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Malia's Pov

I just finished putting Emily to bed. She ate a little bit of food and went straight to sleep.

I smiled at her and kissed her cheek before leaving her room and headed downstairs.

Missy and Dale were already sleeping, me and Addison were in the living room.

Addison was watching movies while I just needed some rest. After everything that happened today I need my rest.

I sat next to Addison on the couch and rested my head on her shoulder.

"Emily is sleeping like the peaceful baby she is" I said with a smile. Addison smiled back at me and nodded.

"That's good, how you holding up?" Addison asked, "for the most part I'm alright" I said, lifting my head up from her shoulder.

"You know, with being a mom and everything, how is it?" Addison asked. 

"It is a little hard, considering I have to deal with school and my daughter, but with the support of your parents and my friends I'll be alright" I said with a smile.

"You know it's not that hard, Emily doesn't cry that much during that night. There are a few times where she does but other than that she's been doing well" Addison said.

"Yeah, she's growing up really fast, time really does fly, does it" I said in disbelief.

"Soon she'll grow up to be a big girl" Addison said with a smile, I smiled as well.

But that soon faded and I hung my head. "Hey, are you ok?" Addison asked.

"I'm not sure" I said, "wanna talk about it?" Addison asked.

I nodded and sighed as I ran my hand through my hair.

"It's just, I'm not sure what to do if Emily asks about her father" I said. "Oh Malia" Addison said.

"I mean, I don't want to tell her the truth because then she'll be heartbroken and that's the last thing I want from her. But I don't want to keep any secrets from her" I explained.

"So, it's either tell her the truth when she gets older or not tell her anything" Addison asked and I nodded.

"If she finds out the truth then she'll just be heartbroken like me and end up hating him just as much as I do. If she finds out the truth on her own and realized I've been lying to her she might want to leave just to find him, and that's the last thing I want" I explained.

I sighed in frustration and laid on the couch. I grabbed a nearby pillow and hugged it to my chest.

Addison smiled softly at me and rubbed my arm for comfort.

"I think it's best to tell her the truth once she's old enough. I don't think it's alright for you to keep secrets from her. She'll soon ask about him and it's better to tell the truth then lie to her, she'll end up hating you because you lied" Addison explained.

I sighed before nodding.

"You're right Addy" I said and she smiled.

"It's going to hurt telling her the truth, but soon she'll understand why her father isn't in her life and understand" Addison reassured me.

"Yeah, I know" I sighed.

"Then just tell her the truth, she'll understand and I'm sure she won't want to meet him either" Addison said.

"You're right, it's best I tell her the truth. I don't think I could live with her hating me for not telling her the truth" I said.

Addison smiled and nodded, making me smile as I sat up and hugged her and she hugged back while kissing my cheek.

"Thank you for always being there for me Addy" I said with a smile. 

"You're my best friend Malia, I'm always going to be here for you" Addison smiled as we pulled away from the hug.

I smiled before getting up and grabbing my phone. 

"I'm going to be outside, I need fresh air" I said.

"Alright, just make sure you're not out for too long" Addison said.

"Sure thing Addy" I said before walking away.

I made my way outside and closed the door quietly. I sighed before walking to the porch and sitting on the chair. I took out my phone and went to my gallery.

I looked at a picture of me and Audrey.  It was her birthday and our entire went out for dinner to celebrate.

Mom took a picture of us before our food arrived.

Me and Audrey were sitting next to each other, hugging and smiling. I smiled at that memory. 

We had so much fun that day. I missed her, I missed my sister.

I turned off my phone and placed it in my pocket. 

I rested my head against the back of the chair and closed my eyes.

Flashback, Two Years Ago

Nobody's Pov

A 14 year old Malia was walking around a beautiful garden, wearing a beautiful blue dress and white sandals.

"MALIA."

Malia turned around and saw Ben running to her, she smiled before running off again.

"YOU CAN'T CATCH ME BEN" Malia yelled.

"WE'LL SEE ABOUT THAT" Ben yelled as he ran after her.

Malia yelled before running away from him, however Ben was faster and started catching up to her.

"GET BACK HERE YOU" Ben yelled as he ran faster.

Malia laughed and tried running away but Ben caught up to her and tackled her to the floor.

They both rolled around the floor. They finally stopped, laughing at each other and smiling.

Ben was on top of Malia, holding her waist while Malia was on her back and had both hands on his cheeks.

Malia stopped laughing and placed a kiss on his cheek. "That was fun" Malia said.

"It sure was, mostly because I caught you" Ben said with a smile and Malia rolled her eyes.

"I let you win" Malia said, "sure you did" Ben said with a smirk.

Malia rolled her eyes but smiled at him. "Ben?" Malia asked, "yes?" Ben asked.

"Are we always going to be together?" Malia asked, he looked at her and smiled.

"Of course baby, we're always going to be together, always" Ben reassured her.

Malia smiled and kissed his lips. 

"Thank goodness, I never want us to split apart" Malia said.

"Don't worry about that baby, you're the only girl for me. Nobody could ever make me happy the way you make me happy" Ben reassured her.

"Thank you Ben" Malia said. 

Ben smiled at her and kissed her, passionately but gentle.

"I love you, always" Ben said.

"I love you too, always" Malia said before kissing him once again.

End Of Flashback

Malia's Pov

I opened my eyes and sat up in my chair. I let out a small sob.

I took out a picture of me and Ben when we were at the garden. 

He held me in his arms and kissed my cheek, I was smiling at him.

Tears came out of my eyes and I let out small sobs.

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(Me)
I look up from the ground to see your sad and teary eyes
You look away from me and I see
There's something you're trying to hide
And I reach for your hand but it's cold, you pull away again
And I wonder what's on your mind

My eyes are glued to the picture. My eyes are filled with sadness, anger, and frustration.

(Me)
And then you say to me you made a dumb mistake
You start to tremble and your voice begins to break
You say the cigarettes on the counter weren't your friend's
They were my mate's
And I feel the color draining from my face

I took out my phone and went through my contacts. My eyes immediately went to Ben's with a heart next to his name.

More tears ran down my cheeks and I let out more sobs.

(Me)
And my friends said

I know you love him, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away, let him go
It'll be alright

I hung my head and let out more sobs.

(Me)
So I asked to look back at all the messages he'd sent
And I know it wasn't right but it was messing with my head
And everything deleted like the past, yeah it was gone
And when I touched your face, I could tell you're moving on

But it's not the fact that you confessed to her that day
It's the feeling of betrayal, that I just can't seem to shake
And everything I know tells me that I should walk away
But I just want to stay

I took out my phone and immediately deleted Ben's number from my contacts.

(Me)
And my friend said
"I know you love him, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away
Let him go, it'll be okay

It's gonna hurt for a bit of time
So bottoms up, let's forget tonight
You'll find another and you'll be just fine
Let him go

I got up from the chair and made my way to the set of stairs on Addison's house.

I took out the picture of me and Ben and held it in my hands as I stared at it.

(Me)

Nothing heals
The past like time
And they can't steal
The love you're born to find

But nothing heals
The past like time
And they can't steal
The love you're born to find

My eyes were red from all the crying and my throat is starting to hurt.

(Me)
I know you love him, but it's over, mate
It doesn't matter, put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away
Let him go, it'll be alright

I ripped the picture and threw it on the floor.

I sat down on the stairs and covered my face with my hands as more tears streamed down my cheeks.

I released my hands from my face and stared down at the broken picture.

"I will never ever forgive you Ben. You left me when you promised to always be there for me, I guess you were just lying to me all along" I said, my voice filled with hatred.

"Be with Mal, make her your new queen and see if I'll care, but just know this. You're not going anywhere near MY daughter. She's better off without her father" I said as I glared at the broken picture.

I slowly got up from the stairs and made my way inside. I wiped my tears away and walked upstairs.

I got this weird feeling that someone was watching me, but I really don't care who it was. I just need to get some sleep.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day.