A cold day like the cold winter's night, snowy windy night, feeling nothing or should I say feeling numb. Tears rolling down my face, empty mind heart been broken into million pieces. I want to scream so loud that it burst my ears, Want to bang my head so hard that it breaks into two, Want to pull out my hair.

Chaewol's dead body lying in front of me, in front of my eyes. Her cold dead body cold as ice, pale face, pale lips. Don't know what to do, how to handle this situation, should I cry out loud will that bring her back, should I shake her dead body maybe her heart will start to beat again. I don't know how to react.

Am I responsible for her death, cause she stopped to buy me flowers on her way back home, or Is it that truck driver to be blamed, who crushed her with the truck, or is fate responsible for this? Either way, I have lost my love, my only one, what should I do except for crying and crying and blaming fate.

I have informed my family they will be here in a while, as for her she was an orphan, raised and educated in an orphanage. She had no one except for me. She had so many dreams, she wanted to do so much, WE wanted to do so much together. But she has left me here all lonely.

Holding her cold hand in my warm ones, my heart dropping down in the pit, eyes burning, tears dripping non-stop, as much as I stop them the more they discharge. I don't want to see her dead body but this is the last time I'm seeing her, thinking about this makes my heart hurt so much, a sensation, a wave of pain is going back and forth from my left arm and heart, I'm having. a weird stomach ache, the pain I'm going through cannot be explained in words, and there is no medicine for this pain, my throat is burning, I can't even swallow the saliva.

Why god didn't take my life too with her, why I'm left here to suffer, why I'm alive to feel all this pain.

WHY ME?

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Hello, pretties, I hope you all cried while reading this chapter. Thank you for reading, last chapter will be uploaded next Sunday.