You were awestruck and seriously confused. You started to piece the puzzle together as to why Peter was always leaving you and why everything about Spider Man reminded you of him.

You don't know how long you sat on his bed thinking, but it was long enough to know that Peter came home from school. "Hey, May!" You heard Peter from downstairs. "Hi, sweetie. Do you want anything to eat?" "No I'm okay."

Peter's voice got louder, indicating that he was getting closer to his room. "Alright. (Y/n) is in your room by the way."

Your heart stopped at the sound of your name. Peter still didn't get close enough to his room, and it gave you a great opportunity to put back the spandex suit were it came from and act like you didn't just look at his stuff, but you were frozen. You want to move, but you couldn't.

Then the door opened. You gasped, gripping onto the mask as you saw Peter stand at the doorway with a happy smile. But then that smile went down when he saw what you were holding.

"(Y/n)?!" Peter whispered-yelled as he closed the door. You shook your head as you stared at the red mask. "A-are you Spider Man?" Your voice cracked, not looking up at the 15 year old. Peter shook his head as if he was making up a lie.

"No! That's just a costume–" "Are you Spider Man?" You asked again more firm while standing up, the mask still in your hand at your side. Peter approached you slowly and concern washed over his face.

"Yes."

You bit your lip to prevent yourself from yelling. Peter saw this action and sat both of you back on the bed.

"(Y/n) please don't be mad!" He almost begged. You rose your eyes up at Peter when you tried to process everything.

"I-you're.." You stuttered. "(Y/n) please, let me explain." You felt a hand on your shoulder. You kept quiet to let Peter continue.

"This is why I didn't want to tell you! This is my secret..." Peter looked at you longingly, his eyes seeing the fright on your face.

"This whole time... you were my favorite superhero?" Peter nodded. "A-and those times you saved me, that was y-you?" You felt your heart skip a beat. Peter nodded again as you got up to pace around his room. "A-a-and those times you talked to me on my balcony! I talked about you to... you!!"

You put your hands to your head, dropping the mask on the process. You felt like you were going to have a panic attack.

"Oh my god oh my god oh my god." You repeated in whispers as you walked back and forth.

"(Y/n) please, come here and let me talk to you." Peter's calm voice rang in your ears. You heard him, but there was a pit in your stomach you couldn't ignore.

Peter noticed that you didn't go to him, so he came to you. He made you stop walking by taking both of your wrists and holding them in his hands. You felt the right grip on your tendons.

"(Y/n) please! Don't freak out!" Peter begged, seeing you almost go limp in front of him. You shook your head, making a single tear slip. "No no no, please don't cry, either!" Peter brought you close to him.

"This whole time you were Spider Man and you were the one who saved me." The thought circled your head. You stood in front of Peter as he saw you try to catch your breath.

"I was." Peter's eyebrows furrowed, his hands going to cup your cheeks. Peter looked at you with such love and you didn't know how to react to any of this.

"I didn't want to tell you now because I know you're going through a lot. Trust me, I've been wanting to tell you so I wouldn't have to risk our relationship anymore!" You bit your lip to hold in cries as Peter explained. You had your hands on top of each other in fists on your chest as you listened more.

"Please don't be mad at me." Peter's voice cracked with sadness. Then he took his hands from your face and put them to yours on your chest. He unraveled your fingers and interlocked them with his.

Shaking your head, you lean into Peter's forehead. "I don't know what to feel, actually." You spoke, your voice getting a little hoarse. Looking up through your lashes, you saw Peter put his attention to your hands. He kept playing with your fingers in a comforting way.

"I love you, (y/n). Those times I had to save you, I thought I was going to lose you. And I hate myself for always leaving you when we're suppose to be together, especially that time at the park." Peter's voice ended in a whisper. Pulling your hands away from Peter's, you brought your arms up and engulfed him in a warm hug.

"I love you too, Peter. Don't think that was your fault because you didn't know." Since you were a little shorter than Peter, you squeezed his torso.

"B-but what if you get hurt?" Fear started to overtake you. Peter tightened his arms around you. "I won't. I mean I do, but I heal quickly!" Peter exclaimed reassuringly. "I got the spidey genes." Peter snickered. You let out a giggle at his humor. Then there was silence that came back between you two.

"So you're not mad?" Peter asked in a 'let-me-make-sure-tone'. You shook your head, pressing your face into Peter's shoulder.

"But I'm not happy either." You listened to his heartbeat. "This is all too much. I think we need, uhm..."

"A what, (y/n)?" Peter's voice wavered. You moved your head away from Peter's chest and looked at him dearly.

"I think we need a break." You saw how Peter's eyes went down once you finished your statement. "Oh." You slowly felt his arms pull away from your back.

"Just don't make as serious as we are, or were.." You then said. "I just need time to think and get everything straight, Peter." Peter nodded.

"I understand. When you're ready, we can try this whole relationship thing again." Peter let out a soft chuckle. You nodded with a tiny smile.

"So, are you gonna swing by my house later?" You teased, a small smile forming on your face. Peter scoffed with a giggle. "I don't know, do you want me to?" You shook your head. "I'm just teasing, Spider Boy." You lightly punched Peter's shoulder. Peter's face scrunched up at your new nickname for him.

"Let's not make this any awkward than it has to be, okay?" You shifted your weight to one leg, watching as Peter's eyes went up and down you. He nodded before taking a seat at his bed.

"Hey, wait, doesn't that mean you're an avenger?!" A sudden wave of excitement washed over you. Peter laughed at your change in mood. "And does that mean you know who the other avengers are?!" Gasping, you put a hand to your mouth as Peter kept laughing.

You had so many questions popping in your head. Taking a seat next to Peter, you let him answer once he stopped laughing.

And that was how the rest of your day went. With finding out your best friend and hold-off boyfriend was your favorite superhero, you and Peter talked like how it used to be when you first met him. You were happy and you felt all of your worries slip away.

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I think the ending of this was crap but tbh I think this whole book is falling apart ;-;

But it's almost done like I think the book is gonna end at chapter 40!

Also I started school so I'm not gonna post often, but I will try :)

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[ August 23, 2017 ]