'If I keep my eyes closed he feels just like him' Dan thought to himself as his eyes were closed and some guy he met a bar was hovering over him, but all he imagined was Phil over him.

He barely payed attention to anything that was happening, it always happens. He meets some random guy at a bar then he goes home with them, let's them fuck him then he sneaks out in the morning and goes home doing the whole thing over again the next night.

It wasn't always this way, in fact it's only been this way for almost a week, he used to be happy, happily in a relationship with Phil Lester. They started dating in 2009 and were happy, so happy. Until one day....

*Flashback*

"I've already told you it's nothing, I'm just going to America for a week and staying at a friends house" Phil groaned looking at Dan who had his arms crossed glaring,

"A GIRLS house Phil, you're a guy staying in a house full of girls for a week!!!" Dan yells now annoyed,

"I'm dating you and their just friends!" The older boy slammed his hands on the counter of the kitchen,

"You're not exactly gay, you're bi so maybe you'll be around all those girls and feel something, hell maybe you'll fuck em!"  Dan blurted out regretting it in his mind,

"You don't trust me, Fine" Phil walked to his room grabbing the suitcase that was already packed for the trip, "If you don't trust me then how we can have a relationship? I'm done, Dan for good" He walked to the door not turning back,

"Please Phil I need you..." Dans voice cracked as he grabbed Phil's arm which Phil pulled away bitterly,

"Fine!....Fuck you!" Dan spat out not thinking, he was just pent up with anger,

"Fuck me? Well then you obviously don't need me, goodbye Dan....it was fun while it lasted..." He opened the door walking out slamming it behind him.

Dan broke down on the floor not able to breathe, Phil had known about how Dan feels about being alone but I guess it didn't matter because that night all Dan did was lay there and wonder how he fucked up so bad....

*End Of Flashback*

Dan was so busy thinking about the night Phil left he didn't even realize the guy was finished and had fallen asleep. Dan got up slowly grabbing his clothes and running out pulling his clothes on as he got out the door.

He got to his empty house unlocking the door and sighing sadly. There was a rustling noise coming from the kitchen causing Dan to mentally freak out, he grabbed a guitar hero guitar off the floor ,the closest thing to him, and slowly made his way to the kitchen.

He peaked around the corner and was about to swing when he recognized the mop of hair, plaid shirt and lanky body, "Phil...." He said amazed.

Phil turned around and screamed, "Dan I thought you were out, I didn't see you in You're bedroom....I came for my things then I got hungry and decided to take You're cereal because I was mad at you....but I'm not mad anymore...." He sighed sadly, "Truth is I missed you and yes I'm home early I wasn't even gone a week, I wasn't enjoying myself, I missed you so much. I realized you being jealous and worried about me is better than not having you at all. I love you're jealousy, yes it's annoying sometimes, but it shows you care....I'm sorry I left, I should've stayed and I shouldn't have gone, you were right" He admitted looking like he didn't even plan to say all that.

Dan stood there shocked before a big smile crossed his lips and he tackled the older boy on the floor kissing all over his face, "Oh god Phil I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have said what I said, I trust you and I can't lose you. I thought I lost you, I was so pissed at myself I didn't even call you, I love you and I'm sorry..." He teared up and so did Phil, they connected their lips in a passionate needy kiss.

When they finally pulled back they both had tears running down their cheeks, "Can we go to sleep I'm so tired" Dan smiled sweetly, Phil nodded and they both stood up holding hands making their way to Phil's bed where they laid.

Dan laid his head on Phil's chest thinking if he should admit what he had been doing while Phil was absent.

"Phil I have to admit something...." Dan whispers nervously, Phil nodded slowly kind of scared for what he would say. "I've been going to bars and sleeping around, I would close my eyes and pretend their You because I couldn't be without you, I felt like such a fuck up I thought I should act like one, I'm so sorry" He started sobbing in his hands expecting Phil to leave again but this time never come back. But instead he felt a gentle hand on his shoulder and a soft voice,

"It's okay Dan I understand, I forgive you, just don't do it anymore because I'm here to stay, I love you Okay?" He smiled sadly kissing Dans forehead, Dan looked up nodding,

"Okay....I love you so much..." Dan whispered nuzzling back into Phil....

They both laid there ending up falling asleep peacefully for the first time in what felt like forever.....