~Cry~

The cops had come and asked us some questions. Didn't take long, just what did Marzia look like, any information about her, and motive. But after that incident Pewds just didn't seem right.

Ken left a couple of hours ago, and he still just doesn't seem like himself. He was just sitting on the couch, playing video games. I didn't know what was wrong, was it Marzia? I mean obviously it had to do with Marzia, but I didn't know why.

"F-Felix," I murmured, sitting down right next to him.

"Yeah, Cry," he replied, it almost sounded like a groan. It took me by surprise, we have been using our real names when we are by ourselves.

"I-is there something wrong," I ask. I put my hand on his shoulder, and rub gently.

"N-no, nothing Cry. I am fine, for the millionth time," he yelled at me... He YELLED at me.

"Felix? I am worried about you-"

He interrupted me," God! Cry would you just leave me alone, I said I am fine. Perfect. Okay?"

I froze. The bitterness, and anger in his voice, made my bones shake. I felt tears begin to drip down my cheeks. I got up, and couldn't hold back a sob, then continued to my room.

I slammed the door and sobbed harder, biting my lip, until it bled. I searched through my room. I heard pounding at the door,"Cry, I am sorry."

"Fuck off," I yelled at him through the door. I found it, a small brown box. Inside I found a small bottle of pills, my old antidepressants, and a blade. I hadn't had to use it since a couple years ago, but since I have started my channel, I have felt better.

But now I feel worthless. What if he still loves Marzia. What if he realized that, so he is just trying to be my friend again. I took the blade and put it against my skin.

"Cry! Cry let me in, I'm sorry," he yelled. He pounded on the door.

"You love her don't you Felix? You want to leave me for her, you love her,"

I yelled at him. I pushed the blade into my skin, and let out a small whisper.

"Cry. Cry what are you doing in there," he yelled, pounding even harder on the door.

I pulled the blade across my skin,"You wanted to leave me for her. She is so much better-" I groaned,"than me." I took a deep breath.

"God dammit. Ryan! Ryan let me fucking in," he yelled. "I don't love her Ryan I promise. Please, let me in."

You could hear his voice, straining, whimpering. "Felix," my head looked up towards the door.

Then I heard him insert the key, and the door fling open. "Ryan," he yelled jumping on the bed.

He wrapped me in his arms, and I sat in utter shock. "Ryan, I love you more than anything. If anything, I hate Marzia. I never meant you to feel like that, it is just what she told me. She told me that she would be back. I didn't want this to hurt you anymore Ryan, I wanted it to end, so you can live, and move on-"

"I can't move on Felix. I can't live without you," I muttered into his chest.

"I know, Ryan. It will be alright, I will never, ever leave you."

I felt so close to him. I could smell him. I couldn't bear to be without him. "Felix, please, don't ever leave me. Be with me, Forever," I whispered.

"Forever, Ryan. Forever."

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I know it's short, I'm sorry my lovelies 🌺, but it was very intense was it not? Anyway, vote and follow and comment! I also want to dedicate this chapter to lovelife978 u r awesome girl. Stay AMAZING. Anyway, thanks for my support! See ya later my lovelies *brofist*👊 bye