The Silence (Part 3)

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"I love your eyes." Dan spoke fondly and Phil blushed. 

"Thanks." Phil mumbled and Dan chuckled - the sweet sound filling Phils ears and making him grin back. "Your's are lovely as well." He added shyly, staring at Dan's warm brown eyes through the screen. 

"Your hallucinating. That or Skype is messing with your vision." Dan brushed off, averting his gaze. Phil only smiled.

"Nope, I remember how beautiful your eyes were when I saw them for the first time." Phil grinned.

"You forgot, and now your memories are playing tricks on you." Dan grumbled, although there was a small smile on his lips. It made Phil feel proud - from the last few months he had been able to find out that Dan wasn't used to compliments since his parents never talked to him. It made him sad that Dan didn't find himself beautiful or worthwhile so Phil made it his duty to make Dan feel special.

"Definitely not." He grinned. "Anyway, when are we going to meet tomorrow?" Phil asked, changing the subject so Dan couldn't object any longer.

"I'm free all day, you choose." Dan shrugged. 

"Lunch time then. I don't have work today so we can do whatever we want." Phil beamed, although hi cheeks flushed. Neither of them had mentioned the kiss that happened a few months back but Phil found himself falling even more for Dan. The topic hadn't come up and both of them were too scared. Phil feared that Dan was too insecure and thought Phil didn't want him, but he also feared that just because he was Dan's first friend, he had confused his feelings of friendship with love and would then stop liking Phil that way so he wants to be sure. 

"Lunch time it is." Dan confirmed. Phil typed a quick note into his phone so when he next checked his phone he'd see it and remember he was seeing Dan. 

"Usual place?" Phil asked - they had been meeting up at a little coffee shop in town that they adored and would spend hours talking in.

"Actually, I was hoping we could meet up at the fountain tomorrow." Dan replied, his cheeks glowing slightly pink.

"Oh? Ok." Phil smiled, not questioning it further. There was a comfortable silence between the two of them, that is until Dan started to frown. 

"What is it?" Phil asked in concern.

"I ... I-It's just ... nothing it's fine." Dan set his lips in a straight line and his eyes gleamed with emotion.

"Dan, please tell me." Phil said softly.

Dan let out a small sigh, "I just ... why do you make the effort to keep me around Phil? I'm not special and it's unnecessary. "Dan muttered, eyes trailing to his lap.

Phil's breath caught in his throat because Dan was degrading himself again. "Shut up." Phil said sternly and Dan looked up at him in surprise. "You are special and I like you. I would miss the bond we have. I feel so happy having a friend like you around." Phil admitted and Dan's blank face turned into a smile once again. 

"Thanks Phil." Dan whispered and Phil beamed back, reaching out a hand and stroking his computer screen. 

"I can't wait to see you." Phil sighed, stroking Dan's pix-elated cheek.

"I can't either." Dan grinned before coughing and looking around his room. "I-I'll see you tomorrow. Goodbye Phil." Dan stuttered and Phil giggled as Dan finished the call.

"Goodbye Dan." He replied. As soon as Dan's image disappeared Phil frowned in confusion before looking at the skype icon. "I'll never get used to this." Phil thought - realizing he probably had a skype call with Dan. He hated not knowing what he looked like as soon as he looked away. His eyes flicked towards the small picture taped to the top right of his laptop screen and suddenly all the memories flooded back again and he let out a breath of relief. 

He had taped Dan's smiling face somewhere he'd often see it so he could remember what Dan looked like whenever he wanted to. He also had them both as his lock screen and plenty of pictures in his camera roll but whenever he was browsing the internet he just had to glance at the corner of his screen and see Dan's gorgeous face smiling at him. 

Phil smiled before reluctantly tearing his gaze away and then Dan's image left his mind. He picked up his phone to see if Dan messaged him and opened his phone to see t was in notes. He'd often find them when he had to leave a note for himself when he had the memories of being with Dan. Phil grinned as he read his own note.

"You're meeting Dan at the fountain tomorrow. Who knows, something awesome might happen! Don't get hopes up though! ~ Phil."

Butterflies swarmed in Phil's stomach. Even though he couldn't remember Dan's face or the memories they've shared together which weren't in text form, he knew Dan's personality and he knew every time he forgot Dan's face he'd be feeling so happy and in love. He'd even read self notes before which told him he was in love with Dan. So Phil knew he liked Dan a lot even if he couldn't remember his face.

~

"Hey." Phil beamed as he met Dan at the fountain. 

"Hi." Dan smiled, his cheeks already pink. Phil found it adorable. He quickly made his way over and wrapped his arms tightly around Dan. He felt secure in his arms and wrapped in Dan's scent. Dan's hugs felt like home and he felt himself fall in love a little more every time. He had known Dan for nearly five months and he badly wanted more although he was content with Dan's friendship if he didn't want to take it any further.

"I miss your hugs." Phil mumbled, nuzzling into Dan's shoulder.

"I miss yours too." Dan whispered, running his fingers lightly over Phil's spine and making him shiver in delight. 

"I want to remember our memories together all the time." Phil sighed sadly, resting the side of his head against Dan.

"I wish you could remember too. I love thinking back to all the times we've met up in the last few months. I seriously enjoy being with you Phil." Dan whispered, and Phil swore Dan kissed his hair but he didn't say anything. 

After a moment of just holding each other, they finally pulled away. However, their hands stayed entwined. They always held hands so Phil could remember as long as he was touching Dan. They proceeded to go on a walk around the park, hands swinging between them. As they were talking, Phil's mind always played through their memories together so he would never forget them. He smiled as he remembered the second time he met Dan in the park.

"I think I'm falling for you Dan."

"I think I'm falling for you too Phil."

Phil blushed at the memory and his grip tightened on Dan's hand. He wanted to kiss him so badly. By two in the afternoon they had done a full circle and ended up back at the fountain. 

"Phil." Dan spoke up softly and pulled us both down onto our bench. "I've been thinking ... about these last few months." He started, his thumb brushing over Phil's knuckles. "And forgive me if you don't want to talk about it but I can't help thinking back to what happened a few months ago ... when we met for the second time." Dan mumbled, blushing in embarrassment. Phil felt his own cheeks heat up and his heart hammer in his rib cage. 

"O-ok." Phil stuttered and internally cursed at how nervous he was. "What would you like to talk about?" 

"Did ... I mean ..." Dan trailed off and Phil could feel his hand shaking in his hold. Phil squeezed his hand reassuringly and turned Dan's face so they locked eyes and Dan let out a breath - finding comfort in the blue of Phil's eyes. "Did you mean what you said? Y'know ... that you were falling for me? Or was that in the past?" Dan asked, biting his lip hard. Phil felt proud of Dan because that was actually a really brave question from someone who was known to be cautious of their relationship since it was his first.

"Yes." Phil replied without hesitation. "Did you?" Phil asked, eyes moving from Dan's lip to his eyes once again.

"Yeah." Dan blurted and both boys smiled at each other. "C-can I kiss you again?" Dan asked and Phil's eyes widened because Dan was being so brave. He swallowed and nodded eagerly. 

Their lips met and the previous sparks returned making both of them sigh in happiness as they melted into each other. Phil had been craving this contact for months so put as much effort into making it the best kiss he could in case Dan changed his mind - although that was ridiculous and he was just being paranoid. When their lips parted they took in a breath. 

Dan grinned before grabbing Phil's face and pulling him in for another one. Their lips moulded perfectly together and hands grabbed at the other, just wanting to hold. "Will you be my boyfriend?" Phil asked, wanting to be brave for Dan now. 

"Yes." Dan breathed and the grins never left the boys' faces as they kissed and smiled and clashed teeth. They didn't care though - they were giddy and drunk on love. 

~

Phil smiled softly, his fingers tracing Dan's cheek as he slept softly. Phil's thumb stroked down the side of Dan's jaw to his chin before reaching his bottom lip. He ran his finger to the corner of his mouth before reaching forward and delicately kissing it. 

Dan stirred and Phil giggled as Dan let out a sleepy moan before blinking his eyes open. Dan seemed to be startled for a second until his gaze landed on Phil and he relaxed, smiled stretching across his face. 

"Morning gorgeous." Phil whispered, pecking Dan's nose.

"Good morning. I could definitely get used to this." Dan whispered, his voice a little husky. He was perfect. 

"Me too boyfriend." Phil smiled and Dan chuckled. Both just stared in to the other's eyes in contentment. 

"Mmmm, I like it when you say that." Dan sighed sleepily and snuggled into Phil, savouring the moment before he winced. "Ow." He grumbled.

"Maybe not move around too much." Phil smirked. 

"Shut up, my butt hurts." Dan whined but nudged into Phil's neck, tucking his head under Phil's chin whilst Phil's arms wrapped around him. 

"Sorry baby." Phil chuckled, stroking over Dan's shoulder blades. 

"So many pet names." Dan sighed.

"Which is your favourite love?" Phil smirked once again.

"Bear ..." Dan admitted, his cheeks flushing a little in embarrassment. He was glad Phil couldn't see his face then. 

"Bear it is then." Phil smiled fondly and kissed Dan's hair.

They lay in bed until one o'clock, sharing kisses, cuddles and small talk. Dan never thought he could feel so happy and was so glad Phil accidentally text-ed him 5 months ago. Unfortunately Dan had to go and pay his landlord so left Phil around two with a passionate kiss at the door. Phil chuckled as he saw Dan limp slightly which earned him a glare.

Two hours later Phil opened his phone and nearly choked on the coffee he had in his hand when he saw the message he had left himself. 

"Dan's your boyfriend now. Also you had sex last night and it was amazing! ~ Phil" 

Phil blushed, he could probably imagine himself typing that still giddy after being with Dan. He seemed to be a nearly different person with Dan and he longed to remember him because he wanted to know what his boyfriend looked like and what his little habits were or how he looked when they had sex - which he assumed was amazing according to his note. 

He let out a slightly sad sigh although the butterflies in his stomach were having a rave. He wanted to remember his boyfriend so badly. He wanted to remember the sensation of his lips on his and how it felt to have him in his arms but no matter how hard he tried remember he came up blank. He knew the basics - like Dan had brown hair and brown eyes. He had written it down before in slightly more detail but even so Phil only had a vague idea and he wanted to know every detail and every nook and cranny of Dan's body and face. He wanted to be the boyfriend Dan deserved.

Time flew by and night arrived. Phil felt a sense of loneliness wash over him as he got into bed that night and immediately knew he must have enjoyed waking up with Dan in the morning. He let out a sigh and strained to try and remember but once again came up blank. 

"I wish I could see past your curse Dan. I wish I could remember you. I love you." Phil thought and closed his eyes, wanting sleep to take him so he could see Dan sooner the next day. 

~ 

Dan walked towards Phil with a sly smirk and swung his hips. Phil grinned and happily watched Dan put on a show for him as he wriggled his hips teasingly as he approached his boyfriend. Phil watched in awe as Dan straddled his legs on the sofa and Phil automatically wound his arms round his waist. Dan leaned forward and breathed on Phil's lips teasingly. 

"You're amazing." Dan whispered and Phil nearly whimpered because Dan was so close and wouldn't kiss him. 

"So are you." Phil mumbled, swallowing slightly in anticipation as their noses bumped. Instead of kissing Phil, Dan trailed his lips across his jaw and Phil nearly groaned in frustration. He quickly forgot his frustration however when Dan lightly kissed the dip where his neck and the end of his jaw met. Dan pressed his chest again Phil's and started kissing down the side of his neck.

Phil let out a shaky breath and tilted his head to give Dan more access whilst his arms wrapped more tightly around Dan, pulling him closer to his body. He let out another sigh as Dan started to suck and nibble a love bite onto Phil's collar bone. 

"Jesus ..." Phil breathed as Dan moved back up to nibble into a softer bit of flesh, leaving a trail of bruises. He could feel Dan smirking so tangled his fingers in Dan's brown lochs and tugged him away from his neck and to his lips instead where they kissed heatedly. Phil ran his tongue over Dan's bottom lip and Dan eagerly opened up, although Phil could sense a little hesitation. 

Phil pulled away and Dan whimpered. "Why'd you stop?" Dan whined. 

"I'm just checking that you want this. I mean this is your first tongue kiss isn't it?" Phil asked softly. Dan blushed but nodded. 

"I'm not afraid though. I want this. I want you." Dan urged, looking at Phil with sincerity. 

"You're sure?" Phil double checked and Dan groaned in annoyance.

"Yes Phil! Now stick your tongue in my mouth." Dan grumbled and Phil chuckled before pulling Dan back in for a kiss, quickly picking up the heat again. Phil's hands left Dan's hair and trailed down his back, tracing over the bumps of Dan's spine and making him shiver in the process. As Phil's tongue pushed against Dan's, Phil cupped Dan's butt and Dan moaned into the kiss, stirring something in his stomach.

Phil squeezed Dan's butt and Phil could feel Dan press further into him and Phil was very aware about the slight pressure on both of their crotches. Dan pulled away, panting heavily and suddenly bucked his hips forward making both of them groan. "Shit." Dan cursed, breath coming out ragged. "That felt so fucking good." Dan sighed and rutted his hips forward again, making Phil grunt and grip Dan tighter. 

"Fuck." Phil choked and Dan grinned. 

"It's hot when you swear." Dan admitted, and Phil was amazed at how the shy Dan he knew had turned into this seductive and confident young man. 

"Before we carry on, because believe me I'm enjoying myself, if you don't want to start anything sexual just tell me and we'll stop now because this is a turn on." Phil swallowed, blushing a little at his own words. 

Dan also seemed to turn pink but he didn't look scared. "I told you Phil. I want this, of course if you don't want to I'll stop but ... I would like to." Dan bit his lip, going a little more timid and Phil smiled as he saw his Dan shine through. 

"I want to as well. I just want you to be sure." Phil spoke fondly, cupping Dan's cheek and pulling him in for a quick kiss.

"I'm sure." Dan grinned and returned for a deeper kiss. He ground hips down into Phil's again and he moaned. Phil grabbed Dan's ass again but stood up, letting Dan wrap his legs round his waist. They both stumbled to the bedroom and then Dan was thrown down on the bed. Phil crawled over him and started to kiss down Dan's neck, hearing a loud moan leave Dan's lips.

"F-fuck. I'm really sensitive th-there." Dan stuttered, hands twisting in the back of Phil's shirt. Phil smiled against the skin and gave Dan a quick peck on the lips. 

"If you want to stop just say." Phil whispered in Dan's ear, eliciting a shiver. 

"Don't be expecting it." Dan mumbled and pulled Phil down so that their bodies were pressed together again. Phil kissed his neck again and Dan bucked his hips up which made Dan moan loudly. "Shit, Phil."

~

Phil sat up in bed, breathing heavily and staring ahead of him wide eyed. He remembered. It had been a dream of the night before but Phil could still remember Dan's image clear in his mind and he felt so excited as he remembered everything like he remembered what Dan looked like. 

He grabbed his phone and stabbed his finger on Dan's contact, not caring what time it was - he had to tell him. After a few rings Dan picked.

"Hey, why are you calling at 5 in the morning?" Dan's groggy voice asked.

"You've got warm chocolate eyes, slightly tanned skin, mocha coloured hair and a cute nose. You have adorable freckles on your neck and a dimple on the left side of your face. I asked you to be my boyfriend two days ago and you have an amazing orgasm face." Phil blurted, saying anything that came to mind without having to look at a picture.

"Um ... ok, thanks." Dan chuckled down the phone. "What brought this on?" 

"Dan just meet me at the fountain." Phil said excitedly and jumped out of bed, throwing clothes about and trying to get ready.

"What, now?" Dan asked in confusion. "Phil it's really early."

"Dan please." Phil said desperately. "It's really important!" He pleaded, hoping Dan caught on to how urgent he sounded. 

There was a sigh on the other side, "You better have a good reason for waking me up at 5 in the morning, even if you are my boyfriend." Dan grumbled and Phil chuckled. 

"See you in half an hour bear." Phil grinned.

"Bye." Dan yawned and hung up. Phil grabbed his phone and keys before tugging on his clothes and leaving his flat as soon as possible. 

~

Phil waited nervously for Dan, going over his image and in his head so he wouldn't forget and playing through every memory. He could remember - without having to touch Dan, without a picture and without just seeing him. 

Soon enough Phil saw a figure walk towards him through the dark and Dan appeared, looking tired and a little rumpled. His hair was messy and his clothes looked like they had been thrown on - not like Phil looked any better but Phil loved Dan however he looked. 

"Alright, why did you drag me out of bed?" Dan grumbled, sitting down next to Phil on their bench. 

"I'm going to look at the stars." Phil mumbled and Dan raised an eyebrow.

"You brought me here for stargazing?" Dan asked, smiling through his annoyance.

"Shut up and watch." Phil grinned and Dan noticed the beam on his boyfriends face and how excited he looked. He frowned when Phil looked away from him without holding his hand and wondered if he should grab it so Phil remembered why he was here.

"We met here a few months ago and you told me to look at the stars. The second time we met I kissed you and two days ago you agreed to become my boyfriend. Daniel James Howell I am in love with you and I can remember you without having to look at you. I  can remember everything we've done together and I've loved every second." Phil announced.

Dan watched in awe as Phil said those things without touching him or looking at him and he could feel tears in his eyes because Phil remembered him. Phil turned back to look at Dan with a large grin. "I don't know if it will last forever but I'm so happy I can remember now so I want to spend as much time together whilst it lasts - even if that's forever. I love you Dan." 

Dan felt the tears leak and he let out a happy sob and wrapped his arms tightly around Phil, kissing him passionately. "I love you too Phil!" Dan cried. 

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FINISHED. AAAAH IT'S SO FLUFFY. Hope it was okay. There will be no more parts so I hope you like how it's turned out!

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