Hey. So this is my first ever story on Wattpad and it's kind of scary but... it's for a good cause. This short tidbit is kind of a nod to a fandom I'm part of, but it's not really a fanfiction because it doesn't incorporate any elements of the actual show.

WARNING: THE CONTENTS OF THIS BOOK ARE ENTIRELY FICTION UNLESS IT IS A (BOLDED) AUTHOR'S NOTE.

September 9th, 2017

Dearest Diary,

I'm so confused... today at school I was chatting with Marinetta like we always do and my heart started beating so fast when she laughed... I don't know why.

November 24th, 2017

Dearest Diary,

I'm so weird around Marinetta lately. She keeps asking me, "Alia, what's wrong?" But I just smile and say, "Lost in thought."

BUT IT ISN'T TRUE. I'm always staring at Mar and my heart beats too fast and I'm too nervous being around her for someone who's known 'Rin FOREVER. We're BEST FRIENDS. We've always been the perfect duo - Aliyanne and Marinetta, joined at the hip, soul sisters. We even have our own treehouse carved with our initials from 2nd year and matching - or pair - Halloween outfits from every year of our lives (this year we did Lady Luck and Chatte Blanche).

But this year is different.

This year, in our last year of junior high, I started noticing her beautiful azure eyes. This year, I started seeing the way she swishes down the hall, completely confident in every step. Not caring if anyone calls her out on her wacky fashion choices. This year, I started thinking... maybe it might be cool to ask her out?

But that didn't make any sense to me. I didn't think I was lesbian. All of my previous crushes were BOYS. Ones I could giggle about with Mar. I'll just... leave this be. Especially since she's been saying she has her eye on a new boy...

January 15th, 2018

Dearest Diary,

So the new year has come and gone. Marinetta and I are still just friends. But... she has a boyfriend now.

It hurts. It hurts so much I can barely bear it. I'm so... alright, I have to say it. I'm so jealous. I can hardly stand to be around them.

His name is Arden. Arden Agristano. He's Italian, as you can probably tell. He's tall, has neat blonde hair, and the greenest eyes anyone could ever see. Rin always did like the boy-next-door type.

Me? I'm Aliyanne Ceserai, the Turkish-Peruvian girl with a weight of 62.3 kg, so short people would think I'm still in primary school if I hadn't developed, and MY hair is the most unruly red. I guess my eyes are pretty though. They're hazel.

They... they're always holding hands with each other and making couple jokes. She even DANCED with him at the New Year's Return Dance, which is the BIGGEST DANCE OF THE YEAR. They made a whole date out of it.

I should know. I was the one doing Mar's makeup, helping her pick a dress, calming her down when she freaked out, even going to the spa and getting manicures with her. It was worth it though; she looked beautiful that night. I got to see her before HE did. She had her midnight blue hair all swept up into a fancy bun with hair falling out of it messily. Her dress was a fancy black-spotted red that proofed out Victorian-era style. It covered her gorgeous sheer black flats. Her ears were adorned that night with garnets. She got them from him when they started dating, on December 17th.

I went home and sobbed that day.

I just... I don't know what to do. I can't TELL HER. SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND, DIARY. A BOYFRIEND SHE VERY MUCH LIKES. Maybe... maybe this was a mistake. Maybe I don't have a crush on her.

I'm confused... right?

My lovely bees... I have something to say. As you can probably tell, I wrote this for Pride Month. Now, I probably won't add another part to this story...

Unless you want me to. It really was meant to be a oneshot for Pride Month, but... I left it on a cliffhanger. And I am willing to continue this book. So, my amazing readers, you have two options. I leave it to vote.

Choices (please comment on either one to vote)

I will continue Aliyanne and Marinetta's story through diary entries much like this one (possibly including more in-depth on what happened in between the three entries that were included here, background on their friendship before the September it all started, and chapters where Marinetta is writing in her own diary).

I will end their story here.

It's your choice, and voting is valid until AUGUST 29TH, 2018. Oh, and if any of you recognized which show I was kind of referencing, please comment it and tell me where I can find more fanfiction.

Please know for ANYONE struggling, not just someone struggling with being a part of the LGBTQ+ community, you are ACCEPTED. You are understood. You are loved by SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE. And most of all, you are BEAUTIFUL. You are amazing and incredible, just because you are YOURSELF every single day. It's when we aren't is when we are truly in danger. You can get through whatever you're going through and you will come out stronger and better and ready to fight another day.

Finally, the shameless self-promotion that seems to be necessary. Please comment, vote, follow, and PM me if you want more stories. Bye for now!