering that we're in front of others when I hear the loud chatter of the others in the room. I couldn't stop Justin leaning down and kissing me roughly, "Can I -Justin- baby- " I struggle to talk against Justin's lips, but I was still kissing him back feverishly may I add.

"Damn dude, stop trying to eat her. " I hear Ryan talk from somewhere in the room, causing justin to pull away and look over his shoulder.

"I already do that, would you like to see a demonstration?"

Oh my god.

"Why not?"

Justin suddenly picked me up in his arms while I squeal and swat his head. "Justin, we don't want to see you devour your girl's pussy right now. I'm hungry as hell. " Ethan complains with a small pout, Rose cooes at her boyfriend and guides him to the dinning took where we sat the food a few minutes prior.

"Speak for yourself, continue Justin." Ryan says, bringing jade into his embrace with his eyes locked on us. Jade does the sane with a interested look in her eye, I want to laugh at them but I'm too worried about Justin possibly dropping me or him actually following through with Ryan's challenge.

"Justin let me down, please!" I begged, gripping on his shoulders. Justin mutters fine and sits me back onto the kitchen floor gently, Jade and Ryan smack their teeth simultaneously then trudge out of the kitchen hand in hand leaving Justin and I alone.

God they're weirdos.

***

After dinner with our friends, Justin and I were left alone. Well, I was left alone, I had no idea where Justin was. I was waiting for him to come to bed, I couldn't sleep that well if I didn't feel him next to me. With a curious mind set, I threw the cover off of my body and slid out of bed. Grabbing my silk robe and wrapping it around my body because I was completely naked, which wasn't much of a surprise.

I pushed a piece of my hair behind my ear and navigated my way through the darkness, into the living room. "Justin?" I call softly, squinting my eyes towards the balcony doors that were open. I hugged my body and moved closer to the doors left ajar, there was a figure sitting in the chair near the corner.

Before I could step out into the cool night air, his voice sounded through my ears. "I knew you would find me out here."

"You didn't want to be found? I can go back in..."

"No, I always want you to find me. C'mere and sit with me." Justin demanded and I complied instantly, my bare feet padding against the concrete. Once I get to him, I notice he's out side with no shirt on and he's only in his boxers; he brown hair laid messily on his head. Before I could scold him about it, he swiftly pulls me into his lap and I don't protest at all. Instead I just sit side ways in his lap and wrap my arms around his neck, while he dropped his head on to my chest and firmly held me in place on his lap. "I like this."

"What?" I ask, stroking the back of his neck where he tattooed a pair of wings; I loved them.

"You holding me, makes me feel like a baby even though I have the face the hard reality of being a twenty seven year old man with many decisions in a few hours."

I laugh softly and shake my head, his bored tone making it even funnier. "Well one, you are a baby, my baby, all mine." even if you didn't say you loved me, I'll get over it. "And that's apart of life, you should know that now. Even if it is hard to face reality, theres no escaping it."

Justin lifted his head and gave me a wide grin, "wait, why did that sound a hundred times hotter coming from you? " he asks, his tongue quickly darting out and licking his lips. "Say it again."

"What? Sometimes its hard to face reality? "

"No, tell me I'm yours again."

Well then.

I roll my eyes with a smile still present on my face, the man is just too much. "You're mine." I say lowly, inching close to his face but I pull away when he leans in just to give a little tease.

Justin quickly pulls me closer so our faces are centimeters apart yet again. "Great now add a daddy to the end of that and we're all set. " now, I roll my eyes so hard I'm surprised the hadn't rolled out of my eye sockets. Justin had been so transfixed on the fact that I called him daddy, he wants me to say it constantly. Its cute.

"No."

"Now give me one reason I shouldn't fùck you into saying it right now, right here."

I shiver and its not because of the cool breeze from the dark night, its because of Justin and his usual sexual ways that I loved. His words had effect on me and I hated it with a burning passion, but I would never admit that aloud. "Because I'm a good girl?" I ask, playing along with him. Justin chuckles and suddenly stands up with me in his arms, surprisingly I don't squeal.

"You're far from it, I want a better reason or I'm bending you over."

And of course, I didn't give him one reason

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