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Trigger warning: No cutting but other things.

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God I'm so fat it's hard to look at myself in the mirror, I'm trying to look nice for Pete by wearing a nice shirt but it's too tight and if I was a girl people would think I'm pregnant.

"God I'm so fat" I sniffled starting to cry as I looked down at my overweight stomach, "Just flatten!" I cried pushing my stomach folds down but it didn't work.

I looked in the mirror sucking in all the way, "Perfect now I need to lose more weight" I sat in front of the toilet, "I said I'd never do this but I'm desperate now, skinny people always get loved so I have to be skinny" I told myself before sticking a finger down my throat to throw up,

"Now why would you do that?" I felt arms wrap around me and saw a leg on either side of me, I was sitting between someone's legs or Petes rather, "You're beautiful" He whispered kissing my shoulder softly,

"I'm fat" I whispered crying again,

"Now who told you those lies, don't lie Patrick that's not nice"

"I'm not lying! You're just trying to be nice because I'm you're friend, I'm a fat fuck who just needs to die" I sobbed.

"I think we need to lay down and cuddle because this isn't you" He held me tighter as he picked me up and carried me to his bed.

We laid down him holding me tightly as he kissed my neck sweetly, "Patrick I love you just the way you are I promise" He turned me towards him and kissed me softly on the lips,

I of course kissed back shocked, "Y-y-you what?"

"You heard me, I love you" And he kissed me again.

Maybe I can love myself now as well......

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Yes I know that was short sorry but happy Valentine's Day or should I say walking dead comes back day....it doesn't have a catch haha. No but I just spent time crying because I tried on a dress to look nice for school for once and I looked too fat in it so I'm just wearing an MCR shirt with jeans again because that's all that I look good in (I don't even look good in that)

Goodness I'm sorry I just laugh at myself all the time and make fun of myself but I laugh when I probably shouldn't.

I just really don't like myself at all and apparently you have to be skinny for someone to love you apparently since everyone has always liked my best friend and not me because my best friend is always skinny.

But anyways not that I got that off my chest I think I'll go to bed before I punch something because I'm so irritated and annoyed and just overall I need a nap.

Bye nemos!!

NoNameNemo, Out!