April 23, 11:13 am

It’s been a week since Drew and I got back together. I have to say that those days were the happiest days in my life. It’s as if every day was surreal. We’re like living in a fairytale that I’m hoping to reach a happy ending.

I almost believed that Drew and I won’t be seeing a happy ending because of our break up 2 years ago. But now, I’m hoping for the best. I’m hoping that we would be together until our last breaths. 

I know Drew is suffering from his sickness right now but I don’t want him to feel the suffering that I’m feeling as well. I don’t want to show him that I’m really sad every time I see him getting weaker each day. I want to make him believe that I’m here for him and that I won’t lose hope. I want him to fight with me even if it’s hard. 

I want him to fight not just for himself but for me and for all the people that loves him.

Other people may say that I’m a fool for choosing a sickly and a possibly dying person instead of a healthy and successful one. But what do they know? Love is not measured by the success of a person. It’s measured by the moments that make our hearts beat so fast. It’s measured by the moments that make our knees weak. It’s measured by the moments that took our breaths away.

Drew can’t leave his house that often anymore. He only goes out when he needs to visit his doctor. So as much as possible, I stay in their house for a very long time. I want to make him feel special. I want him to remember the happy moments that we made and we’ll be making. I want him to feel how much I love him.

My other friends are asking, what happens next? To be honest, I do not know. All I know is I want to be with Drew and I won’t let go. I want to wake up every morning beside him. I want to fall asleep every night beside him. To make things short, I want to be beside him all the time.

Yeah. Love can’t make people alive for the rest of their lives but isn’t it amazing how loving someone makes a person wake up with a smile on his or her face? Isn’t it amazing how loving someone gives a person a reason to continue living amidst all the problems that he or she is encountering? Isn’t it amazing how loving someone makes a person know himself or herself more?

Yes. Love can make those things possible. It’s not just those but there are a lot more out there that are yet to discover.

Indeed, there’s always a rainbow after the rain. Life won’t give us downs if it won’t bring us up. It’s all about sacrifices and hanging on. We should know when to hang on and when to let go. 

Life is not just about existing for it’s about living for a purpose. A purpose which may be for a special someone like what I have with Drew. I live for us. I live to make him live. I love him and that’s all I know.

Love can’t make people alive for the rest of their lives. Just believe in the power of two hearts that beat as one. Just believe.

Looking back,

Michelle