Your heart's too big for your body
It's why you won't fit inside

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   You were hurt and confused.

  You missed him, and You didn't know how to go back. You knew nothing here, you were lost and sad, there's no one left for you in this word. Tom Holland is seeing Zendaya.

   A l l  a r o u n d  m e  a r e  f a m i l i a r  f a c e s....

    You woke up and played with Tessa, then (C/n). The cat seems so much happier, eating the food that Jonathan had bought for her.

   Your last hope was Stan lee, or Ryan Reynolds. So you asked Tom as if nothing ever happened last night. "Tom, do you think I can visit Stan Lee?"

   "Yeah, sure. He doesn't let anybody meet him but you guys were pretty close. You told me that he told you that you can visit any time."

   "Hollywood hill right?" You just googled his house.

   "Yes."

   "Okay, see you...." You paused hopelessly because you didn't know when. "When I see you..."

   "Wait, you're going now? Why'd you fly all the way from America if you won't stay?"

   "It's important. Wanna come with?"

   "I wish I could, but I have to go talk about Chaos Walking, that new movie I told you about."

   "Hey, have they contacted you about Uncharted yet?"

   "The video game that I played when I was a kid...?" He asked.

   "It's alright, they're going to make it a movie. They'll contact you soon." You told him then grabbed the cat, leaving Tom confused.

   Jonathan drove you all the way to the airport. You remembered that you've read a fanfiction that a man named Jon was your bodyguard, but you didn't remember the name.

   You were so rich that you had your own private jet. Little (C/n) enjoyed her time on a flight then slept like her owner, both woke up when they arrived.

   You headed straight to Hollywood Hills. Jonathan already called that you would visit Stan Lee, and what a great guard he was, he brought you flowers to give to Stan.

   The house was huge and beautiful, Jonathan decided to wait outside as Stan's maid led you in to the living room where he was sitting, as if he was waiting for you.

   When the maid left he said Hi.

   "I was wondering when you'd show up." He smiled.

   "This is some X-Men Days of Future Past shit, Stan. When wolverine returns to the normal day and Pressor X was waiting to see the real him." You groaned, then sat in a chair opposite to his.

   He chortled.

   "Oh thank god, nobody knows the state I'm in but you. Please, tell me why the hell the reality also changed."

   "You're thinking that you're from the movie?"

   "..."

   "I was just playing with you." He laughed.

   Don't fuck with my brain Stan. You begged.

   "Peter can't really die, right? Tom has more contracts with marvel."

   "Ohh. That boy spoiled it for you?"

   "Yup and I still think it can't be real. Any one in their right mind knows Spider man can't die, I mean, he just returned home from Sony, back to Marvel's care. If he dies now it will make no sense."

   "Homecoming, yes, homecoming, indeed." He smiled to himself.

   You put your hands together. "Please, I need to go back. This has become a wrong world for me now, just look at me, see? I don't belong in this world anymore."

   "I wish it was that easy." He sighed.

   "Please, I left Peter there, and the others, let me go back and warn them--"

   "Warn them about what?"

   "That Peter will die---"

   "How?"

   "..."

   "You know nothing about it, yet, dear. So wait awhile, live like this for awhile, enjoy your time with the people you love. Next year, you will get to see it with everybody and then, I don't know, miracles might happen again."

   "Next year... please, please 2017 was the shittiest year of my life."

   "Every year is shit my dear."

   "Yeah, that's also true." You sighed.

   He sipped his drink and put the empty glass on the table, then told you, "Like it said in the book, dreams and love will be shown. Souls and hearts will be lifted. If one begs for their prayers, their words will be wished."

   "..."

   "You will know when to wish, little girl, just not now, and let me tell you, you can't change anything." He said sadly.

   But TRY ME STAN.

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   Wait. Okay. Wait, wait a little while. Days turned into weeks, weeks turned inty months, and before you even knew it, it was New Year's eve. You counted down the days until you would get to see Infinity War.

   Tom became distant, his secret about him seeing Zendaya remained hidden. You got more movies to work on so it distracted you from losing your mind. Becoming a Marvel actress made everyone love you, that also helped.

   Many boys introduced themselves into your life. Models, actors, singers, Japanese singers, Korean singers but you never let anyone in, for your heart knew this was the wrong world, and the only thing that mattered now was Peter on the other side.

   You cried a lot, every time you were alone. You even went through some inception type shit where you wondered, if you died in this world, you might wake up in the other. You almost jumped off a building... it was rather terrifying.

   But today Kevin would throw a New Year's day party for the Avengers cast at RDJ's house, which you were also invited to. You had to leave (C/n) at home, she was sick because she was so old when you adopted her.

   Jonathan drove you to the house at 8 pm. The party was informal so no one wore makeup or fancy dresses, and just kind of hung out.

   You had come to realize that you were close to the whole cast, they all loved you for some reason. Chris Hemsworth carryied you around every time he saw you and Chris Pratt promised he would get you Jurassic world two's premier tickets.

   They made jokes about you, Jeremy and Paul Rudd not being in Infinity War.

   "Oh Tom's here."  RDJ's said, having spotted Tom's car.

   Here we go.

   He walked into the house, saying hi to everyone, then stopped at you.

   "Hey. It's been awhile right?" He asked, trying to play it smooth, but it hadn't been easy since that night.

   "Right." You smiled softly at him.

   "Sorry I haven't text you of anything, it's been busy."

   "Me too."

   "Let's grab us a drink."

   Cocktails were part of the party. Tom drank a lot, while you just drank some juice. Then the cast circle up to talk, like the scene in Age of ultron, but with more people and you in it.

   "Yeah, and that scene in (Y/n)'s last solo movie right?" Chris Hem started a joke. "It was a deleted scene but it was where Iron Man and Cap got in a fight, right, and they almost lit the civil thing up again, and (Y/n) improvised that scene and jumped in between them and said "MARTHA! THINK ABOUT MARTHA.""

   You chuckled nervously because you didn't remember any of that.

   "You're a legend." Chris Hem gave a thumbs up at you.

   "Aw thanks." You nodded.

   "But they always laughed at everything." RDJ pointed at you and Tom.

   "We did?" You asked.

   "Well, we're fans, and the joke was good alright?" Tom yelled.

   "AlrigHT." Anthony mimicked Tom's British accent.

   "Was Guud AlrigHT." Seb stan joined and the crowd laughed.

   "I heard from Downey that they spent the whole day trying to shoot the kiss scene, was it true?" Chris Evan asked, then poured beer down his throat.

   Was it?

   Tom facepalmed and laughed hard. You stood there concerned.

   "It's legit, it's legit. They were shooting that Spiderman 1 recreate kiss." RDJ told the group. "And Tom was suffocating because he had to be up side down, right? But before they kissed, they looked at each other and bursted out laughing, spitting out saliva onto each other's faces."

   Everyone but you laughed because you felt the kiss was very easy when you kissed Peter.

   "But Tom has a girlfriend now right? Zendaya huhh? You naughty little shit." Anthony teased and Tom and you went quiet.

   "Uh... actually. We broke up." Tom said with a fake smile, you turned to look at him with widened eyes.

  "Oh. Shit. Sorry." Anthony said awkwardly, so was everyone.

   "It's been a month now, guys, it's alright. It was hard keeping it a secret with all the cameras, and we're still great friends."

   Everyone nodded and sipped their drinks nervously.

   "But isn't that all of us though, I mean, laughing during a kiss scene?" Chris Hem changed the subject and laughed like an old grandpa.

   "Not me. I'm a professional." RDJ laughed.

   "Man, I remember kissing Emily and it took an hour because of you sons of bitches, Anthony and Seb actually laughed." Chris Evans sighed happily.

   "But our kiss was easy huh Evannn." Scarlet teased.

   "Yess Johansonnn."

   "Guys. 10 minuets until midnight." Olden reminded everyone.

   "Let's go to the rooftop then." RDJ invited everyone. You and Tom looked at each other, saying nothing until he smiled.

   He held his hand out for you to hold and you both walked up the stairs. Both stood at the railing and let the cold air rush onto you.

   It was the most peaceful silence, the two of you just looking at the fireworks on the rooftop of RDJ's residence, as New Year's Eve turned into New Year's Day.

   He moved closer, then grabbed your hands to look at him. His eyes were asking if he could kiss you, he actually would've done it before if Sam didn't like you.

   But you looked down, smiled, the shook your head.

   You had decided under the fireworks that night that Tom would be okay. He had a bright future ahead of him, and if you had to leave, both of you would be okay.

   "I'm sorry, Thomas. I have someone waiting on me."

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