is this the love that i've only heard about?
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one week later.

he didn't return.

neither the second nor third.

jungkook feels his breaking, slowly, then all at once, jimin making him pick the pieces up all by himself.

no texts, no call, no nothing.

a part of the male blames himself, for letting the love of his life go, go and leave him behind. but there's niothing he could do now, and he feels pathetic. worst of all, his phobia eats him alive, consuming his mind and devils of all the past and why he doesn't like falling in love, that he should have never fell in love in the first place.

despite that, he tells himself to move on, to get his life back together and stop waiting for someone who doesn't even love him anymore. he's been trying and coping well after the third week jimin's left and has not returned, and eventhough before he gave up he made an effort to ask jimin's parents, they themselves have not heard from him.

things have been going smoothly, till the morning which marks a month of jimin's leaving, that the school was crowded around his class when he came in, heart stopping and stopping in his tracks when he sees who everyone is hyped about.

jimin.

jimin.

jimin smiles and walks up to him, only to receive a slap and witness tears cascading off the younger's face.

"jungkook? what was that-" his words got cut off as the male leaves the room, dashing out the class. the older catches up to him, calling his name but receiving no response till he grips his wrist, turning him around, "baby what the hell is wrong with you?" jungkook scoffs, harshly removing himself?

"i'm sorry, do i know you?" jimin looks at him bewildered, totally confused on why he's being treated like this but before he can reply, the younger leaves him. jimin doesn't follow, knows jungkook like the back of his hand, that he needs space when he's angry.

he decides to wait outside his house, but the younger doesn't return till it's late and jimin's worried sick but jungkook doesn't reply his messages or answered his calls. he breathes a sigh of relieve when he sees the male walking up, the black haired stopping when he sees jimin sitting on top of his car hood, waiting anxiously.

"baby, let's talk" jungkook doesn't bother about the male, pressing the bell but jimin holds his waist and turns him around, eyes boring into the younger.

"jungkook please, don't do this to me" jungkook shakes his head, body beginning to shake and he feels the tears brimming his eyes.

"you? what about me? did you think about me? thought of how i felt? how i was worried sick and heartbroken and left to pieces, wondering where the fuck are you and suddenly, you turn up now as if nothing has happened? who the fuck do you think you are park jimin? i don't deserve this" jungkook wipes his tears, looking at the confused male, "no texts, no calls, nothing for a month and you expect me to be fine-"

"what do you mean? i sent you postcards didn't i? i sent you postcards every single day when i was there jungkook ah" jungkook laughs, bitter and broken, "postcards? i didn't get anything jimin hyung" the boy enters the gate, leaving jimin alone, numb and lost.

he waits in his car, constantly messaging his boyfriend to come out, talk things out with him rather than ignoring him because jimin misses him so much, but jungkook doesn't reply to any of them. jimin sees a man walking up to jungkook's house gates and sits up, watching as one of the worker take the box in his hands and leaves.

"jungkook?" the said male hums, letting his mother enter the room and looks at her when she sets a box on his bed, "it's for you" the male mutters out a 'huh' before opening it up, breath hitching as piles of postcards we in it. his mother smiles before leaving her son alone, ruffling his hair.

14 september

its's a week more before i return and i can't wait to meet you jungkook. i miss you, so much. you're all i think about while i'm here. the next time i go, we're going together yeah? so you'll always be with me. sorry for leaving for a month instead of a week, i hope you're not angry at me baby. i love you. see you soon.

jungkook sniffles, harshly wiping his tears as he reads all the postcards. god jimin's such a fool he wants to hit him. he gets up and walks to his window, he's still there.

jimin gets out of his car when he sees the black haired emerging from the gates, walking up to the older.

"jungkook"

"what's my address?" jungkook crosses his arms and glares at him, leaning against the gate.

"um, seoul-teukbyeolsi, yongsan-gu, sajik-ro-6-gil 23, jeon, 04344" jungkook sighs deeply, motioning to his letterbox outside his house, asking the older to read it. jimin clenches his jaw and runs a hand through his hair at his mistake.

jimin makes a noise a the back of his throat and pulls the younger to settle him between his legs, arms wrapped around his waist. "you're an idiot aren't you?" jungkook utters softly, slowly placing his hands around the older's neck, craving his touch eventhough his body starts to shake a little, a little anxiousness rising up his body but jimin rubs his back softly and slowly, murmuring his apologies and kisses the soft boy's cheeks softly and tenderly.

"baby, i'm sorry, i'm an idiot, i really thought it was the correct address" jimin cards his fingers through his hair, looking up jungkook to see him already gazing at the older.

"stay the night?" jimin nods, parking his car in the other's house before entering the warm household, greeting and apologising to jungkook's parents as well for not saying anything for a month. jungkook's parents doesn't mind, instead smiling it off and asking them to go wash up and rest.

they took turns to bathe, jungkook lending his clothes to jimin when he's done and he just takes a moment to appreciate jimin, water dripping off his hair and sliding down his sculptured collarbones and chest, the latter drying his hair with another towel and grins when he catches jungkook staring.

"what? it's not wrong to look at my own boyfriend" jimin shrugs, says he didn't say anything and puts his clothes on before joining the other in bed, jungkook immediately closing up the space between them, shivers when jimin wraps his hands around his waist, kissing the top of his head.

"i miss you so much hyung, please don't ever leave me like that again" he whispers softly, hiding his face in the crook of his neck.

"you wanna know why i didn't call you?" jungkook hums, feels jimin wrapping his arms tighter around him, "it's because i know if i hear your voice, i would book the next flight back to seoul and wouldn't be there. i love you so much you know that right, i'm scared i'm too weak to stay if i hear you, that's why i didn't. i'm sorry for coming back after a month, i know i promised you a week but as i was there, i realised, since we're almost graduating and going to start a life together, i need to know what is goid and bad for us, being there made me see things differently, with different people and different environment, it helps me think more openly for us" he doesn't see but feel the smile against his neck, smiles when jungkook kisses his neck.

"you really love me that much?" jimin brings the boy's head till their eyes meet one another's, "i've loved you since we first started talking jungkook ah, and i'll love you forever, if you let me" jungkook giggles, full of adoration and love, "my heart is all yours hyung, it has always been yours" jimin kisses his forehead, tells him to sleep as he plays with his hair, jungkook slowly falling asleep.

when jungkook wakes up the next morning, the sunlight casting a shadow over jimin's sleeping figure, his breath stops for awhile, mesmerised with the ethereal look on his boyfriend, deep in his slumber.

he strokes jimin's cheeks, sees the time and decides that they'll just skip lessons today since he wants to spend time with the older. jimin slowly rouses from sleep, fluttering his eyes open and his lips stretches into a smile when he sees jungkook already up, looking at him as if jimin is his world. "goodmorning baby"

"i'm hungry" jimin laughs, kisses the pouty male's nose and pulls the both of them out of bed "pancakes?" jungkook nods cutely, hopping on the older back and they walk out of the room, heading down the stairs and realises that no one's home except for the helpers in jungkook's house.

"jiminie hyung is cooking today so you don't have to prepare breakfast" jungkook smiles at mrs. lee, earning one back before she leaves the kitchen. jimin sets him down, shaking his head, "what do you mean jiminie hyung, we're making pancakes together you lazy ass" jungkook makes a noise of hurt, sulking as he garbs the things as he hears jimin laughs, cooing at his boyfriend. jungkook finally slips his facade off, laughing when jimin tickles his side, shying away to start making the batter.

"jungkook ah, how the hell do you even get batter on you face?" jimin was heating up the pan when he notices the younger struggling, taking the bowl out of his hands, "shut up, i tried" jungkook dips a finger in and smudges the batter onto jimin's cheeks, "yah! you're not getting any" jungkook makes an indignant voice, tkaing flour in hand and smacking it at jimin, running awat afterwards only to get caught as jimin wraps his arms around him in a vice grip, "i'm sorry! i won't do it again i swear, i'm sorry!" jungkook screams when jimin tickles his side, not letting go soon and making him tear up.

when the older stops, he sighs before going to the sink to wash his face and hands before starting to pour the pancke batter into the pan, letting it cook. jungkook sits at the counter and beckons the older to come, settling himself between jungkook's legs, "i love you hyung" jimin kisses his nose, saying how cute the younger is being and stares into his brown orbs,

"i love you too baby, always"

END.