okay why am I so strange

I freak out over silly things and I'm panicking because I wish I had like people IRL who cared for me and the rest of my life is freaking me out. Like all my friends can talk me out of my little panics but like YHEY LIVE IN DIFFERENT PARTS OF THE WORLD OR THE COUNTRY AND I REALLY REALLY JUST COULD USE A HUG. I really just want a hug and I don't have friends to do it.

Like a hug from Jacob is good, but like a lot of the time I feel like he's temporary because he could leave at any moment

like a hug from a friend is so much more comforting.

but you need to have friends to get those hugs.

fuck it.

I've made it this far.

xxluca