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"It's our baby boy's birthday, the first one. I didn't think it would be fitting to not share this day with you too."

Taehyung

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Taehyungs POV

AU - Ya may want tissues, am not sure, I cried while writing it but then reading it after I was fine (however that could have been bec I knew what I had written) so take ya pick of whether you start with tissues.

1 year later, Saturday, 8:30am.

My eyes opened to the sound of Juwon crying.

I stretched out my body, kicking my legs over the bed before wandering just down the hallway into Juwons room.

I walked over to the crib where Juwon lay, lifting him out.

"Hi." I coed softly while holding Juwon in my arms.

"Are you hungry hm?" I hummed softly as Juwon continued to cry.

I bent over kissing his face, making him start to giggle as I left a raspberry on his tummy, stopping his cries.

Then I wandered with him in my arms through the lounge, then to the kitchen.

I heated up the baby milk bottle before putting Juwon into the baby chair.

Then I cut up some bananas for him, mushing it a bit because his mouth is still developing.

Then I put down the plate, lifting some banana up on a spoon to Juwons mouth.

"Shall we go see your daddy today?" I hummed while letting the banana slip into his mouth while his small stubby fingers grabbed onto the plastic board in front of him.

I smiled while seeing some banana drip down his plumper lip.

"You remind me of him everyday." I muttered to myself while brushing my finger over Juwons lip.

Juwon hummed random sounds while hitting his hands on the table to indicate he wanted more.

I chuckled before spooning some more in his mouth.

Then I got up to grab the warmed milk as Yeontan ran towards me.

I bent over while smiling as I pet him with the milk in my left hand.

Then I walked back over to Juwon, letting his smaller hands wrap around the bottle as he sucked at the tip.

His dark black hair was an untidy mess on the top of his head and his eyes were a stunning chocolatey brown like Jimins.

Even his skin was like Jimins.

The only thing that I've noticed that is similar to me is that even though he has similar lips to Jimin, when he smiles, he has a box smile like mine.

I spoon fed him the rest of the banana while every now and again eating some of it myself.

Then I lifted Juwon out of the chair.

"Happy Birthday my little man, we shall open birthday gifts with your father." I whispered softly while taking him back to his bedroom in my arms.

I put him down, sitting up in the crib before searching through his clothing.

My heart sank while seeing denim overalls with a dinosaur sleeved shirt and some pants. The pair Jimin loved when we went shopping.

I felt tears gloss over my eyes as I pulled it out of the wardrobe.

I put it down in the crib, taking Juwon's pyjama's off, changing his nappy too before carefully putting Juwon in the outfit my boyfriend loved so much.

"Your dad loved this outfit, it's like he knew it would look so good on you." I hummed as I crouched down in front of the crib, peaking through the white bars at my son.

Juwon smiled widely while letting his smaller left hand reach towards my nose through the crib bars, squeezing it.

I chuckled softly before standing up.

"I'll be back in a second little man. Just I need to get dressed." I replied while heading into the bedroom beside Juwon's.

I stood in front of the wardrobe, sighing as I looked at only my clothing.

I pulled out an oversized black jacket, along with some black ripped jeans and a brown woolen shirt.

I slowly got dressed, my eyes casting over to the photo frames beside my bed.

A tear slipped down my cheek as I caught the glimpse of my handsome boyfriend, his black hair neatly out of the way of his sparkly hazel eyes as he held Juwon in his arms.

Beside the photo was another where I held Juwon in my arms that I remember Jimin taking.

And beside that was a selfie that I took where Jimin held Juwon and I sat cuddled beside him, snapping the photo of the 3 of us.

"It will be nice to visit you again today." I hummed once I was fully clothed.

I sat down on the bed, taking the photo of Jimin holding Juwon in my hands before kissing the photograph.

Then I put it down, wandering back into Juwon's room.

Juwon sat there, looking at me as I entered.

I smiled as I walked over to pick him up, then I grabbed my car keys and the house keys on the way out of my house before heading to the car.

I put Juwon in the backseat in his green booster seat.

Then I got into the front seat, driving away from our house.

I felt almost like my heart was being pulled in the direction of Jimin as I drove.

Upon arrival, tears blurred my eyes.

I parked the car but I stayed still for a second, taking a deep breath before getting out of my car to get Juwon.

I carefully unbuckled his booster seat, picking him up so that his small head rested on my shoulder, his legs dangling around my waist while I held him so that my stomach was pressed to his.

I wandered along the pathway with Juwon in my arms, getting closer with every step.

Then I paused as I saw Park Jimin.

The white curly writing was written along the top of Jimin's polished black grave stone.

I walked closer, reading the words in my head, 'Beloved by his boyfriend, friends and family - Kim Taehyung, Kim Juwon, Jeon Jungkook, Jeon Hayoon & Park Jihyun'.

I did choose to leave Hoseok and Yoongi's names off. Mostly because Hoseok was more my friend in the end, he was never that close to Jimin. And Yoongi never met Jimin again to clear everything up to Jimin's face so I knew if Jimin was a ghost seeing it, he wouldn't want his name on the grave.

I crouched down in front of the grave, a small smile appearing on my face as I put Juwon down in front of me, turning him to look at the grave.

Only he sat a second later in front of it, playing with the grass in front of him.

"Hi Jimin-ah," I said softly.

"I-I... I don't know if you can hear me, but... I really miss you," I stated as my eyes clouded over with sadness.

"It's only been a year but everyday I replay images of you in our house," I continued.

"Mostly, I think about what you said to me last," I mumbled.

"You told me that you loved me, and Juwon. I never knew those would be the last words you'd say to me, but man am I glad they are." I coed as my voice cracked a little.

Tears fell down my cheeks.

"Ah sorry." I muttered as I covered my eyes with my hands, wiping away the tears before looking back at Jimin's grave.

"It's our baby boy's birthday, the first one. I didn't think it would be fitting to not share this day with you too." I explained while Juwon looked up at me.

He's probably wondering who I'm talking to.

"I even put him in the clothes you loved, I think you have great taste because he looks on fleek today." I said while chuckling.

"Happy birthday Juwon." I hummed while kissing the top of Juwon's head, then I placed the present that I had hidden in my pocket, in front of Juwon.

He instantly grabbed it, playing around with it before learning to rip the paper.

"I also hope you don't mind that I took Juwon to school to meet your students. They loved him but were so upset about you, especially Namjoon when he found out we named the baby what he originally came up with." I told Jimin while Juwon finished unwrapping the gift.

"What have you got there baby?" I whispered to Juwon as I rubbed my hand up and down his back.

He made funny noises as he lifted the toy car I got for him, up to his mouth to suck on.

I laughed before taking it out of his mouth.

"You do this with it." I instructed as I let it run across the grass under my hand.

Juwon stood up in front of me, leaning over to grab it before sitting down again and copying what I did.

I grinned at my achievement while letting Juwon play.

I gasped though as I saw Juwon walk towards me for the first time.

I hugged him so tightly as he landed in my arms.

I couldn't wait for the day Juwon had his first steps, but I cannot believe he did it in front of Jimin and I. 

Maybe Jimin somehow helped him?

I hope he speaks his first proper word in front of us too. Even if he mistakes me for Jimin a couple times, I want to teach him Jimin's name.

"I love you both." I coed while patting Juwon's back as his fingers grabbed tightly onto my woolen brown shirt.

I've come to realize that even if you aren't here right now, I still have a piece of you with me. It may not be the full piece of you I want to be with, but I have a piece of you here in my arms, as well as a piece of you deep in my heart. You may be gone but a piece of my love for you is living deep within my heart...

AU - I cried again while writing this!!! Ahhhh- EMOTIONAL DAMAGE~ Thoughts? It's not a dream, it's what really happened...

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