"how many r's are there, sir?"

"two." the guy gives louis his credit card. "should i pay now or when i get it?"

"i think now is better. so later you can just rush in and get it." louis smiles friendly and lets the man pay.

"goodbye, mister terrence, see you later... or on monday..." louis scrunches up his nose. shit. sometimes he can't be nice and then again he is too nice.

and he himself thinks that he has the ability to fuck it all up and makes the customers feel uncomfortable.

"well, look at you." harry chuckles, hands in his pockets. "your the big boss here."

"shut up." louis looks down at the computer display, types a few things and looks up again.

now harry is in front of him. leaning over the counter, lower lip in between his teeth.

"you're like a ghost."

"what do you mean?"

"you're so quiet... i mean i didn't even hear you come in."

"i flew. that's why."

louis rolls his eyes. "so..."

"so..." harry repeats.

"do you need a new style, styles or were you just bored so you decided to come here and anny me."

"woah, i thought we're nice to each other now!" harry's eyes are wide but there is a bit of a smirk on his lips.

"not if you still don't take me seriously."

"how can i?" harry winks. "your little friend.. is alright now?"

louis huffs. "i get boners when i'm drunk. that's normal."

"in a gay bar."

"it's a bar. who cares about the gayness?"

"you, mister straighty... anyway i came here to ask you if we go out tonight. together i mean.. ahem in the bar again, you know?"

"why?" louis furrows his brows.

"because i thought maybe i could help you, you know? get you a guy to snog or fuck with. you said you wanted to experiment and i told you i would help."

louis sighs. "yeah.. i did say this... right... i don't know though if today's a good idea. i mean tomorrow or... in a week... or maybe next month?"

harry laughs loudly. there is only one customer in the shop looking around. she looks at harry weirded out and shakes her head.

"no. today. i will force you if it's necessary. not only niall is good at forcing people go to gay bars."

"well..." louis trails off, greets a new customer and looks back. "okay then. but be late."

harry salutates. "yes, sir. of course i will be late. minimum three hours."

louis laughs weakly, anxious only thinking about the coming evening. he tells harry his adress and they decide harry will pick him up.

=.=.=.=.=

louis's flat is small. it's tiny and not only the last girlfriend said it's too tiny. even for him.

louis stands in front of the mirror. not sure about his outfit, not sure about his hair. he alwas has been very vain. one of the reasons some assholes called him a fag in school.

but you see: looks don't tell shit about sexual orientations and the most flamboyant guy can be straight.

that's louis's motto. that's louis's category.

he owns this shit. yeah. flamboyant and straight.

well... 

louis's face gets sad and confused. one last stare in the mirror and then he turns around to his bed, where his cat is laying.

she meows at him lazily.

"i hate you, too." louis mumbles and sits down next to the old lady. 

when his family moved he kept the confused cat. even though she is old, stinks a bit to strong and hisses too much, louis's loves her company.

maybe because he sees himself in her. maybe because he became part cat living with her.

he doesn't want to think back to the day he hissed at eleanor, he doesn't... and he doesn't want to think back to her words.

her meanie mean words.

and oh... not her look. not this look in her face.

that was a weird day.

"not so straight, maybe... do you think i could be gay or something? look at me, dammit." he looks at his animal and makes her purr. his hand in her fur.

"be honest. i need the truth. i just..." he huffs. "i don't wanna go, you know? being straight is easy, but on the other side.. i can't live like this anymore."

as if it was planned the door bell rings.

"coming!" louis shouts, stands up and runs to the door.

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what should i name the cat? (it can be something crazy if you want... you know louis's character so yeah he'd probably choose something crazy.)

(i made a smol rant book... check it out if you'd like??) :D

thanks for your support. <3

(who saw what i did in the beginning lol)