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TITLE: FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

zayn

"mama! mama!" i hear as i'm pulled out of my slumber. my eyes open to see wide blue eyes. "my baby! good morning chookie" i smile, hugging my youngest and littering his face with kisses.

"mama, stop! it tickles" his sweet giggles fill the room. i feel movement beside me and my husband's soft face comes into view.

"hey! why wasn't i invited to this cuddle fest?!" justin says smiling. "ahh daddy, the sun's awake! so it is the morning, good morning dada" ayaan yells excitedly.

"i love you mama and dada" he smiles hooking an arm around us both. "i love you so much baby" we coo. "can i have blueberry pancakes today?" he asks sitting in front of us.

"of course chook! it's a special day. you start big boy school today, are you excited?" justin asks. ayaan nods his head excitedly. "yes yes, i am gonna have so much fun"

"you will baby, it's gonna be a great day!" i say getting out of bed and opening the curtains. "it's a good day to have a great day" ayaan yells. "that's right chookie, now let's go downstairs and start our day" i say coaxed him off the bed.

he jumps off happily and grabs my hand. i smile at my husband and give him a quick kiss. "good morning love" he smiles back "morning sweets"

"let's go wake up bubby and sissy" i say walking out of the bedroom. "sissy is in the shower but bubs told me to go away" he frowns. "that's not nice! let's wake him up right now" i say opening his door.

the room is dark with the curtains drawn. "chookie if that's you, get out" i hear my eldest mumble. "you better not be talking to me young man" i say walking into the room.

"ma please it's too early" he whines pulling his blanket up over his head. ayaan jumps on the best and lays on top of his brother. "bubby the sun is awake so we gotta wake up and eat!" ayaan says over the blanket, right over alex's face.

"we get to have pancakes today" he says. "hmm are they blueberry?" alexander asks. ayaan grins and rips the blanket. "yes! daddy said he's gonna make them"

"well what are we waiting for?! blueberry pancakes are waiting for us!" alexander smiles and grabs ayaan swinging him around.

"gmorning mama" he says before leaving the room. "good morning love, your clothes are ironed and ready for you on the desk" i mention to him. "thanks, you're a queen!"

i laugh before following my boys downstairs. the smell of blueberries fills my nose. ayaan sitting at the island, talking animatedly to justin while he flips the pancakes.

"where's lysey?" justin asks as i stand behind ayaan fixing his hair. "she's in the shower daddy" ayaan pipe in nibbling on a blueberry that alex stole from the bowl. "ay keep your paws away from my bluebs" justin swats alex's hand away, making ayaan giggle.

"chookie told me to!" alex says pointing to his brother. ayaan gasps "no i did not" justin and i laugh. "good morning princess" justin says as our only daughters walks in.

"morning everyone" she smiles while giving me a hugging. "good morning my pretty girl, you're up early this morning" i say keeping my arms wrapped around her.

"yeah gotta get in before these two monsters take over" she laughs pointing at her brothers. "excuse you, you're the one who leaves their hair everywhere!" alex says. "yeah and those bobby stick things" ayaan adds.

"this is why i need my own bathroom" annalyse rolls her eyes yet keeping a smile. "we said you could move into the spare room, it's got an ensuite" justin says as he hands her a plate.

"i know but i love my room" she pouts. "hmm i can get your uncle to build a bathroom in the closet next to your room and we can open the wall" justin suggest, cutting up the pancakes for ayaan.

"oh really, that would be great!" she smiles excitedly. "i'll call your uncle up later and we will discuss it" justin says.

"well, we all have a big day today, so let's get ready!" i say putting the dishes into the dishwasher.

"say thank you to daddy for breakfast" i said before they move out of the kitchen. "thanks man" "thanks dad" "thank you dada, i loved them" goes our youngest, hugging his leg.

"alright little man, let's get you ready!" justin cheers picking him up. "i'll make the lunches!" i say.
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"alright, chicken salad sandwich for al, chicken salad for lyse and i, salmon rice bowls for justin and chook" i say lining them up and packing them into containers with waters and fruit drinks.

"oh! chicken sandwich no pickles for andrew" i say adding it to one of the bags, making sure to add extra to that bag.

"kids! your lunches are on the bench with your names!" i yell before getting ready myself.

it's only tuesday so not a busy schedule at the office.

i hopped out of the shower and began drying my hair. deciding to straighten it quickly before walking into the wardrobe.

it's blue satin blouse with a grey pencil skirt and cute pair of heels.

"Oo sexy mama, you love ravishing" i heard behind me. i jump as i look at justin in the mirror.

i blush and look away. "this is just an everyday thing" i say fixing my skirt.

"well then you look delectable everyday" he whispers placing soft kisses behind my ear. "stop!" i say embarrassed while pushing him back.

"no i will always be here to remind you, that you my queen are beautiful" he says as he looks at me through the mirror.

i shake my head. no i will never be beautiful and i will never deserve to have this perfect life.

"babe please" i look down "justin please stop, i don't wanna talk about it"

i hear him sigh as i leave the room. i just don't know what he sees in me anymore.
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"aww my babies are so gorgeous, stand still and smile so i can take a photo" i say holding my phone. "not too many mama" ayaan whines. i laugh. "ok ok i'm done," i say fixing his tie before getting in the car.

"my babies, have a great day, do your best, spread kindness and i love you all" my husband says kissing their cheeks as we all get out.

ayaan's first day of school. feels like only yesterday only yesterday when i my water broke and justin was on stage performing. now he's five and ready to tackle the big school world.

we hear clicks and chatter as i look up. shit paps! i frown as ayaan brings his arms up. "it's okay babe, let's go in" justin says ushering us into the school gates.

not before the paps block us. "justin.. zayn"

"justin justin, why is zayn still here?"

"where is selena?"

"it is true she cheated on you and has ayaan from someone else?" i frown. no i would never.

"who's ayaan's father?"

"mama, it's scary" ayaan begins to cry. i rub his back. "it's okay love, we're almost there" i sau to him before hiding his face in my neck.

we get bombarded with more questions before making it into the school gates. i sigh and try to regain myself. "zayn baby" justin begins to speak. i shake my head no. "it's fine" i say blocking all of their cruel words.

i would never cheat on justin. ayaan is his. i...i would never.

"mum" alexander says walking in front of me as my eyes begin to water. "it's okay al" "no! it's not those bastards are so rude and disgusting" no i'm disgusting.

"i will deal with it later" i dismiss before rocking ayaan in my arms. "alright chookie, we're here!" i say before putting him down.

"alexander my brother! i missed you!" i hear as a young man walks up and hugs my son. "drew, i saw you yesterday" alex says. "it's been too long" andrew whines looking up at alex.

"mama bieber, you look beautiful as always" he greets. justin steps in "back off young man" "justin stop" i laugh hugging my son's best friend.

"i packed an extra meal in alex's bag for you" i whisper to him before pulling back. andrew's eyes tear up before he gives me a look of appreciation. "thank you"

andrew is alex's best friend and he's in the foster system until he turns eighteen. to be honest, it's not the best. andrew has not had the best upbringing so justin and i always try to support the young man as much as we can. being positive role models in his life.

"alright, let's get to class!" i clap my hands. the three older kids cheer with sarcasm while ayaan jumps up and down.

departing with the older ones, justin and i bring ayaan to the infant section. before we can even say goodbye, our youngest is running off to his teacher. we had an orientation day where everyone got to meet each other so he already knows who he has.

"i love you!" both justin and i yell. ayaan turns around and blows kisses before going inside. oh.. that was it? my eyes tear up, he's grown so much and he didn't even cry.

"well that hurts" justin says. "i remember alexander cried the whole time and i had to pry him off you" he continues. i nodded, chuckling a bit. we turn and walk back to the car.

"zayn, about before-" he starts. "no i don't wanna talk about it" "but" "but nothing, there's nothing to talk about" i say avoiding this conversation.

"yes there is! i don't know why they keep insulting you and it's not right!" he says angrily. "i...i don't know either" i sigh.

we walk out the gates and justin walks me to my car. "i love you baby" he says caressing my face. "i love you too" i smile.

"i'll see you at dinner?" he asks. "i'll see you at dinner" i confirm hugging him.

"my beautiful queen" he says before pulling back.

i get in the car and he stays making sure i've locked the car and walks over to his range rover that his security pulled up in.

i blow him a kiss and he smiles and catches it, making a show to put it in his pocket. dork.

time for work!

i start the drive to the office and i get a message.

"let's have lunch today? - h"

i smile making my way through the city.

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ahhh how was the new chapter?

i lowkey have no idea where i'm going with the plot but let's just go with the flow.

feedback is always appreciated

- S.