So it's been a couple days. Josh left a couple hours after dinner and the next few days has been with Tyler and Jenna. Apparently Tyler is gonna go do an interview with Josh about I think their latest album. So it'll only be me and Jenna today.

I've unpacked what I have so far into the dressers and put my merch in a separate draw since I don't have much stuff in the first place. We've kind of settled for the few days I've been here. They've noticed how my depression effects me from time to time as I have gotten quiet on certain topics and I seem to be tense most of the time. And I don't talk much anyway, always thinking. Thinking.

I set up social media accounts as well. Twitter, Instagram and Snapchat but I don't think I'll ever use them the way a normal kid would. Or teen. Or whatever. The username for all three being 'ShadowForiegnHeart'. Weird but hear me out. Heart, the heart I have for people, the shield shape and the love I have toward Sarah & TØP. Foreign, is strange and familiar and all of this is new to me. And Shadow, can be a bit dark but created with light will be visable. A dark aura shown the light will be visible but the fight isn't always the toughest. There will be light to show out the dark side of you and light will take down dark.

Does that make sense?

"Kiri." I look up.

"I wanted to ask. We have got you merch and a laptop but you probably want to change up your room a bit or at least have more clothes than what you do now. Do you want to go shopping after we had lunch?"

I knew this question would come eventually. It'll be nerve wracking but Tyler has already told the fan base yesterday that he adopted a teen. There two evens of responses, good and bad but a hell of a lot of them were good and supportive to Tyler, Jenna and me even though Tyler hasn't said my name yet or given any details about me. 

It'll be fine. There'll be nothing to worry about. Just stay calm, stress and panic will make things worse. Just remain cool.

"I don't mind." I shrug.

She pulls a face slightly. "It'll be fine. You shouldn't need to worry."

"I know. I'm just thinking."

"You do that a lot." She comments as she picks up a plate. "Here, a nice sandwich. I hope you like tomato, ham and sauce."

I smile at her. "Thanks Jenna."

"No problem."

There's something on my mind while I go to eat, I wait for Jenna before I do. We both finish our lunch soon after another and we deal with dishes.

"Hey, Jenna."

"Yeah?"

"I hope you don't....mind calling you by your name."

She turns to me confused by my saddened tone. "Why? It's fine."

"I know but I should probably be calling you mom and Tyler dad but..."

"Hey, Kiri."

I look up nervously. "There's no rush. I understand that you have a bit of time to trust. We both know. Don't push yourself. You haven't really had a mother, even before those others who took you up didn't pay much attention to you. You've been on your own a lot."

For a moment, I see her eyes sparkle. "You can call us Mom and Dad when you feel ready, okay?"

"Okay..." I nod cautiously.

"I hope you believe that..."

We end up getting ready to leave. I don't put on any merch in order to make it not obvious. But I put my brown combat boots on as well as my gloves. I throw on some normal clothes of the few that I have.

"Ready?"

"Sure."

Me and her exit the house and into the car. "Question, do you guys have security guards around?"

"They are around." She nods. "If things get too much the they come around and give us a hand."

I nod. I just wanted to check. "Okay first I wanna ask. Do you use makeup?"

"Eh. Sometimes. But not much. Not all the time."

"Okay so we may go just for a little bit." She nods. We drive off and go down the roads. She let me sit in the front so I get the left side of the view this time.

We eventually stop inside the mall. On a floor that not everyone parks on.

"Okay we're good. First thing we'll go shopping for is clothes because you need more of those."

I follow Jenna out the car as she enters the mall. Everything is fine at first and I do my best to remain calm in this new sudden lot of people.

"Okay so first I'll take you to my favorite clothes store. I think they'll have a lot of things you may like in there."

I look around. She seems perfectly fine. But now I'm starting to get the feeling that people are watching me. There are indeed a couple faces looking and whispering in my direction.

I face my head forward. Just remain calm. Whatever you do. Don't freak out.

I make a quick pace to keep up with Jenna. I know this must be normal, to catch a few eyes but I think what is holding people off from talking to us. Is because Tyler to reveal anything about me yet there's a teen walking beside Jenna. Which doesn't usually happen...

"Hey, tense suddenly?" She asks.

"I'm good." I say dull like. She smiles at me before we enter a clothes shop.

"Okay, take a look around. We'll be getting a bit of everything. But just a bit, you need to fill up your drawers. Then we can go look for some shoes."

I nod and take a look around. I feel like we're gonna be here for a while. There are nice clothes here. Of all sorts actually. But I only have very few back at Jenna and Tyler's place so I feel like I'm gonna have to choose, most likely five of each at least.

I take a look around and Jenna gives me a basket from the shop. She decides to look around and help me. There are nice jeans, shorts which I pick up and take a look at. A nice pair of blue jean shorts then black shorts shorts go into the basket. A couple more. Jumpers, shirts, jackets, socks, jeans, shorts.

"Hey, I thought this would suit you. You have fingerless gloves on now and they seem quite old."

I turn around to expect it to be Jenna, but find some random...boy.

"Sorry, I'm very bad with introductions. I'm awkward too." My eyes dart around the room quite quickly. Jenna is busy with her back turned on the other side of the story.

"Um, do I know you?" I ask.

"Sorry." He sighs.

"I just wanted to talk to you but I didn't know how. Why do first greetings always have to be so weird?"

This kid seems to have a gentle face. Pale but tan. He's got those soft big brown eyes and scruffy black hair. Thin black eyebrows and black freckles on his face. He also seems to be about the same age as me. Or around that.

"I just want to ask, are you the kid Jenna and Tyler adopted?"

Oh god. Already? What do I say?

"I just wanted to ask. I won't try use you and get through to them through you. But you also seem very unusual. Your hair, eyes, hand." I pull away.

"Okay, what's your name?" I'll give him a chance. At least he's not screaming and being cherry.

"You are aren't you?" He avoids my question.

"Yes, I guess but don't flip out please."

"I won't. Tyler said in his tweet that you aren't good with confrontation. That's why my first greeting was awkward."

He rubs his neck. "I just saw you wearing gloves and thought. Hey! She's wearing gloves. Give these new ones to her and strike up a conversation. Needless to say, the outcome was better in my head."

It seems like this kid...if you were to give him a disappointing look, he would crawl in a hole and cry. I can kind of tell he's afraid of me pushing him away from his greeting.

"Okay." I take a deep breath. "Well, what's your name?"

"Sam. I'm Sam." He smiles gently.

I smile weakly. "Kiriana."

"That's a nice name." I get confused by the compliment, almost suddenly tense. "Oh, guess you're not used to that. Sorry."

I take a deep breath, and look down at the gloves he has. They're multicolored, a dark gold color on the fabric mixed with an indigo and violet. It doesn't look as bad as you think. 

"I saw the colors you wear are kind of dark, including the gloves. I thought you would want these." 

Cautiously, I take them from him. He smiles gently at me. "Ha, guess we're both tense. I noticed you were with Jenna. Sorry if introducing myself was wrong. I tried to do so the best way to not...do whatever to affect you badly." I nod.

"Thanks." He smiles gently. I know deep down inside he wants to ask something about them. But he's not. He's holding back. Hmm...

"Do you think we can be friends?" He asks, the look in his eyes thinks I'll say no. I open my mouth to say something, but...

"Kiriana." Jenna walks over to me. "Hey, I got these. Thought you'd like them." I turn back to where Sam is but, I can't see him. Or I can, he's hiding in the clothes wrack.

"Those are really nice!" I take a look at each. A floral top, denim jacket, lace shirt, skinny jeans...

"I'll put them in the basket for ya!"

"Thank you!"

She walks away back to the other side of the shop. Sam comes out again. "You didn't say hi to her."

"I, well." He looks away. "I can be confident, I can be strong. But deep down inside things are tough. Jenna, Tyler and Josh are my idols. I've wanted to meet them, but all I can do is go to some concerts. I'm nervous to meet them in public so casually. They're my idols." He says with a sad look.

"Maybe when I have more confidence, sure but there was also the lingering aura of trying not to freak you out. I'll say hi another day when I build up the self esteem."

I notice there's a horrible looking scar on leg. Something that would seem bigger than the bite scar on my hand.

"Do you mind if I ask...what happened to your leg?" He looks down at it, then nervously back up.

"I was into surfing. But that hobby cut short when I got bitten by a shark." My eyes widen.

"Oh god. I'm sorry."

"No, it's okay. I was lucky to be alive." I sigh, looking down at my hands. I take my gloves off.

"My right hand. It was slammed on by a car door and my finger got caught. On my left. I was bitten by a smaller animal but I'd rather not go into that."

He looks up at me like I just told him secret information. "Whoa, I'm sorry that happened to you."

I giggle slightly. "I guess we both have a couple things to relate to." He then giggles with me.

"The answer is yes. Here, give me your phone and I'll type my usernames in."

This is the first, I guess you could call side fan or whatever that I've had so maybe I'm not dealing with it best. But my trust issues seem to fade for now, now that I relate to a stranger who is a fan of TØP and understands to not be loud.

I give my phone back to him and he has a wide grin. "I promise you won't regret that."

"Sam! Where are you?"

Sam looks back at me. "That was my mother. I should probably go."

"Fair enough." I nod.

"High five at least?" I give him a confused look. But I don't wanna what they call, leave him hanging. So I high five him. He smiles at me then turns around leaves. I look down at the gloves.

I like these...

Once we've got enough clothes, we pay for them. The costing, holy shit. But Jenna assures me it's okay. That I'm gonna need them. Is she right?

"Okay, now shoes. What kind of shoes are you after?"

"Well I do a lot of walking so something that works well with that." I shrug.

"Okay. We'll look for some nice boots, some sneakers and I'll get you some hiking shoes." I give her a thankful smile although I feel bad for probably no reason.

I look around in this new store. There are dozens are expected but I only understand to deal with what I have. I probably will only need to get like, a pair of hiking shoes and casual sneakers. Nice shoes can probably come later. Right?

Yeah well apparently to Jenna, she picks out some nice shoes for me. As well as hiking boots with the long laces. Some casual sneakers and finally some nice fashion boots.

"Are you sure I need all four of those?" I question.

"The other two pairs of shoes you own look old and used. You could do with these. Believe me, there's nothing wrong with having these four because this is just shopping to get you the things you need."

I still don't understand but okay. We pay for those and holy cow. I don't understand how she has all the money for this but it's probably because of TØP. I suppose it's okay...This is the first time shopping after all, it's not like those shoes are gonna get ruined real quick...

"Okay, lastly. We get some things for your room." She tells me.

Wow today has been so long.

"Jenna Joseph! Jenna Joseph!!" The loudness startles me and we both turn around.

"Who's this girl your with?" "Is she the adopted kid?" "Oh my god I love you!" "Can you say hi to Josh and Tyler for us!?"

There are only three of them but hell are they being extremely loud. It begins to catch attention and Jenna realizes I'm starting to get a little unsettled from all the attention all of a sudden. But what can she do? There's no Tyler and I can't exactly stand off to the side.

The natural grey hair with the blue and magenta, my damaged finger and noticeable eyes is all something that the girls are asking me aside about stuff all about Josh and Tyler and I don't know what to answer.

"Okay, girls leave them alone." A security guard.

Jenna gives them a sorry look before having to turn around.

"So rude!" "We just wanted to say hi!" "Jenna come back!" "That girl looks weird."

Oh boy was it gonna get worse eventually. 

~2527 Words~

She finally made a friend! Sam, welcome to the team! Enjoy your stay. He's kind, he doesn't deserve to be bullied at all right? Hopefully things will remain happy for now, with Jenna and Tyler in her life. Kiriana is sweet and kind, but hopefully with more and more people that come up to her, she can deal with it. But for now, let's welcome Sam to the team and the casting of the story!