It felt so painful, knowing that the person you love most, the person that you decided to live your life with....has forgotten you.

The tears wouldn't stop rolling down, and the heart wouldn't stop breaking apart, it felt like everything that happened between you and Jungkook.....was all a dream.

'God, I love him..'  

Your hands were shaking so much, your head started hurting, and your fever went up again.

WOMAN: "Ma'am, are you alright?"

A woman rushed to you and hold onto your arm, helping you up.

YOU: "I-i'm okay, don't worry."

You said, looking away from her so she won't see the tears that are rolling down your cheeks.

WOMAN: "Ma'am, are you crying?"

She let out a sigh as the silence answered to her.

IU: " My name is Ji-Eun, come on let me help you ma'am."

You glance up to see her face, and then it popped in your head immediately.

'Wasn't she that girl that.....Jungkook hugged?' 

FLASHBACK~

JUNGKOOK: "Ji-Eun!"

He grabbed her by the shoulder and she gave her full attention to Jungkook, then the next thing just made your heart ripped.

They hugged, and smile were planting on their faces. It was as if you were invisible, you saw enough that you decided to walk back home and later he'll come back whenever he wants. 

END OF FLASHBACK~

'Oh..She's that girl...'  Silently think to yourself as you lower your head, letting out a sigh.

JI-EUN: "I think I've seen you somewhere before...Um, was it at the street? And, you are related to Jeon Jungkook, am I right?"

You nodded quietly and she helped you stood up. She could notice the tears that was still stained on your face, she showed a frown and held onto your shoulder.

JI-EUN: "You're his wife, right? I'm his cousin and if you were thinking that we hugged as another way, it's not what you were thinking alright?"

She patted your back and looked at you for awhile.

YOU: "It's okay I didn't take it for the wrong way.."

One of the co workers suddenly approach the balcony and asked you both to get back in because the weather is starting to change.

As you both enter in, you can see Jungkook slowly walking while not focusing on where he was going, you could see that he was about to hit the wall causing you to run to him and help.

YOU: "Jungkook, watch where you're going."

He glanced down at you and something kept flashing across his head....

'That face...Why does it remind me of something so much...' He thought to himself as he continue to stare at you.

YOU: "I really don't want to see you like this so please take a good care of yourself because I love you.."

He just couldn't utter a word all he did was stare at you, you gave him a gentle smile and looked down, holding his hand.

YOU: "Please regain your memory soon.."

You let go of him and walked away.

JUNGKOOK: "Wait--"

He paused himself while reaching his hand trying to catch your shoulder but stopped. He didn't want to get involved with you although he had this weird feeling deep inside......A feeling that he's loved.

He let out a sigh and scratched the back of his head, he glanced back at you but you were out of sight, Ji-Eun was standing there looking at the scene.

JI-EUN: "Wah, my cousin is in so much trouble."

She said, crossing her arms and rolling her eyes.

JUNGKOOK: "Aish..Stop that, I don't know her for real. I don't know why i'm feeling like this.."

He tilt his head and walked away.

Ji-Eun shook her head and made her way out of the building.

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You head home. You didn't want to stay in the same room with Jungkook you know it'll be not the same anymore.

The doctors have agreed for you to come back home too, they checked the baby first.

Your phone suddenly rang, "Coach" it says on the screen.

You sighed, hesitating whether to answer or not.

YOU: "Hello?"

COACH: "You've been missing a lot lately, we need you in our team!"

YOU: "Coach I know.."

COACH: "You are letting your own team down, we've lost about 4 games already because you were not there. And, other than that because you were not there some of your teammate even left and not participate in the game with us too!"

You remained silent and just waited for him to finish up.

COACH: "How are you doing?"

YOU: "I'm...not myself."

Your coach suddenly remained silent after heating those three words coming out of your mouth. He suddenly feel so guilty when he heard your sobs and crying, he didn't know what was going on...

COACH: "I'm sorry Y/N, are you okay?"

You couldn't say anything, all you can do is cry. You wiped your own tears and glance around the lonely house.

YOU: "I don't know what to do now.."

COACH: "Do you need a laugh? Or a deep conversation? Or even a hug, I can give those things to you to brighten up your mood Y/N."

YOU: "I don't know, how am I supposed to be...alone."

COACH: "Y/N where are you right now? We all can come."

YOU: "I'm alone....At Jungkook's house."

COACH: "Okay. Coming."

The call ended. 

You stand up and threw the pillows everywhere, hitting the pillows, hitting walls, banging on tables and breaking glasses.

YOU: "Why?!"

YOU: "Why is my life such a mess?!"

As the 500 time, you punched the wall with your bloody hand.

YOU: "Why?!"

You pulled your hair and slapped yourself.

YOU: "I caused so many bad things! Why am I still here?!"

Everything was a mess.

'Fuck it,'

'Fuck everything,'

'Fuck this life,'

After a while, you stopped the breaking, punching and hitting. 

Multiple knocks were heard at the door, but you ignored it at first.

But, you decided to go and slowly open it.

"Y/N!!"

They all hugged you as soon as they see you in sight. 

You had a very dead-like blank face, you were pale and your dark circle under your eyes were very noticeable, maybe because of how much tears you've cried.

TEAMMATES: "What has happened to our captain?"

You forced a smile on your face.

YOU: "Come in first."

SUNGJAE: "Oh? Isn't there a rooftop? Can we talk up there with a campfire?"

They all agreed, then you guys made your way to the roof.

Then everyone helped out with the campfire, setting it on the center and everyone surrounding.

SOO-JUNG: "Let's listen to what Y/N have to say."

Everyone nodded and were ready.

YOU: "As everyone should know, I liked Jungkook."

They all nod, your coach was staring at you carefully.

YOU: "The day after Hani passed away, I was so sad, and Jungkook invited me to go to a club with him. I agreed and went with him late at night, we were both drunk. Unexpectedly, we were making love and then mom found out that I was sleeping with Jungkook, and started becoming...weird...She had became the mother that I did not want...She hurt me, yelled at me...and blamed me.. I left her, to make things better. I moved in with Jungkook and we were both doing great, we had fun times, we were....so in love. Until, I heard some news that Yeri passed away because of Lisa. Krystal told me why Lisa had changed so much and.....It was because of me and Jungkook. Lisa liked Jungkook, but because of me Jungkook didn't love Lisa. She became a different person..When I heard of the reason behind all of that I felt so stupid. I felt guilty. Because, if it wasn't me everything wouldn't have happened. Lisa wouldn't change, Yeri wouldn't have passed away, Krystal would still be friends with Lisa and Yeri them....But because of me.......I caused all of these. If it wasn't me, Hani wouldn't have died too......But because I was so stupid, I ran away and in the middle of the street a car was just about to hit me........But Jungkook came in the time...and took the pain instead. And...Right now....I-i am...Pregnant with Jungkook's child...But, Jungkook..He...He..."

Your tears were just about to come down as you were finishing up...

YOU: "He lost his memory...About me.."

You burst out.

Some were shedding tears, you glance down at your stomach and patted your stomach.

YOU: "12 weeks.."

Your coach shed tears with everyone else and he came over to you, giving you a gentle hug.

COACH: "You'll be okay, you're strong."

YOU: "I'm not strong anymore.......I am weak."

You said as you shook your head, lowering your head. He patted your back and ruffled your hair.

COACH: "I know it hurts, I know but you gotta bring yourself up. It's not quite the end yet, you can still make things beautiful. Sunset are proofs that endings could be beautiful too, so don't give up just yet. Try, try your very best to make him remember you."

You nod as a tear fell, wiping it as fast as you could. As you glance ahead of you, the shining buildings flash across your sight.

YOU: "I miss him."

Your coach patted your head and gently hugged you, everyone remained silent but with a little sobs.

YOU: "Everything was so beautiful....But because of me, everything is now a...disaster.."

COACH: "Don't blame yourself, Y/N this is not your fault."

YOU: "Then who's fault could it be..Other than me?"

COACH: "It's the fate that brought you here...It's the fate's fault, it is not your fault...."

TEAMMATES: "Coach is right, please don't blame yourself okay Y/N?"

After a moment of looking into your coach's eyes, you broke down and burst out crying once again.

That was all you needed.

A simple hug, and very special words that will not make you feel pathetic.

'I wish I could be smiling with you right now..'

You shut your eyes and many tears fell at the same time, you took a deep breath trying to maintain calm.

COACH: "Because Y/N is not having good days, we are going to cancel Football for this season."

You glanced at him with a confused and worried face, 

YOU: "Why, Coach?"

He glance down at you and stroked your hair to the side of your ear.

COACH: "We are not complete without you, or without any other member. We need to be together to be one again."

You smiled.

YOU: "I'll start again soon after I give birth."

SOO-JUNG: "You would need a lot of rest though, we don't want you collapsing or anything like that Y/N.."

YOU: "Yah Yah! Coach already said I was strong, so I will be. Don't worry okay?"

She frowned and nodded.

You sighed.

YOU: "I really miss him..."

Coach patted your back.

COACH: "I know..But we'll help you in any way, alright?"

You nodded. For some reason, your tears have stopped and through the night you all stayed up and some fell asleep. You all were talking, laughing, and making more memories.

'Bless you all, I love you guys...'

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JUNGKOOK: "NO!"

He woke up immediately, almost falling off the hospital bed. He was sweating a lot and breathing hardly, his heart was racing really fast as his dream flash backs in his head.

DREAM~~ (JUNGKOOK'S POV)

She was just about to fall off the cliff, I was scared she will jump any moment if I go closer.

Y/N: "Don't come closer..!"

JUNGKOOK: "Ah Y/N please don't do this."

Y/N: "I've had enough, I want to die.."

Slowly....She was letting herself go. Taking a step back, her tear flew away as she fell off the cliff, I rushed to reach for her hand...I was too late.

"NOOOO!!!!"

END OF DREAM~

He sighed as he rest his head on his head, a knock was heard at the door.

JUNGKOOK: "Come in."

You entered his room with a basket in your hand, you smiled and walked over to the table.

YOU: "I brought you some snacks and fruit. Don't need to say thanks, it's my job anyway."

You sat down next to his bed after placing the basket on the table.

JUNGKOOK: "What brings you here?"

You raised your eyebrows and chuckle.

YOU: "You. You brought me here."

You laugh and poked his cheeks, titled your head and stared at him while he blankly stare at you.

JUNGKOOK: "Well...Okay."

He looked the opposite way.

'Why did she have to come right after I had that dream..Aish.' Jungkook thought to himself.

You held his hand, making him turn back to face you with a surprised look on his face. He tried to move his hands out of yours but you hold him back.

YOU: "We've missed you, badly."

Jungkook's eyebrows crashed together confusingly.

JUNGKOOK: "We?"

You nodded and pointed to your stomach.

YOU: "Us."

He remained silent. It's like something is going to pop in his head but he still hasn't figure it out..

JUNGKOOK: "Well, nice you're having a baby that misses me too, I hope the dad isn't mad about it."

You laugh.

YOU: "Of course not! Why would the dad be mad about it if the dad is you?"

The room was filled with silence, you gently smiled.

YOU: "It's okay."

You rub his shoulder...

YOU: "Even if you don't remember, I still love you."

He just stared at you. Not speaking a word, he was surprised.

JUNGKOOK: "Are you..saying the truth..?"

You moved closer to him and you both locked eyes.

YOU: "I can't lie to my love."

You stared at his eyes and you were lost in there...His eyes were amazingly beautiful it was like your galaxy..

JUNGKOOK: "You make it sound believable....But I also don't want to believe you..."

You shook your head, "It's okay"

JUNGKOOK: "Well, it's very nice of you bring me fruits and snack, thanks.."

You smiled.

YOU: "It's my job, I must take care of you very well so you can live with me very long."

He doesn't know why...But that line just somehow...

FLASHBACK~~~

YOU: "Not like that...I'm scared, you'll leave me early...Like how my dad and best friend left me early...."

Jungkook closes the gap between you both, he snuggle his head into your neck.

JUNGKOOK: "Then, please take a very good care of me so I won't go, mommy."

END OF FLASHBACK~~~

He shook his head back into reality, he glance at you while he's convincing himself not to believe anything that flashes through his mind but the more he convince himself the more his heart ached.

JUNGKOOK: "Just, STOP!"

You were surprised by his sudden raised voice, your expression changed into a worried one and asked him what was wrong but he pushed you aside.

JUNGKOOK: "I don't wanna believe you. I don't wanna live the past, just get out. Get out of my life, I don't know you, you're scaring me."

YOU: "Jungkook ah--"

JUNGKOOK: "NO! Don't visit me anymore too."

He glared into your eyes as if he were to kill you...Something was tingling around, inside your heart. You began to breathe hardly as you try to hold onto the tears.

JUNGKOOK: "Get out."

You sighed while looking down, slowly you got up and walked towards the door.

YOU: "You turned out to do everything you said you'd never do....."

You twisted the door knob.

YOU: "Why didn't you let me die earlier?"

You twisted the door knob fully and opened the door, you left him there in silence. He sighed and rubbed his forehead in frustration.

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'On this lonely, sad and empty night...I wished he was here. On this lonely, sad and empty night...I wished I was smiling and laughing instead of crying. I would gladly let him go, but...I can't. I love him.'

You crumbled up the millionth paper and threw it on the floor as you wipe away another tear. The house was a mess, there were breaking glasses, flipped tables, pillows on floors, small cracked walls......

Everything was a mess, even your life was too.

You wanted to contact you mom so bad but you also didn't want to because of the incident that happened between you and her. You miss her, badly.

You sighed and get that thought off of your mind. After a moment of silence in the house, your phone suddenly made a notification sound, you slowly opened your phone and checked the message....from Jungkook.

"What is this?!"

He sent a picture afterwards, it was a screenshot of Lisa and his conversation.

THE SCREENSHOT

'Jungkook, I saw Y/N, your precious wife with another man. They were kissing happily.' -Lisa

You smashed your phone onto the floor with all your anger. This was really getting on your nerve and you swore you could kill anybody right now at this moment.

Your heart was beat fast as hell, your eyes were suddenly becoming sharp you clenched your fist and punched the wall.

YOU: "FUCK YOU!"

Another notification sound made you look at your phone on the floor, you rushed to check what it was, it was another message from Jungkook.

"Not like I care or anything."

"Pretty sure the baby ain't mine."

"Now, I can be free from you. Let's not talk from now on."

You quickly type a message, "Jungkook, don't believe it that fast" but as you hit the send button, a message pop up saying "You can't reply to this conversation" meaning the person has blocked you.

YOU: "FUCK!"

You smashed it against the floor again as you cried out.

YOU: "WHAT THE FUCK?!"

You screamed as hot tears rolled down against your cheeks and blood running through your fingers as your knuckles starts to hurt.

You had many emotions running inside of you, anger, sadness, confusion, shockness....

You covered your eyes as you loudly cried out the pain you've been holding onto.

YOU: "I'm going to...go to him..No..I shouldn't..But I want to...."

'JUNGKOOK: "I don't wanna believe you. I don't wanna live the past, just get out. Get out of my life, I don't know you, you're scaring me."

YOU: "Jungkook ah--"

JUNGKOOK: "NO! Don't visit me anymore too."

You heaved out a big long sigh as you stare up into the ceiling, wiping your tears away. You stood up as you finally made up your mind..

You're going to see him.

You walked to the bathroom and quickly washed off your blood that was stained on your knuckles, you also quickly treated it with bandages. Taking your over-sized big hoodie, you wore it along with your jeans. Quickly put on some sneakers and head on out, it was already late at night. You had to pretend you were fine...You had to pretend to act like, you're not hurt...

About 15 minutes, you reached the hospital. Luckily the hospital hours hasn't end yet, you rushed inside and went straight into Jungkook's room because you already knew where it was. After all those climbing of stairs you were exhausted but you still manage to reach his room.

YOU: "Jungkook.."

You softly said as you opened the door.

His eyes flew to the door as he heard you coming in, his room was dark, his windows were open, it was quite cold in there but you could see the beautiful view he was looking at a minute ago..

JUNGKOOK: "What are you doing here? I told you not to--"

You rushed to him and softly placed your lips on his, his eyes were wide open but his lips were kissing you back. After a moment, he pushes you away and looked somewhere else, you reached out your hand to stroke his hair but he caught your hand and held it. 

JUNGKOOK: "What happened?"

You were trying to get out of his grasp, but as you tried held it tighter making you groan in pain.

YOU: "Ahh!"

His brows crashed together as he glared into your eyes, he noticed that your knuckles were the part that was hurting. 

He let go of your hand and looked away once again.

JUNGKOOK: "It's not like I care anyway.."

YOU: "Jungkook...Are you just going to believe a simple text that fast..? Why can't you believe that I am your wife too?"

He scoffed and smirked as he glance back at you, sending a deadly glare into your eyes.

JUNGKOOK: "Because I want to believe that text."

You slowly reached for his hands, as you took a hold of his hands he glance down at both of your hands then he look into your eyes.

YOU: "I'll be patient with you.."

You softly said as you look deep into his eyes, he was also looking deep into yours as your picture flashes through his mind, he slightly shook his head but continued to stare at your eyes...You broke off the eye contact but you could still sense him looking at you. 

YOU: "Because I love you.."

You move towards him and kissed his lips, for a moment...you could feel him closing his eyes during the kiss..The kissed lasted for about 2 minutes until you broke it off, you opened your eyes and turned around to leave...

He looked at your back leaving the room, he sighed as he play with his fingers, he couldn't sleep that night, remembering your words.

'Because I love you' 

'I'll be patient with you'

'You turned out to do everything you said you'd never do'

'Why didn't you let me die earlier?'

He sighed as he covered his face, he slowly went to sleep as hours past by..

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Everyday, you'd bring him baskets of fruits and snacks, you'd visit him and stay with although most of the time it is pretty much just silence. 

No one really visits him much, so it's basically you and him most of the time. You can kind of sense that he is slowly getting closer with you, he starts talking to you first and you can see those secret smiles of his.

Everyday, your smile got bigger and bigger it's as if he is starting to becoming himself again. Weeks past by and you were already 16 weeks pregnant.

DOCTOR: "He is free to go home tonight, make sure he gets lots of sleep and eats healthily. Take a very good care of him! I'll leave you both alone for now."

The doctor smiled, you stood up with a smile and bowed to her.

YOU: "Thank you!"

She slightly bowed back with a smile and left you and Jungkook alone. You turned to face Jungkook and a smile planted on his lips.

JUNGKOOK: "I'm happy."

You walked towards him with a smile, you held his hands tightly while looking at every part of his face to make sure he was really okay.

YOU: "I'm much more happier."

You rest your head on his chest.

JUNGKOOK: "You know...It's like I'm slowly remembering you.."

You remained silent for a moment and lift your head up from his chest, you look into his eyes and he also looked into yours.

YOU: "I really hope you do."

He smiled and so did you. After a long day with him at the hospital, you both finally are going home that night. Ji-Eun had kindly offered to send you guys home.

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JI-EUN: "Take care of my clumsy idiotic cousin okay?"

You chuckled and nodded, Jungkook sent her a glare before glancing to you.

YOU: "Bye Ji-Eun, drive safely."

She drove off, you and Jungkook walked towards the door but before entering in you knew the house would be messy because....--

YOU: "Jungkook ah.."

He gave you his attention.

YOU: "It'll look messy.....Because I.."

He chuckled.

JUNGKOOK: "I know, I don't mind."

You looked down before opening the door, as you guys entered in, you looked over to see his reaction. He was shook (JUNGSHOOK), as soon as you saw his reaction, you bury your head into his shoulder trying to cover your face.

He chuckled at your cuteness and held up your chin.

JUNGKOOK: "it's okay, this will all be cleaned up."

He smiled.

As the night past by, you both helped out one another to clean up the house as it was already around midnight.

While cleaning, Jungkook suddenly spot something that caught his attention. He glance over to you, who was busy picking up crumbled papers on the floor. He sighed.

JUNGKOOK: "Did her knuckles got hurt because she's been punching walls?"

He whispered to himself. He then came over to you and sat next to you and helped you pick up the papers, you glance at him with a smile on your face. 

YOU: "Weren't you going to clean the glasses and tables?"

He placed his hands on top of yours, he looked deeply into your eyes. 

JUNGKOOK: "Did you punch the walls?"

YOU: "Oh...Uhm..That.."

He softly moved closer to you and cupped your cheeks and kissed you, softly.

JUNGKOOK: "You didn't have to do that, I'm sorry."

You glared at him.

YOU: "Yeah, you should be you made me cried so much you playboy!"

He chuckled.

JUNGKOOK: "That sounds familiar...Tomboy!"

A smile appeared on your lips.ry

'So...He remembers..'

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Months and months past, you can not believe how easily Jungkook had regained his memory! Maybe because of you, your face, your words, everything about you made him remember it all.

You were now 7 months pregnant, 2 more months to go until your baby will finally arrive. You are living happily with Jungkook right now. But...You missed your mom and siblings badly.

7 months without seeing their faces, without hearing their voices, without contacting each other...nothing. You felt so bad for leaving your mother behind.

Many times, you wondered how Hyung-Sik and So-Hyun are doing, you even wondered if your father is looking after each and everyone of you.

You look at your phone and reread your mom's messages for you. You wanted to text her so bad, but you were scared. Scared of making her feel guilty, scared of making her cry...Scared. 

You sighed and got off the couch, turned off the tv and went down the basement to where Jungkook was. He was doing the laundries while singing along to some songs.

You secretly took out your phone and record his singing voice, without making any sounds.

'I never knew he had such an angelic voice....Aish, as his wife I should've known.'

You ended the record and tiptoed your way to him, you hugged him from behind and he stopped his movements. You could hear his small chuckle, he turned around and looked down at you with a sweet smile formed on his lips.

JUNGKOOK: "How's my singing voice?"

YOU: "Number 1 best."

He smiled.

You helped him with the laundry and all. You both sang along to some songs, and at the end you both...somehow ended up doing weird dances in the basement together.

The day has come to an end so quickly, you both washed up and chill together.

Laying down together just talking, playing with each other's fingers, laughing, smiling......This is all you needed. 

You both took pictures of one another, took pictures together and did other things that couples would do.

After a moment, there were silence in the room. 

JUNGKOOK: "Y/N ah."

YOU: "Hm?"

He sighed and looked at your side view, you could sense him looking at you so you decided to look at him back.

After a moment of staring into each other's eyes, he finally....

JUNGKOOK: "What would you do if...I was just pretending to remember you?"

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Playboy & Tomboy

To Be Continued

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NOTE:

I'm sorry for the long wait!!! I didn't have time T_T I hope this one is long enough for some of you? Enjoy! SO SO SORRRRYYYY, stay SWAG and DOPE! I have a question for you guys, should I make Fan Fiction videos AGAIN? I used to make FFV's but I stopped, should I do it again? THATS ALL FOR TODAY HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!! EAT A LOT!

11/23/17