(y/n) - your name

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"Sweetheart, wake up." I groan softly when I feel someone brush my hair gently from my face, opening my eyes to see Five sitting in front of me on the bed. I feel something fuzzy by my fingers and I see kitten Five asleep next to me, it's head tucked beneath my hand and I rub his head as he purrs in his sleep. I smile tiredly at my Five as he beams at me, kissing my cheek and I bump my nose against his before stretching and sitting slowly from the soreness in my body. "Here, for the pain." he hands me the box of pain killers and a glass of water, wincing from the ache in my lower body.

"Right-" I blush heavily when my voice was all hoarse and croaked, my boyfriend smirking at me before he kissed my throat while he rubbed my hips.

"One hell of a night huh." I gasp lightly as Five nips my neck before he moves back to chuckle lightly. "I made sure to call your work to give you the day off and they said that was expected since a lot of people apparently get drunk after these parties." I nod, rubbing my throat.

"I don't think I can move anywhere today..." I croak lightly and my love holds my chin to press a feather-light kiss on my lips.

"I know. That's why I'm taking care of you for the next few days sweetheart. Don't want my girl being in pain, now do we?" I shake my head, blushing as he trails his kisses down my neck, his hand moving from my hips to trail over my bare thighs beneath what I'm guessing was his shirt.

"Five!" my breath hitches when I feel his fingers swipe up against my pussy, trembling from the oversensitivity.

"Fuck, I love it when you're so sensitive. You become so dependent on me." I whine softly from his lips brushing against my shoulder, quickly pulling away completely to catch the glass before I tipped the water on the bed. "Now, your meds sweetheart." He smirks down at me as I look at him with wide eyes, dazed and desperate to be held by him. I quickly shake my head from the sudden sub haze, grabbing two tablets and downing them with the water before I stretch over to my bedside table. "Wait, I'll get it. Just sit down and relax (y/n). What do you need?"

"Morning after pills..." I whisper as Five opens the drawer and he goes rigid for a quick second when he hears me before taking out the tablets for me to take one with the water. I look at him warily as he looked at the box, sitting silently on the bed next to me. "Five?" I mumble out, touching his shoulder and he blinks out of his trance with a solemn look in his eyes. "What's wrong?" He purses his lips.

"How long have you been taking these?" He asks.

I flush and clear my throat. "Before we started hooking up... why?"

"It's just... I know we talked about this before briefly but... what do you think about kids?"

"What do you mean?" I look at him in confusion.

"Like..." I watch with furrowed brows as he puts the tablets back in the drawer. "having kids? Or well... your opinion on them."

"You mean having biological kids?" I ask and he nods. I didn't know what to say, twiddling with his ring he gave me in an effort to calm my nerves from the sudden topic. "You said you wanted kids before but... why?" Five sighs as he rubs the back of his neck when I ask him.

"I don't know. I lived once with no one, a second time again with no family and both times with no childhood or loving parents. I had none of those so... maybe I'm not capable of bringing up one of my own. But on the other hand... maybe I could give those kids a better life than what I went through..."

"...but?" I knew there was something else hidden.

"I've dreamed about having a normal life. That average American dream... a wife, kids, dogs with a house that has a white picket fence but I burned that dream when I thought it wasn't possible to have." I frown at Five's words, feeling sick in my stomach. This was the second time we were having this conversation again.

But I couldn't give him those.

He wanted to get married but I didn't.

And he wanted to have kids but... I don't. Not biological ones anyway.

Shit...

"Five... I don't know what to say... we're-"

"-still too young I know but (y/n), I've lived for over 60 years. I'm not young mentally. You forget that it's only physical." I narrow my eyes at Five's sudden sharp tone. "I've lived for too long to not want to settle in and have a family."

"Turn around and talk to me Hargreeves." I grit out, trying not to get mad. "If you want to talk then face me instead of the wall 'cause if this is how you feel, we really need to talk." Five purses his lips as he turns around to face me and I frown when he grabs my hands to hold mine.

"I want to marry you." I quickly snatch my hands away from his words and I could see the hurt in his eyes from my movement. "I want to settle down with you, live with you somewhere quiet outside the city, just be together with no more troubles or worries-"

"-Five... you can't compensate for what your life would've been like if you didn't jump the first time." I whisper and he looks at me with a frown. "I know that you're tired and you just don't want to do anything anymore, to retire but I can't do that. I'm a 19-year-old in a 23 year-old body. This is my timeline but I know it's not yours. You should be 30 something and not 22, having your married life with kids and a wife like your family-well Allison and Diego and Lila I think-did but it's not like that now."

"I know but every time I bring up us having a future with you, it's a grey area with you."

"I'm too young-"

"-you're always using that excuse!" Five exclaims and I glare at him.

"Because I am! You need to understand, I legit just got out of high school two years ago mentally! I can't get married Five! And I can't have kids!"

"Not now but in the future-"

"-I can't get married and I'm not having kids Five! Ever!" I snap at him.

"Do you not want to have a life with me!?" Five snaps at me and I gasp at his words. When he realised what he said, he got up from the bed and paced in front of the bed. "I just want to live with you-"

"-I'm not ready Five!" I yell out, trying to make him understand but he was just so fucking thick-headed! "I don't feel mature enough to go through that sort of commitment! For fucks sake, I live in an apartment with you! I don't own enough for a house! I'm not ready and I'm terrified!" Five looks at me with an apologetic look in his eyes and I shake my head. "Have you seen my parents!? I'm terrified of getting married because I never thought I would find someone who would love me for me to actually want to stay with me and not divorce me. That fucked me over, seeing their marriage blow up in flames! Watching my parents struggle financially after the divorce and them hating each others guts! And kids, fuck that's a whole lot of responsibility I don't want to juggle because I don't want to go through that pain or put those kids through a miserable childhood like I went through!"

"(y/n)..."

"I swore that to myself that I will end the bloodline with me! My father will never have that legacy! Five I started saving up to have a hysterectomy!" I exclaim and he looks at me heart broken.

"Hysterectomy... you actually... do you not want kids at all...? Not even with me...?" He whispers, looking so torn as he moves to sit on the bed.

I reach out to him, to hold his hand. "Five, you need to understand I have a lot more baggage hidden away... especially when it comes to growing up, being an adult, all the marriage and kids stuff. It all... terrifies me. All the pain and struggling, the hatred and sacrifice. I'm not ready for it. I don't know if I ever will be... or if I ever even want to be ready..."

"You need more time..." he whispers as he holds my hand.

"I just need more time..." I nod and Five sighs. "Five... you have to understand, I've never wanted to get married or have kids in the first place. I've kept that promise for over a decade when my family fell apart and I swore to end the bloodline with me." He looks at me with a frown. "It's not you, it's me. My decision to fuck my dad over and have him rolling in his grave but even personally, I will not go through that pain of giving birth. Period." He doesn't say anything as he held my hand that held his ring on my ring finger. "I'm asking you, please, to wait for me but if you can't then maybe we shouldn't be together-"

"-I'll wait for you. Even if it means the rest of my life." Five quickly says, shaking off the idea of us breaking up.

"You shouldn't have to say that-"

"-I can't lose you (y/n)..." he begs, burying his head against my neck. "if you don't want to get married, if you don't want to have kids, then that's fine with me-"

"-Five, you shouldn't just change yourself to stay with someone either like that. It's not healthy-"

"-please. I understand you need time. I can wait and we can talk about it again later in the future." I nod hesitantly, letting Five pick me up so we both were cuddled on the bed under the blankets. "I understand you need both of us to go through a couple years together first."

"Just... let me grow up first... let me catch up first. I feel so left behind and even the idea of surgery scares me so I don't about anything for the future. I have no certainties or anything concrete, let me live first." My love nods and hugs me tightly, understanding I need more time to live my life first. He pulls me into his lap and rocks me, pressing kisses on my head. "I'm sorry..."

"You have nothing to apologise for, my love. I can't wait-"

"-you've waited for too long... it's not fair to you-"

"-it's not fair to you to have me push you either." Five says sternly. "I can  wait. For you, it's worth it. I'll wait for however long you need." I nod, snuggling against his chest.

"I don't mind adopting though... I've always thought about adopting some kids when I didn't want biological ones..." I whisper shyly and I feel my love smile against my hair.

"Then we can keep that in mind for further down the road when we're ready. I'm sorry for snapping at you..." he apologises, squeezing me in his arms and holding me close.

"I'm not. You know I have anger management issues. That's on you for riling me up and me yelling at you." I chuckle and Five laughs with me. "But Five, seriously, just give me a couple more years. Let me grow up first, be an actual adult and see if I'm ready for the big commitments of marriage and kids..."

"Of course. I'll be with you the entire time for whatever decision you make."

I hum softly in bliss as I watched the tv while I laid on my head on Five's lap, his hands brushing through my hair gently. I turn around to look up at him while he was reading a book, seeing a smile growing on his face when he notices me looking at him. He glances at me behind his glasses, his fingers brushing against my cheeks and I lean into his touch.

"Do you need anything?" he asks softly, setting down his book to rub my hip and I shake my head no. He chuckles lowly, holding my jaw and leans down to kiss me sweetly. I lean up to kiss him back softly, running my fingers through his hair.

"I'm fine, not as sore as before..." my love chuckles as he leans back, pecking my lips and I snort lightly when his glasses fall down to hit mine.

"That's going to leave a scratch." he muses as he leans back and I push his glasses back up on his nose before taking mine off to set it down on the coffee table, turning around to snuggle against his stomach. "Comfortable?" I hum out, nodding and he goes back to run his fingers through my hair, soothing me to sleep. It was moments of domestic bliss that made me feel so happy.

By the time I was awake again, I had smelt something delicious drift around me and I sit up to see Five cooking in the kitchen. Now, this was a scene that always surprised me no matter how many times I saw it. I still couldn't believe that my boyfriend knew how to cook, but I wasn't surprised since he lived by himself all these years.

It's kinda hot actually. Seeing him being all domestic and cooking shirtless.

I watch as I see the muscles on his back ripple every time he moved, running my finger across my bottom lip at how sexy he is. "I can feel you staring at me sweetheart." embarrassment floods through me as he turns around with a smirk, carrying dinner plates to set them on the table that already had flowers and wine glasses set. He went back to set a bowl of food for the kitten that was sleeping in our room, coming back out of our bedroom soon after. "Ah no, you're not getting up." He stops me before I could get up and I stand up anyway and he raises a brow at me.

"I can walk around fine." Five walks up to me and I reach out to place my hands on his chest, him letting me touch him as they roamed over his skin. He shudders against my fingertips, him pulling me close by my waist as he tilts my chin up. I hum out against his hand brushing against my cheek, moving down to hold my neck before kissing me softly. My hands move up into his hair as he leans back, the hand around my waist pulling me forward while he pecked my lips over and over sweetly as he pulled me to the table.

"Dinner is served..." he whispers against my lips, nipping at them with a cheeky smile and chuckling lowly before nuzzling my nose against his.

"Well we shouldn't waste any second now, should we?" I pull away from my boyfriend's arms, him pulling out my seat before I could do it. I sit down and he tucks me in before moving to his seat opposite from me. "This is beautiful." the scenery was almost romantic with the flowers and the wine and the elaborate dinner with the dim lighting.

"Only the best for my love." Five muses, pouring some wine for us before I took hold of the bottle.

"It's that sweet wine from our date!"

"Of course, I knew you liked it so I had some imported over along with the car."

"Aren't you the best boyfriend." he smirks at me, raising his glass and I do the same.

"To being the best boyfriend."

"And girlfriend you ass." he laughs happily, nodding.

"And to you, my wonderful girlfriend." we toast, clinking our glasses and taking a sip, letting the quiet roll over us before we burst out laughing.

"Oh god, I can't believe we managed to keep a straight face through that!"

"Now I understand why my doppel is an actor but I'm surprised you're not one." Five says.

"I don't know. Maybe it's the fact I can't remember things well. So there's no way I would be able to remember my lines."

"I recon you would be amazing at improv." My love says and I think about it.

"Maybe." we go back to eating, chatting about everything and nothing at the same time but I mostly sat and listened to Five happily.

I giggle as Five nips at my neck, his own giggles escaping from the alcohol making us tipsy. I turn to look at him, his cheeks lightly flushed with the bottle sitting between us on the floor. I kiss his neck as my hands roamed down his chest earning subtle sighs and moans from him. His own hands explored my body, pushing and pulling at the silk nightgown I was wearing. I move away and he leans down to kiss me sloppily, a mess of giggles and wine on our lips as I move to grab the wine bottle again.

"It's almost finished." I pout, breaking the kiss as I see into the bottle, humming against the kisses Five places down my neck and across my exposed chest.

"How much?"

"Like a little bit." he hums and takes the bottle from me and I complain as he takes the last bit of the wine but he smirks at me when he drops the bottle, his hands pulling me by my head to kiss me deeply. I moan out loudly against the liquid spilling into my mouth, intoxicated by the sweetness of the wine and the bitterness of my love as his tongue dances along with mine. I climb into his lap instantly, his hands pushing my gown up to hold my waist. I try to be as close to him as possible, my hands tangling in his hair as I kissed him deeply. I shudder when I feel his hands creep up to grab my breasts, squeezing and fondling them which makes whines slip against the kiss.

"Bedroom?" he gasps out desperately, panting against my lips before running his tongue against my neck.

"Bedroom." I nod, yelping when Five moves to pick me up but clearly, he didn't estimate how tipsy he was since I fell back down from his arms and bump the back of my head against the coffee table. "Fuck!"

"Shit!" my boyfriend gasps with worry as he stumbles and falls over me, bumping his head against mine and I huff in pain. "Sorry! Sorry! Shit, are you ok?" I just look at him and laugh, his concern melting away with amusement as I fall back to just lay on the floor with him over me.

"I'm ok." I rub my head, chuckling as I look up at my love who was laughing with happiness, seeing the corner of his eyes crinkle lightly.

I lean up to hold his cheeks, brushing his long hair back as he looks down at me softly, eyes shining with love as I just admire him. He leans into my touch, kissing my palms and my arms before leaning down towards me. His eyes rake over me slowly, his fingers brushing against my cheek softly. He nuzzles his nose against mine as his hand continues to brush against my skin slowly making me shiver from his touch. I lean up to kiss him but he pulls away cheekily, just enough to brush my lips with a chuckle when I huff in annoyance.

"Five..." he hums in delight at my frustrated whine, nipping at my nose.

"Yes sweetheart?" he knew what I wanted but still made me say it when he moves back when I try to kiss him again.

"Kiss me."

"As you wish." he finally moves down so I could kiss him, pulling him closer to my body with my arms looped around his neck. He groans softly against my lips, laying his body completely on mine and pushing to kiss me deeper in a mess of heat and clash of teeth. I moan out his name and he smirks against the kiss, his hands moving down my body to hook around my waist as they push my dress up my thighs. "I love you." he groans into the kiss before leaning back briefly and I blush beneath him.

"I love you too." I whisper, pulled back into a breathtaking kiss.

"Do you ever feel like something terrible might happen in the future?" I mutter out softly, sighing blissfully again Five's bare chest as his fingers run up and down the middle of my spine, ignoring the scratching on the bedroom door of our recently kicked-out cat.

"And I thought I was the pessimist." he chuckles lightly, looking down at me as I croon under his chin. "But go on."

"Like, if we have too much of a good thing now, I feel like karmas going to be a bitch in the future and just slam us with bad luck." I nuzzle his chest, hugging him tightly as I drew mindless shapes down this side and bare thigh while his own moved down to massage my lower bare back. "Everything is so perfect now... with you... I'm scared it's going to bite me back in the ass." I lean up on my arms to look down at Five and he looks up at me softly.

"Everything will always be perfect with you." he says, brushing my hair back and holding my cheek, making me lean into his touch. I smile happily at his words, my breath hitching as he squeezes my bare hips. "No matter what happens, I'll always be by your side."

"Really?" he moves one of his hands up to hook around my necklace, gently pulling me back down with a cheeky grin on his face.

"Really." he says, looking up at me before kissing me sweetly.

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