Sequoia

My life is actually sad now.

Well, for the last few days it has been because of the one and only Justin Bieber.

It seems like we always play this game when we have a verbal fight, he ignores me or doesn't hit me up at all. If I text him now his only reply will be "busy" that's all I get, its seriously been almost 2 weeks since I've last seen him and I can't help but think its my fault. Then again its probably not my fault, he's probably actually busy.

Especially since he's divorcing her, he might be meeting with his lawyer and finalizing some things so he can take her to court. But honestly would like to know what Penelope reaction was when she read those papers, did she cry? Its weird, I can't imagine Penelope actually crying but I can imagine her standing over Justin with knife laughing evilly.

Crazy ass.

I can only imagine her face when she finds out he left her and went straight to me, tragic. Maybe she might even kill me, or injure me, whatever she would do scared me. I honestly think that woman has something going on in her head but hides it behind that suburban housewife façade.

Whatever she had going on confused me because at times I wanted to feel bad for doing shít behind her back but I don't; I feel bad for myself sometimes but barely her.

Yes I feel bad for myself.

But, I'm the only one I can blame for falling for someone that is married and a few years older than me. So if I do get hurt during this journey, I will instantly blame myself and no one else. Not even Justin, even if he was the one that made a move on me, I was the one who let him do it the first time. Now look where that got us, a few weeks of pure ignorance and two adults who have no idea how much they're hurting the people around them.

We're dumb.

"Girl, are you okay?" my friend Jade asked, bringing me back to reality and making me realize I had been staring at my salad like an idiot. I smiled sheepishly before nodding my head and bringing my fork up to my mouth. Jade looked unconvinced and I knew I wasn't going to get away if I didn't answer her truthfully, she's a forceful person, meaning she will not stop until she feels that I'm telling the truth. She has always been like that and sometimes I love her for it, other times it can get annoying.

"I'm great, why'd you ask?" I lie straight through my teeth, something that has come easy to me since I've been around Justin. Jade squints her eyes my way and puts her fork down ,putting her elbows on the table and clasping her hands together. "What?" I ask avoiding looking into her brown eyes, instead looking around at the rushing people inside of the malls Many of them holding bags or dragging whining children by their side.

"how long have I known you?" but before I could open my mouth to answer, she cut me off "Long enough, now I know when you're lying." she accused, her voice now dripping with concern and eyes shining with worry. "Quoia, what's wrong?"

I couldn't get out of this, what could I possibly tell her? Hey, I have been fùcking a married man for almost two months now and he's divorcing his wife but I told him not to because I'm a confusing bítch and I'm unsure if I love him or not. No, that wouldn't sound right but the truth has to come out and I think now would be a good time. Its just she and I , so of course I can tell her, we're alone.

"Jade, I ha--"

"I'm back!" Daniel said cheering with a tray of food in his hand, I forgot he managed to squeeze into our plans for today. I rolled my eyes as he plopped down on the chair beside me, what's up with people cutting me off lately? Rude. "I brought you some pizza Sequoia, I thought of you."

Daniel sits the plate in front of me and I thank him quietly, Jade looks offended and playfully upset. "What about me? I'm here too pùssy. " Jade snapped at him, Daniel stopped just as he was about to take a bit out of his pizza and gave her a an eyebrow raise. All thoughts of our conversation is thrown out the window, for I know that all these two are going to do is tease each other.

God here we go again.

"I only buy pizza for females, get someone else to buy you a slice Jaden. "

My eyes widen as Jade gasps before reaching across the table and snatching his plate from in front of him. "You're a rude fucker! You're not getting this shít back until you say sorry."

"Fùck no! You called me a pùssy, if anything you should apologize for that!" Daniel replies back childishly, I attempt to tune them out like I've been doing all day but I'm unable to. They've literally been going at it all day, I mean since Daniel got in my car. First Jade yelled at him about tagging along, thats what started it all.

"You need to be taught manners." I heard Jade say, while I picked up the pizza on my plate and took a generous bite out of it.

"And you need to be fucked, hard."

I nearly choked on my pizza, Daniel said that and meant it you could hear the seduction in his voice. The way he was staring at Jade was obvious but she looked at him as if she wanted to rip him apart, not sexually either. Jade could be oblivious at times, now would be that time because she has no idea what daniel hinted at; girl he wants to fùck you!

"You're ridiculous. " Jade scoffed, then turned away from the dark stare of Daniel's eyes, I just continued to eat my pizza in silence. "Sequoia I don't like your friend."

"Yes you do." I mumble, but no one heard me say it. Daniel now reached across the table and took his plate back, smirking at her in victory and Jade just rolled her eyes. I ship it. We continued to eat our food, making conversation and I made sure to avoid the topic of my so called boyfriend. I don't know where he is and I am slowly starting to worry, I miss him too much. Jade noticed my unusual mood and glanced at me weirdly whenever she got the chance.

"Sequoia," Daniel called out to me, looking in the direction of the expensive jewelry store with a confused glare. "Isn't that your boyfriend over there?" My head snapped in the direction he was looking and my breathing suddenly seized. Tears began to cloud my vision and I no longer heard or saw anyone around me, only the happy couple in front of me. Justin was kissing Penelope.

They look, happy.

But I wasn't, isn't Justin divorcing her? Isn't he so unhappy with her that he asked me to be his girlfriend? Didn't he tell me he loves me? Why lie? Why did this happen to me? Now I have to explain why my boyfriend is locking lips with a blonde hair, blue eyed woman in the middle of a jewelry store.

This is what he's been so busy with.

"Seq? what the fùck is going on? Do I have to go beat his ass?" Jade asked, making me look at her now. Her eyes were full of rage, shít she was more upset than I was but the only difference was that she was ready to act upon it; I wasn't. I didn't want to cause a scene and end up in jail for assaulting an innocent little white woman, I couldn't have that on my record.

Notice my sarcasm

Daniel still glared at Justin, he looked as if he wanted to hurt him also. "No fùck that, I'll beat that guy's ass. I knew there was something off about that guy!" he began to stand up but I put my small hand on his broad shoulder, I didn't want daniel getting into my mess.

"No I'll handle it." I said with my voice cracking slightly but I inhaled to maintain my composure, the tears that were once threatening to fall were gone in an instant. "I'm going to make myself known, you two stay here and I mean it. " I scolded my two angry friends before walking away, my head was held high as I made my way towards the married couple.

I passed a few people, feeling their stare on me as I crossed their paths and walked into the jewelry store. Plastering a small fake smile on my face, I cleared my throat breaking the kissing couple apart one of them looking excited to see me the other... Not so much.

"Sequoia! " Penelope squealed, pulling away from Justin's embrace and smiled widely. Justin on the other hand, looked surprised and somewhat afraid; I would look that way too if I were just caught. "What are you doing here? Its been so long."

"I was just over there with my friends, we just got done doing some shopping." I told her, acting as if I didn't want to ask a very important question, why do you still have a wedding ring? "I saw familiar faces and decided to speak, what are you guys doing here?"

Justin stood back with the same expression as Penelope answered, "Oh! Justin took me to pick out a new ring, he claims this one is too old." Penelope giggled, showing her old ring which had to be big enough to pay off all my student loans. Hm, fùcking fancy.

What happened to that divorce, Justin?

Somebody lied.

"Oh that's nice, well I guess I'll be going then."

"okay, see you around Sequoia!"

Before turning , I grinned at Justin with my head tilted slightly "nice seeing you too, Justin. " then turned on my heel , strutting towards my confused friends, I'm guessing they were surprised I didn't smack Penelope to the ground. When I returned to the table, I ignored the questions from my friends telling them I'd answer them later.

Now, I had to deal with Justin.

***

Later on that day, I was enjoying the comfort of my home after dropping my friends off when there was suddenly a loud knock on the door, sounding as if it were the police. My eyes scrunched up in confusion as I got up from the couch and walked over to the heavy door, I tried looking out the peephole but I was unable to reach it. "Who is it?" I called out, placing my hand on the door knob, awaiting for the stranger to answer.

"You know who it is, open this damn door!" Justin's familiar voice yelled from the other side of the door, I rolled my eyes as I groaned not wanting to be bothered by him but he continued to knock. "You got your fùcking locks changed that fast?!"

"Go away Justin. "

"Open the door Sequoia. I'm not playing with you."

"Go home, Justin. " I said louder, emphasizing his name. I heard Justin grumble but I didn't hear and footsteps walking away so of course he was still out there. "I don't hear you leaving, go way before I call the police on you."

Justin snorted and laughed loudly, "Yeah sure, call the police on an on duty officer because that will work out perfectly fine. Just open the door baby."

Baby?

"No"

"Please doll? I want to apologize. " his voice now soft, god I hated when he did that it makes me feel bad for but now, I don't care forget him and his feelings. "Princess... "

Princess?

"No Justin, you ignore me for weeks, lie to me, then pop up by my place because you were caught? I think not. " I ranted loudly, but there was silence on the other side. "Now you don't give me answers, Justin what's the truth? If you keep lying to me, I think we are going to break this off."

There was a loud bang from the other side, it caused my to flinch a bit. I decided to unlocked the door and slowly turned the doorknob, pulling it open and coming face to face with an angry Justin. His hair looked as if he had been running his hands through it billions of times, his eyes holding a possessive stare he always seem to give me whenever we're having sex. This was angry Justin.

"You will not be fùcking leaving me," he growled, stepping forward as I took a step back, Justin closed the door behind him then swiftly grabbed my waist and pulled my close to his hard chest. I gasped softly and attempted to wiggle free from his grasp but his large arm tightened around my body. "Sequoia, once you got involved with me you became mine. I'll be damned if I let someone take you from me."

I continued to push his chest and fight against his strength, god why did he have to be so big? This isn't fair, this whole situation just isn't fair. Why is he holding on to me like I'm some object. "Why? I don't want to be with you!" I said defiantly, staring up at his now darkened eyes. "I want to be with someone who doesn't lie! Who isn't fùcking married for Christ sake, I want someone else."

Justin laughed bitterly "Don't you think I've already made a mark on you? You can't have another man, you want to know why?" he inched closer to my face, his lips just brushing mine as I stay still but I was still fuming with anger. "You, Sequoia Smith, are mine. Every inch. "

"No, Penelope is yours I'm my own damn person. Let me fùcking go and get out of my condo. "

"Don't worry about Penelope, we'll come to that bridge later. Its about you now," I wanted him gone, now and forever why is he suddenly acting like this? I wasn't use to this Justin, this Justin was mean and arrogant. "look, you know I love you and I will divorce Penelope. I just need time, okay? Just don't leave me." Justin's mood suddenly changing, it was disturbing.

I faintly nodded and let him lean down to peck my lips softly, my lips instantly tingled in appreciation and I hate it. I hate how can almost do anything to me and I won't care, why? I don't know, I don't think I'll ever know why Justin had such a huge impact on my body and nearly my emotions.

"I love you Sequoia. "

And with that, he released and left out the door. He left me with mixed emotions, my sick side loved how he posses me and the other side hated it, my other side wanted him gone but that couldn't happen.

Apparently, I'm his.

Justin

"How'd it go?" Ryan asked once I made it back to our patrol car, I shrugged not wanting to tell him how much of an asshole I was in there to Sequoia. I don't even know what got into me , it's just the fact that I can't picture her with someone else, only me. I was so head over heels for that girl, it was ridiculous but yet, I stayed with Penelope for the simple fact that she cared for me. Sequoia cared for me too, I know it but I just didn't know what to do. "So you won't tell me? Cool alright, whatever happened in there don't let it get to your head, we have a job to do."

Just as he said that, the radio in our patrol car suddenly called all units frantically. I furrowed my eyebrows, then nodded towards Ryan telling him to pull off. Whatever was going down right now sounded serious, then there was another call. "Request for back up! We have 6 officers down! I repeat 6 officers do-" then shots rang out in the back before the officer could repeat his request.

Ryan and I looked at each other , I flicked on the siren and held on as he raced through the streets. My mind wanted to be on the situation at hand now but I couldn't, Sequoia happened to be on my mind and I couldn't shake her out. Due to the speed we were going, we ended up at the scene in no time. It was a small house, a drug house at that, there were at least 6 cop cars, many of the officers behind them using them as shields. There were also dead officers on the grounds, those who probably had families awaiting them.

We immediately grabbed the heavy armors out of the back of the car, then found cover. The shooter was firing from out of a small window, while one of out helicopters circled the house, we weren't sure how many people were in the house.

"Justin!" Ryan called, shooting over at the window then reloading. I turned to look at him, ceasing my shooting. "Watch out!" he started to shoot behind me. I turned to see men getting out of an SUV with larger guns, the adrenaline in my body pushed me to get up and shoot the men. There were about ten of them, only managing to shoot down two. They spotted me in the open and raised there weapons, firing at me, I yelled to Ryan telling him to get down. My body jerked and I choked, I was shot and I wasn't sure how many times. "Justin!" I hear ryan yell out, then I heard nothing at all. I was dying.

I knew, if I were to die, I was going straight to hell.

It wasn't long before I fell on the ground, the world going dark around me.

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Lord knows I never edit so if there are mistakes correct them but don't be a Lil hoe about it, pls and thanks.

I wanted to be dramatic with this ending. How do y'all like it?

Justin was shot, *Falls on the ground and cries like I do every time I watch boyz in the hood or juice*

Comment and tell me.

Also I'll be updating Lolita and starting a new book about my sexual fantasies. Cause I'm lowkey a hoe, wink wink wink