(y/n) - your name

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"(y/n), is that you?" mum asks as she peers out the doorway and I nod, a pang of guilt eating at me knowing they thought I was their (y/n)... the one I killed.

"Yeah-" I gasp as she pulls me into a hug and my chest hurts. I missed her, I missed her so much. I held back my tears as I held her tightly.

My heart hurts.

"I'm so glad you're back! And who are your friends?" She pulls back to look at Klaus and Five, clearing my throat to hide the fact that I got emotional. Five looks at me softly with a smile when I quickly wipe away stray tears.

"I'm her best friend, Klaus Hargreeves! It's so nice to meet you!" Klaus takes hold of my mum's hand, shaking it as Five takes hold of my dad's when he suddenly got up to greet the boys. I freeze as my boyfriend and my dad look at each other sternly, almost as if they were going to kill each other.

"It's nice to meet you. I am Five Hargreeves, (y/n)'s boyfriend." Five moves back to stand next to me and I immediately reach to hold his hand, squeezing tightly with fear. He looks at me with worry, squeezing back tightly.

Both my parents eyes widen when they hear Five say he is my boyfriend. "(y/n)'s boyfriend?-"

"-it's so great to meet you!" mum cuts dad off and pulls Five into a hug. I chuckle seeing him look at me with wide eyes before mum lets him go. "Look at you two! You both make such a perfect pair!" I flush as my sweet assassin grins at me, kissing my cheek and I turn even redder.

"So you two are brothers?" Dad asks and the boys nod.

"Don't worry, (y/n) is like my sister." Klaus ruffles my hair and I swat his hand away, my parents ease a little.

"It's good that she has someone to look after her." My dad says and something about that sent an alarm off in my head.

What did he mean by that?

"You three sit! We're about to eat." I sit down when my mum urges us to the dining table, Five sitting on my left with Klaus on my right. My family took the rest of the seats available after mum set up the table with food. Klaus was practically drooling and to be honest, so was I.

"God I missed home-cooked food." I whisper and Five chuckles lightly, unsure of what to take first since the food was culturally different from what he normally eats. "You can take whatever you want, mum would be happy if you ate everything." I whisper to him, showing my boyfriend what each item was as he took some on his plate. Klaus went ham and tried basically everything.

"Holy shit this is good." The Hargreeves brothers mutter out and my mum chuckles happily.

"I'm glad you boys like it. I can pack some extra for you all when you go back home. I can pack some extra for you (y/n), and for your dad." I freeze as I stop eating, the sentence ringing through my ears. That tug around my chest turned into a painful squeeze. My ears started ringing and held my breath as I clutched the fork tightly.

What...?

The world started to twist as I look up my parents hesitantly, a sour taste in my mouth.

No... they're not my parents.

Not my-im not-

"-it's been a couple of years since you ran away from your dad (y/n). You should visit him one day, I'm sure he would apologise for his behaviour." my 'dad' says as he looks at me in disappointment, my mum frowning at me.

This hurts more.

This hurts so much more.

"David!" my 'mum' glares at my 'dad' and I go cold.

That's not his name...

"Lina, she needs to stop acting so foolishly like this. Her father must be worried sick."

That's not my mum's name either...

I was shaking and Five knew, holding my knee tightly for comfort as I tried to hold back my tears. He tried not to make it obvious that he was extremely concerned as I my breath became shallow and I quietly set the fork down. "I know that life wasn't easy with your father but maybe it's time to see him again. I'm sure he misses you a lot. You are his child, his heart must be broken to not see you." my 'mum' says and I grind my jaw.

Of course, my Doppel wasn't even their child.

They're not my family.

I'm just some stranger, a runaway brat.

They don't know me.

My family continues to talk over me and everything becomes white noise as I stared at my plate, unable to talk or move as I tried to process my reality.

I didn't feel right, didn't feel real.

My body hurt and I needed to just hide somewhere. I stand up from the table, trying to hold back my tears as I kept my head lowered so they wouldn't see me, so I wouldn't remember this moment and the look on their faces now as the last memories I would have of them. "I'm sorry but I just forgot I had to do something. Thank you for everything." I breathe out shakily, looking at Five and he frowns sadly at me before I quickly left the house.

"(y/n)!" Five and Klaus run after me as I ran far down the pathway away from the house, trying to clear my head. I was shaking so much, trying not to cry and I hated it so much.

Why am I so hurt by this? I should've known something like this was bound to happen.

I'm not even the original (y/n) in this timeline so why do I care!?

"(y/n)!" there was a flash of blue before Five's arms pulled me into his chest, hugging me tightly. "I'm sorry..." I bury my face into his chest and I just burst into tears, crumbling to the floor and he pulls me incredibly close.

"I'm sorry (y/n), I'm so sorry..." He held my head as I cried against his chest, him whispering apologies into my hair.

"I-I just wanted to see my family again... I guess I got what I asked for..."

The drive back to the hotel was quiet, Five combing his fingers through my hair as I laid my head on his shoulder while he pressed kisses on my forehead. He understood how upset I was but I felt even more terrible knowing he blamed himself.

We got back to the hotel as Klaus parked the car in front of it, my boyfriend stopping me before I got out of the car. "Are you sure you want to come on the road with us?" He frowns softly and strokes my cheeks as I nod.

"Yeah, I need a breather so a road trip won't be so bad... Let me just go grab my bag and I'll be back, ok?"

"(Y/n)..." Five urges.

"I'm ok. I promise." He looks at me and lets me go hesitantly before I rush inside the hotel, using the elevator to bring me up to the floor of my room and grab my bag that was sitting on my bed before heading back down to the foyer again.

"(y/n)!" I turn around and see Viktor, a frown on his face.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I walk up to him.

"Have you seen Klaus, Five or Luther?"

"Luther no. Diego said his brother might have gone on a run but not for this long. Klaus and Five are with me actually. We're going on a road trip."

"We should all stay together until I get the suitcase back." Viktor worries, wringing his hands together.

"I know Viktor but I think the guys want one last bit of freedom before we go back home. Do you want to join us?" He smiles sadly but shakes his head at my offer.

"I have to go get the suitcase tonight." I nod and pat his shoulder.

"Thank you for getting the suitcase for us, for helping us. I know the others haven't said it. I'll make sure the boys get back home tonight safe and in time for you to bring the suitcase back here." Viktor nods with a smile at the plan.

"Sounds great then. I'll see you tonight (y/n)."

"Bye Viktor!" I run off, yelling over my shoulder as he waves goodbye and I rush out back to the car where Klaus and Five were waiting for me. "Ok, let's go!" I jump into the car, the lanky brother speeding off as I put my seatbelt on. The music was blasting through the car as the windows were down, the wind blowing through my hair as the city streets quickly turned into open fields.

"Hey..." I look at Five as he takes hold of my hand, frowning slightly.

"I'm fine love, I promise. I shouldn't be so shocked... This is not my original timeline anyway..." I shrug and move to lay my head on his shoulder, pushing away the sadness and grief. It was no use.

"Your timeline or not, I'm glad you're here with me." My boyfriend wraps an arm around my waist, the other picking up my legs to drape over his lap.

"You're so cheesy, you know that right." I chuckle softly as he pecks my lips.

"Yeah well, I'm your cheesy boyfriend." I smile and rest back in Fives arms, humming to the music that was playing on the radio. "But (y/n), I'm really am sorry. If I'd known, I would've sent you back to your family as soon as I could instead of delaying it. It's my fault-"

"-hey..." I frown from his words, holding his cheeks. "How many times do I have to tell you, it's not your fault. You didn't know, no one did. It's not on you, it has never been on you. This is not your burden to bear, this is not your weight to hold, this one is mine. Just like the apocalypse wasn't your fault, your burden. None of this is your fault." I whisper to him. He had been apologising to me the ride back from my house to the hotel and he still felt guilty.

Five had no words and buried his head in my hair whispering how much he loves me. I hold him tightly, the both of us quietening down during the car ride. My boyfriend eventually lifts his head up after I coaxed him, to watch the scenery by the car as we drive past and he looked at peace. "This actually isn't so terrible." He whispers.

"See? Told you." Klaus grins as he looks over at us in the backseat.

"Come to think of it, my whole life I've been under the gun. Missions for Dad-"

"-working for the Commission and trying to survive the apocalypse." I whisper and Five nods as he kisses my neck.

"I was always looking around every corner, just waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's nice to just breathe." Five turns to take in a deep breath as he looks out the window, turning back to kiss the top of my head and breathe me in making me flush. He smiles at me as I lay my head on his shoulder, his hands rubbing my legs over his lap.

"Good for you, man." Klaus grins.

"Retirement suits you love." I chuckle lightly as I kiss his neck.

"It wouldn't be perfect without you." My cheesy boyfriend whispers in my ear and I chuckle, smacking his chest. "Oh! Uh... All right!" He suddenly sits up straight as he remembers something and picks up the map he brought with him, and I sit up to take a peak at it as he taps the paper with his marker. "So, I've circled all the roadside attractions along the way." Even I was intrigued at what my little assassin in his 18-year-old self wanted to see. "We have the Brownsville Big Nickel. Oh, Ricky's Bakery has award-winning pies."

"Ooh! Pies!" I peek at the map, pointing at one roadside attraction. "The fuck is Cow Henge?" My boyfriend shrugs, continuing to name-drop a couple more places he wanted to see.

"Listen to me. Just shut up for two seconds, okay? Just two seconds? All right?" Klaus suddenly says and I could see the excitement on Five's face fall to annoyance instead, pursing his lips like he does when he wanted to hurt someone but couldn't.

"Okay, I'm all ears." My boyfriend rolls his eyes and leans back in his seat.

"We are going to Pennsylvania to find my birth mother. Yay!" Klaus shyly exclaims in excitement, knowing Five wasn't happy.

"Excuse me?" He hisses.

"I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry! I just needed somebody to come with me for emotional support." The lanky brother says quickly.

"Oh, emotional support, like a Schnauzer!?" I snicker at Fives words and he raises a brow at me. "You're one too."

"Hey!" I gasp at my boyfriend.

"I knew you wouldn't come if I told you, so what was I supposed to do?" Klaus begs.

"You're goddamn right I wouldn't have come, Klaus! You know why!?" Five suddenly blinks to the front seat, pointing to himself as he stressed out the next few words. "Because I am supposed to be retired!"

"I know!" Klaus whines.

"This was supposed to be a carefree road trip."I  could almost see a vein pop in Five's neck from how frustrated he was at his brother.

I lean forward as I hold Five's map, between the boys. "We can still visit some attractions while going to Pennsylvania. There's no harm in that right? We can still have fun." I jot down the attractions that were on the way to where Klaus wanted to go and Five silently agrees to the compromise.

"Fine, we can do that-ball of Twine? Klaus, turn! Ball of Twine! Turn!" I shriek when Five suddenly gets interested by an attraction sign and grabs hold of the wheel, forcing Klaus to turn the car.

"Five! You-we're going to die!" I scream out.

"What!? Five!" Klaus screams too.

"It is one of the best ones! Come on!" Five tells and I grab into the car for dear life as the car swerves.

"Five, we're gonna die!" Klaus yells back.

"I don't care! Let go!"

"I care!" I yell out.

"You know what!? No twine, no birth mother!" Five yells out so angrily, in a way I have never heard him yell before.

Oh my god he really wants to see this Ball of Twine!?

I scream as the car makes a sharp left, Klaus screaming in fear while he dodged incoming cars that honked at us. He manages to get us to a safe and empty road, my stomach leaping in my chest and I cover my mouth. "Stop the car!" I yell and Klaus breaks violently as my neck burns when the belt digs into the skin, unbuckling and jumping out onto the field feeling like I was gonna puke.

"(y/n)-" I stop Five with a hand up, hagging lightly as I stop myself from puking.

"Just give me a minute-" I groan softly, rubbing my stomach before standing up. "As funny as that no twine, no birth mother comment, we still could've died!?" I shriek out and both boys talk over each other either apologising or blaming the other brother. "I don't want to hear it!" I yell at them and they both shut up. "None of yous are driving! Get to the back! Now!" both brothers sulk and get into the back seats as I get into the drivers.

"(Y/n), sweetheart-"

"-I don't wanna hear it!" I snap as Five pouts in the back, all sulky now.

"Crazy, do you even know how to drive?" Klaus asks.

"I have my license don't I?" I adjust the settings to fit me better before driving down the road.

I may have lied, I only got my learners but this is easier on an empty road, It's not too bad.

I'm actually a pretty good driver. It's just parking I'm terrible at.

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