Whether it was true that they were here on not. I feel humiliated, I refuse to leave this room. 

Yes, I wanted to meet them.
Yes, I wanted to tell them how they were my biggest inspiration.
Yes, I wanted to show them what I did for them when I had the chance. I made a TØP Heart Shield in Metal Work.

NO. NO NO NO did I expect for them to come to this orphanage, to get humiliated and this is the way they know I exist. I shut my door, and I push blocks against the door. I take humiliation seriously. I'm not coming out of this closet.

I. Damn. Refuse!

Why are they even here..?

I sigh and lean back into my closet, I can feel the darkness creep up on me. It'll make it worse if they come up here to look for me to see if I'm okay. Because what do I say to them?

That I'm a Chinese Kid with unnatural big eyes and natural grey hair who is depressed but like to drum loudly, sing yet has trust issues and listens to their music who also hikes hills and climbs trees when the sudden urge strikes? What do I say to them?

I assume it may be Jenna and Tyler wanting to adopt a kid and Josh is here for support? I guess?

Besides, they probably won't adopt a teenage kid. Nobody does! Nobody should! They've already grown up in a way that they haven't seen. They haven't seen this adopted teen grow up, have problems. Seen them do their first walk or find what they're interested in like you would with your own kid! They probably want to adopt a small child. One they can watch grow up, one they can guide. One that everyone will love. Not some random depressed teen fan.

My head instantly shoots up as I hear three strong knocks on the door. I quickly shut my closet tighter. My first instinct is that it's Sarah and I want to open the door and hug her. But she has a different style.

This was a knock. She taps her nails against the door like you would on a table. This wasn't Sarah. There's another three knocks. Then voices of a male.

Fuck. Don't come in. Don't come in. Don't come in.

I listen out to hear a slight push which I assume the door is being pushed open slowly.

"It's empty."

Josh.

"There's these boxes in the way. Are you sure this is where Kiriana is?" Tyler's voice says calmly.

"Yeah this is her room. Just be gentle with her. If you really want to check on her then just be gentle. She's not the happiest girl you'll meet but if you get to know her, she is a kind and loving person." Sarah's voice sounds off next.

"Hmm..."

There's a few steps into the room and the lighting shifts from the crack gap between the closet doors. I have a stick between the handles so they can't open it. Bad thing is, Sarah knows I've done that before but she's always convinced me to remove it or somehow cut the branch to get through.

As expected, the doors try to be opened. But the stick doesn't let it. "It won't open." Tyler says.

"What do you mean it won't open?"

I sit in the corner of my closest with my head in my knees as Josh also gives it a shot to unlock the doors. But to know avail.

"Jenna, I'm a little concerned. Can you go get...I think her name is Sarah?"

"Yeah, I'll be back soon."

There's the sound of footsteps that trail off and out the room. Again, either or guy try to use the door but no use.

"Are you okay in there?" It surprises me to hear Tyler's voice ask that question especially since I know it's directed to me.

There's a little bit more sounds of footsteps and the longer they stay in this room, the more doubts I have. I bet they didn't even get a good look at me... It was sudden. I don't dare want to say a word.

I just pull myself in closer as I hug myself tightly.

I...I can't. I...

. . .

"Where are you?!"

I look around in this new closet to see what can hold in my room. "Little girl don't you dare try me." It's cold. And this man shouldn't be working as an Orphan Caregiver.

The stick. This crumbly branch stick! I'm seven but I still brought a stick into the building because I pretended it was a staff. But it may be short enough...

I use as much strength as I can to lift the stick. Every tiny sound nearly gives me a heart attack. I manage to slide it through the gap of the door handles.

"What was that?!"

He tries opening the closet but it doesn't work. That seems to give me a little relief. "You think you can act all soft and gentle after what you did?!"

But I didn't do anything! All I did was hand Sarah a knife you used in the kitchen, which I found in the bathroom!

I can smell the alcohol through the thick thin doors of the closet as he continues to try and open it. Alcohol is something that this man should not have. He always accuses me of things I haven't done but in such a way that it seems.

"When I open this door, you'll be sorry I found you!"

"Get out of the little girls room Carl!

"SARAH!"

I back myself up against the wall, using whatever I can to hide me.

"You shouldn't hassle her, she's just a kid!"

"Yeah but I know exactly who this kid is. I know her parents and home town."

"....What? How?"

"The parents got rid of her for a reason. She's not an ordinary kid! I have to hurt her!"

"What in the world!? No way! Get out, you have no idea what this girl has been through!"

"You don't either Sarah!"

"I said GET OUT!!"

I hear a shove and then footsteps trailing off. Slowly, I lift up my head.

"Kiriana, open the door. Please."

Tears sting my eyes. I look down at my leg. The slight wound he stabbed me with. It's there but not as bloody.

"Hang on, I'll find a way."

I watch as she uses some sort of knife to slide between the gap and begin to cut the thin branch. It must be a bloody hell strong enough knife because it's cutting through like paper. Was is that, is it even a knife?

The blade cuts through and two sides of the branch fall down. Sarah swings the door open with concern. "Oh my god."

I look back down. "Hey, hey it's okay. You're gonna be fine."

No, no he'll do more. He'll hurt me more. You just don't know it Sarah.

I feel a hand on my shoulder as my head is in my knees. I refuse to look up.

"Kiriana, Kiriana look up."

Wait, what? I lift my head up slowly, just enough to look through. Tyler. And Josh. But no Jenna, no Sarah. The branch disappeared, it's not cut but off to the side.

"Hey, are you okay?"

He's looking directly at me, and I don't know how to look back...I don't know how to accept this is real. My heart, it won't let me have it...

"We just want to know if you're okay." Josh says calmly.

Tyler's doing kind of what I'm doing. Curled up sitting in the closest but he has his legs crossed and he's giving me a concerned look.

"Are you Kiriana?"

I let out a slight sigh, looking away.

They're here. You're idols are here, this isn't a lie. Say something to them. Just say anything!

"You don't need to be afraid at all. It's going to be okay." Josh reassures.

"Don't you have other kids talk to?" This clearly surprises Tyler as his eye brows raise.

"Um..." Josh says looking away.

"We could do but you turned away so sadly, we wanted to check up on you to make sure you were doing alright." Tyler says straightening up.

"So Sarah, she told us that you've done this before. Hid yourself in the closet?" I look away from Josh and I can tell by their movement they exchange worried glances.

They're my idols. They're amazing but I've never met them in real life. My mind is not letting me trust them, not letting me speak.

"Can you please say something to us?" The words scare me for some reason and even though my head is tucked to my knees clearly embarrassed, they look toward Tyler. His eyes widen a little bit.

"Hey, Kiriana. There's no reason to be afraid. Try to remain calm, take a deep breath. Try settle for a bit."

They're good people. That much I know. I take a deep breath, and loosen my grip on myself. My hands have been cupped the whole time and I plan to get it that why so they don't see the finger on my hand.

"Are you good?" Tyler asks.

I nod. "I suppose."

Tyler seems to be relieved by this as does Josh. "It's nice to meet you Kiriana. I suppose you heard our music?" Josh asks settling.

I just shake my head and look away like that was an obvious question, a small smirk barely visible. Tyler chuckles and Josh smiles.

"I didn't exactly think a fan your age would be in an orphanage here." Josh says.

I give him a confused look. "You're hair's very colorful." Tyler says.

"I've never seen a girl with grey hair, blue tips and a pink highlight." 

"That's very specific Josh." I can't help but for a grin to show on my lips and Josh just chuckles.

"Ha, ha. So you like Twenty One Pilots, what else do you do?" Josh asks.

I'm more settled now and since I trust these guys, I'm able to answer.

"Walking around, kind of like hiking. Getting fresh air from walking around in the nature. Forest kind of stuff, I also climb trees." They nod, listening carefully.

"That's nice. You kind of seem like the person to be into that." I smile gently at Josh who returns the same.

"Anything else? Do you do music yourself?" Tyler asks.

I want to say I sing, but my shyness would not match up with it. Would they understand? But drums, also doesn't seem like my character even though it is. How would I explain I drums the way I do?

When they notice my silence, he frowns.

"Okay, well you don't have to say anything." 

"Sorry." I apologize.

"No, no it's okay." Josh reassures.

"So..." Tyler says looking away.

"We need to talk to other kids as well but at least we got have a small chat." Tyler explains.

"I understand. It was really nice to meet you." He smiles gently and Josh also does as well.

"Maybe we'll talk to you later. Don't let the bullying get to you. Just know, things will be okay." He decides to stand up as well as Tyler.

I stand up as well and notice that Jenna walks up as well as Sarah "Oh, hey." Jenna smiles.

I wave shyly. "Hey Jenna, if you want you can talk with Kiriana. Me and Josh are gonna look around."

"Okay, cool."

Josh looks down at my hands for a moment, then up and me. My hands are still cupped together and I think he's noticing that.

"Okay, see you soon Jenna." They both leave and Sarah gives me a ok sign before I nod and she walks away.

"You're cupping your hands, are you okay?" Jenna asks me.

I nod. "Yeah...just nervous."

She smiles gently. "Understandable. It wasn't nice when you were called out like that. I could see the embarrassment on your face. Tyler was the first with the idea to check up on you."

"He's nice like that." I agree.

Jenna looks down to my hands. "Whether the guys saw it or not, you shouldn't be ashamed of a scar." I give her a confused look.

"You're finger. I saw it." My heart drops. Slowly, I move them apart. Finger shortened and amputated. "It's unusual and sad that something must've happened to you and I'm sorry about that."

"You're a nice person Jenna." I shrug.

Her eyes sparkle when she hears me say her name. "Good to know you already know my name."

I giggle slightly and that causes her to do the same. "I imagine you get bullied and I want you to know that you're a beautiful girl."

"What makes you say that?"

"Sarah told me that there's girls who make fun of you for natural grey hair and big blue eyes for a Chinese girl. She told me about your depression, and that Twenty One Pilots cheers you up."

"Oh..." I shiver.

"Hey Jenna! Come down here, there's a nice girl here I think you should meet." Tyler calls. My heart sinks. It only made sense that they would want to look for smaller children. Makes sense, they would want to create their family with a smaller kid. Why did I think...

"Hey, can you give this Josh and Tyler for me?" I quickly go through one of my drawers. I made a small metal heart shaped pin with the Twenty One Pilots symbol engraved on the front. I spray painted it with the help of Sarah and she helped me with a message on the back. It isn't really that small, maybe a bit too big for a pin but I give it to Jenna who looks down wide eyed.

"Whoa, did you make this?"

"Yeah, I like to do metal work. I made this to give to them. But I don't know if I can on my own." I shiver. She smiles gently. "I understand. I'll tell them about it."

"Thanks Jenna."

"Take care Kiriana."

Jenna walks away as Tyler pops into check. "Hey, Kiriana made this."

I quickly faze off into my room before he can even have a chance to see my hand. I'm still afraid of it because everyone else but Sarah and Jenna, are the only ones who don't seem to mind. No kids, no bullies, not Clair and no other adult workers like the sight of my hand.

I sigh and yawn, as both of them faze off into another room. I just hope they have a happy life with the kid they choose. It feels weird to meet them, to think of all the possibilities. Hearing their voice spoken to me. It was, really weird.

I look back. Tyler and Jenna are talking to Sarah. Josh looks in my direction for a moment, then looks else where. Hmm....

I wonder what they're talking about....

~2498 Words~

She finally met her idols! Not the way she expected but things still seemed to have turned out okay and she even gave Jenna a little pin that she made for Twenty One Pilots. But why are they talking to Sarah, what are they talking about? Maybe it could be possible for them to visit Kiriana again...