(y/n) - your name

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I stand on the sidelines as the family fought over Harlan, Viktor trying to convince the family that he wasn't a threat and that nothing was going to happen with him and definitely not give him to the Sparrows.

Not on my watch! That sweet bean is not getting killed!

"He's the reason we're in this mess, and he's our only way out of it." Luther says.

"The Sparrows don't only want him." Allison mumbles out and I glare at her.

"Over my dead body." Five hisses out, stepping close to me.

"If we're gonna have even a slim chance of getting out of this alive, we need to get to the Kugelblitz somehow." Diego sighs out with the family being divided on the situation.

"There's only four of them left. We can just overpower them." Viktor says.

"3 technically if Sloane doesn't want to fight us cause of Luther. And maybe I scared them shitless when I came back alive so they might not even try to fight us." I shrug and Diego and Allison gape at me.

"Wait hold the phone, what do you mean came back alive!?" Diego exclaims and I point my thumb at him while looking at Luther and Viktor.

"You didn't tell him?" the two wince and shake their head. "Ben wrangled my body with his tentacles. Literally snap, crackle and popped." Diego and I both shudder.

"Do you really want to risk losing some of us in the process? Harlan is insignificant." Five says and I gasp in anger, him freezing knowing he fucked up.

"You told me once that no one is insignificant. They'll kill him!" Viktor argues back. "They'll kill (y/n)! I know that you don't see her as insignificant so why is Harlan?" Five looks over at me and I frown at him but he nods, siding with Viktor in this silently. The rest of the family wasn't happy since Five was usually the most logical one, he didn't care what happened in the between as long as he reached the end goal.

But now... he had someone to protect.

"I'm not letting the birdbrains lay a hand on you again." He whispers as he holds my hand and I look at him in surprise. I thought maybe he would go through any means to stop the apocalypse and he frowns seeing my shock. "I may have been heartless before but I'm not losing you. I won't let you go." He pulls me into a hug as he leans his chin on top of my head, leaning back against a counter as my back was to the family.

"We are talking about one person versus saving billions of lives here. I mean, is this really a debate for you people?" Lila says and this ethical conundrum was getting annoying.

"Hey, Little Britain? You don't get a vote!" Viktor snaps.

"Lila lives in this universe too. Besides, she's family now. Kinda, sorta."

"Thanks, kitten." Lila says to Klaus as he simply nods. I couldn't tell if he was sober or drunk at the moment.

"I don't give a shit about the Sparrows, but I'm not gonna let scary-ass Grandpa finish you off!" Diego argues.

"Five days ago, he was just a little kid."

"He's not a threat to us, well directly, but he won't willingly hurt us." I speak up with Viktor, hoping to get them to see Harlan didn't mean to just burst out of nowhere.

"Really? Well about the two Sparrows he just fried to a crisp!?" Allison says and honestly, her voice was annoying me right now.

"He was protecting Viktor and helping me! He stopped my Doppel from hurting you guys!"

"This isn't about you-"

"-I'm trying not to make it out to be but to see you just trade off Harlan to the Sparrows like some game piece cause they want him dead... We can protect him, we can even ask him to fight with us against the Sparrows if they decide to retaliate! Hell, Five could just teleport us one by one to the basement to where the Kugelblitz is without coming across the Sparrows. Why are you trying to get rid of him like this!?"

"He's dangerous!"

"And I'm not!?" I tear up, my hands shaking against Five's chest.

"(y/n)-"

"-don't lie to me! You're terrified of me! I can see it even if you try to hide it. If Five wasn't here, I would be gone with Harlan too, wouldn't I?" everyone stays quiet, looking guilty.

How could they...

They would actually give me up?

"So that's what we both are all to you. A liability..." I step away from Five's arms, feeling disgusted with myself in my own skin as I gripped my arms harshly. I stand with Viktor who looks at me sadly. He was the only one, along with Klaus, that tried to fight for me.

"We're down to ethical triage here, all right? We can't save everyone. The kindest cut wins."

"Can't we try...?" I look at Five and he frowns. "Can't we at least try?" I beg, looking at Luther who walks up to us.

"You always wanted to be on the team. This is what it is. Saving the world means making the hard calls."

It doesn't always have to be...

"I hate this..."

"Yeah, I know... I'll go get him."

"Wait, no. Let me do it. He trusts me. I can convince him to come quietly." Viktor says to Luther before walking past him and I make a move to walk away as well when Five grabs hold of my sleeve.

"Five please-"

"-(y/n) wait." Luther says and I look up at him, frowning. "I'm sorry... we're all sorry for everything we did."

"We didn't mean it... we just didn't know what to do... I'm sorry (y/n)..." Diegos mutters out, rubbing the back of his neck. I look over at Allison who didn't make a move to apologise until Diego forced her too.

"You're family (y/n) and we should've treated you like one but better, ya know considering we're assholes to each other anyway." Klaus shrugs, hoping he would get a smile at him but my arms stayed crossed over my chest and he frowns sadly.

"We really are sorry (y/n)."

I look over at the family, a sick feeling in my stomach.

They hurt me...

But I didn't want to hurt them...

"I considered you guys my family...after I couldn't go back to mine..." I shake my head, stepping back. "I would've done anything for you guys..." I mumble out, walking away. I couldn't be near them knowing that somewhere in the back of their minds, there used to be a chance of me being handed to the Sparrows.

I drunkenly spin the empty glass next to me, laying on the floor behind the counter with different kinds of bottles surrounding me. I clumsily pick one up, drinking from the bottle to numb my brain and feelings. I didn't want to think... didn't want to feel... I just wanted to sleep but at the same time, I didn't want to. I was scared of not waking up again. Different emotions were running around miles per second as I stared blankly at the cupboards in front of me, music thrumming through my ears with headphones I found for my phone.

I put the bottle down, feeling sick as I slowly stand up, groaning softly as I lean against the top of the counter. A feeling of dread swarmed over me as I looked at my hands, the darkness had crept over my fingers and my palms while growing very slowly.

I lost...

She's taking over...

My hands shook as my eyes became teary, trembling from the wisps of Her slowly taking over my body. I close my eyes in defeat, taking my headphones off when I hear arguing and I look over to see Allison and Luther in front of me by the pool tables.

When did they get here?

I watch silently, Allison, gripping the table harshly. "You can't be serious! You're blowing me off for some knockoff you've known for five minutes!?"

"What do you even want from me? " Luther scoffs. "No, come on, be honest. If you had Ray and Claire back, would you even be here?"

"But they're not back, are they!?" Allison storms up to Luther, clearly drunk and angry and my world just started turning as I clung to the tables to stay upright.

"I get that you need a distraction, but you can't use me for that!"

"I can if I want to." I narrow my eyes at Allison, blood boiling from her words.

"That's not funny."

"I heard a rumour you stay."

"I'm done letting other people decide how much I can stand to lose."

"Allison, please. Don't do this." I clench my jaw, seeing the bitch open her mouth again and I let all my inhibitions go.

"I heard a rumour-" I don't know what happens next but the next thing I know, Allison was gasping and clawing at the dark ink that flew out to her before it harshly pulled her towards the counter. She slammed against the edge painfully, my hand up in front of her as the darkness from my fingers wrapped around her mouth. I sneered at her as I pulled her down to my height, ignoring Luther who was unfortunately stuck in his spot.

"-I heard a rumour that you were going to force yourself onto Luther." I smile wickedly and her eyes widen knowing I caught her. She tries to pull away from me but I harshly pull her back down as she panted for her through her nose. "Now you listen to me and you listen good, cause I'm not going to repeat myself. I get it you were hoping to come back to Claire but this is not how to do it. I know that you're hurting because you lost your child but you can't be selfish like this and hurt everyone around you! Especially not sexually assaulting Luther!" I sneer and she glares at me. The darkness unravels from her mouth and she gasps for air but wraps around her throat where her injury used to be.

"You don't get it! Everyone else is fine to continue living but I lost my daughter! I left Ray to be with her and I can't even do that! So no! You don't get it!" I growl at Allison, throwing her to the floor as I try to hold back my tears.

"I don't get it!? I lost my family Allison! I can't go back to my mum or my sister! I had a chance, a smidge of a chance to be able to be with them again but no, I can't go to them!" Allison looks up at me as I wipe my tears away. "I can't grow up with my mum, I can't see my little sister graduate from high school and university, I can't see her get married to someone she loves... I can't see her happy... I can't see them be happy anymore... I lost my mum and sister Allison... so if you think I don't get it, I do!" I fall to my knees as everything gets blurry from the alcohol, holding my hands to my chest as the darkness seeps back into my hands.

"(y/n)..." she mumbles sadly as I cried.

"I don't want to die..." I mumble out. "I don't want to die... I want my family... I miss my mum..." I hug myself hoping it was her as everything just comes crashing around me emotionally.