This is the state of grace,
This is a worthwhile fight.

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Peter's pov

The sun's down and i've been looking around to find (Y/n) for almost an hour. I didn't tract her suit's GPS to find her with thoughts that it shouldn't be that hard, but then I couldn't find her, so I decided to ask Karen.

"Karen... Help me find (Y/n)." I groaned. She left when she saw someone, wonder who that is.

   "She's right behind you, Peter."

   "What?"

   I turned around to see (Y/n) walking my way, her mask was in her hand, she looked down to the ground. She was lost, and it almost feels like she was blank, like she felt nothing at all.

"Baby?" I asked, she won't look at me, but keep walking.

Then she hugged me.

I hugged back and took off my mask as well. Then I kissed her head. "Are you okay? Did someone hurt you?"

She didn't reply, why did she hugged me as if it was the last time?

"I need to tell you something." She mumbled to my neck.

"Sure. Anything." I told her, put my hands on both her cheeks, so she will look at me, but then my hands were wet, by tears and blood. "(Y/n)..."

"Peter... i'm dying Peter..."

"What?" I chuckled automatically, like she was joking.

"...."

But i saw the look on her face and realized everything was true.

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   Tony Stark woke up with another nightmare. It still haunts him every night, when he float in the Galaxy, unable to breathe to save New York. Well, it gets kind of better now that Peter Parker is nearby and (Y/n) (L/n) stepped into his life.

   3 Am. The best time to stay awake and make Pepper concern. He snuck into his lap while everyone was sleeping.

   He took a look at the design of his new suit, he already designed Mark 48, 49, but he wanted to take it to another step, he need a suit that can regenerate itself, all he knows is that Mark 50 will have Nanotech involved.

   "Sir. Peter Parker is here." Friday reported.

   "What? I thought he'll go home like usual, maybe (Y/n) want to have some midnight fun." He chortled unknowingly about what's going on.

   "Sir. I think you should be concerned." Friday suggested and so Tony left the lab to the front door.

   There, he found Peter Parker with tears streaming down his face, with you in his arms, nosebleed, eyes closed.

   "Mr Stark... help us... help us..." The boy muttered.

   Tony rushed in to you. "What happened?" He asked as he helped Peter to carry you to another side of the building.

   "She saw someone and she left and she came back said she was dying. Please help her, i'd do anything, please save her."

   "Friday get the doc and wake the other up, prepare room four for me with a scanner."

   "Right away, sir."

   "Tony, what's going on?" Steve, Sam and Bucky was woken up by the noises. They got the answer seeing you lying helplessly in Tony's arms.

   "No..." Steve said then took turn to carry you, he was so much faster, then all of you ran altogether to the room.

   He placed you on the bed made of glass, where Tony used as an emergency medical device. Tony was in serious mode, his lips shut tight, his eyes widened open at the screen.

   "Scan her. Scan her right now Friday." He said, Wanda and Natasha ran to the room to see what's going on.

   Tony stared at the screen then rubbed his face.

   "What's going on Mr Stark?" Peter asked, he changed back to the normal clothes hurriedly, Tony didn't reply and stood frozen.

   "Mr Stark! Tell me! Please!" He shouted.

   "She's... she's..." He stuttered. "All her system are failing..."

   "Was she poisoned? Peter what happened to her?" Natasha asked, she helped Tony scanning you.

   "She left, said she saw someone, she came back with her nose bleeding. She threw up blood too, said she felt tired and passed out." Peter tried to get as much of all he remembered out.

  "This is not poisonous. She wasn't hurt. All her systems are just... failing, it's not making any sense."

   "Boys. Get out, we need to change her clothes." Natasha became the one who knew what she was doing, so she took in charge.

   "Will she be okay?" Peter asked.

   "Get out, all of you. Wanda, help me."

   Peter was pushed out of the room, so are the others. He kneeled down the ground the laud his back against the wall, he has tears swelling up, he didn't know how to hold it back, he was so cared of losing you.

   Tony talked to the doctor that just arrived, he showed her his scanning and they discussed it. Peter watch them from the distance, but Tony looked even more desperate after talk to the doctor.

   Soon enough they opened the door up, everyone entered right back.

   "Peter." Tony stopped Peter. "We need to talk."

   "After i know she's alright."

   "Peter. She's not alright."

   "She will be, that doctor, he could help her."

   "I talked to him, Peter, she won't last longer than midnight."

   "She will, let me go Tony."

   "Peter, please--"

   "Stop! Tony! Stop saying that!!" He cried out, everyone stopped, no one made a single noise. Peter put his hand over his temple, like it hurts to even look at everything that is happening.

   "You don't understand... I'm nothing without (Y/n)." He muttered.

   "Peter..."

   He heard your voice and he looked up, you were laying on the bed, with new clothes and not much strength left. You reached out for him.

   He sat down next to your bed, took your weakened hand in his.

   "Come on, Peter." You said softly with a sad smile. "We knew this, we pretended we didn't but we did."

   He rubbed his face then shook his head, denying everything that is happening. "No... no...no..."

   "You noticed me every time I hid all the blood, i can feel it all falling apart in me, Peter. It's time we admit this, i'm dying, for real."

   "..." He said nothing because he knew it. Since the first time you had that nosebleed when Hydra took you.

   "I need to talk to you alone." You told Tony Stark. Natasha helped and took Peter out of the room. The door closed behind them. Tony sat at the other side of the bed, guilty. Very guilty.

   "Why are you blaming this on yourself?" You asked Stark.

   "..."

   "You know, from where i came from, they call you the one who hurt the most, because inside an armor, you're a human, and when you fall, people always forget it hurts." You grabbed his hand.

  "But i hurt people too." He sighed softly.

   "Don't let it kills you inside Tony." You told him, making sure he understands, you always wanted to speak with him, never thought you will actually be able to.

   "Tony Stark, the first time we got to talk, i called you the man who started everything, and you are. Without you, there won't be us and we won't make it this far. When one from my or your world hates you, remember they have eyes but they can't see how important you are. All the bad things you blame yourself was never happen from bad intentions and i need, you, not to blame yourself anymore."

   For once you saw tears swelled up and you realized he understood everything you said.   "What if i can find a doctor. You could stay, I don't want to give up, and I won't."

   "Tony. It's the matter of time, i was never meant to be here."

   "You wouldn't just be sent here just to die, it must mean something."

   "I'm going, i don't know where, I don't know if i will remember any of this, and he's going to be all alone. You need to be there for him, Tony."

   "I really imagined that boy, and you in a wedding in the future." He said, he was fragile and he showed it. "I might have a kid with Pepper, and i'll pay for the whole party, i might buy you an island as a gift. That's... that's not going to happen."

   "One thing people are wrong about heroes is they think Hero has tragic beginnings, and great ending, sometimes both are bad." You told him, and he stared at you painfully.

   "I'll be there for him. I promise." He finally said.

   "Thank you. Thank you, Tony."

   Everyone entered the room again and didn't leave, Parker sat down next to you, hold your hands in his.

   "Peter." You said then tried to get more comfortable, but it hurts every time you move. "This is the wrong world for me, and i can't stay."

   "But you have to stay, stay for me, don't leave me." He begged. Tears streamed down his face.

   "I can't Peter. I can't." You said.

   Steve couldn't stand looking at you two, not being able to stay with loves one is just heartbreaking, and he learned it the hard way.

   "The day i left my world..." You told him, He stared at you, afraid you might disappear. "I begged to be with ones i truly love, another world that that's more special, exciting and worth remembering, and look where it sent me."

   "..."

   "To you. Peter. This love was special, exciting and definitely worth remembering.

   "Don't leave me, please..."

"I have no choice."

You used your last strength to reaching out for his lips, so he pressed his against yours. Then hold you all night, his tears dripped wet on the side of your cheek.

You were so tired, like an exhaustion after a long night of a good dream, just to wake up to live nightmare.

   You coughed and cried out. "I don't want to go... I don't want to go back."

   "I don't want you to go..." He hugged you tight.

"Come what may..." You muttered into his chest. Felt the warm of his body for the last time.

"I will love you... until my dying day..." He replied.

At midnight you disappeared, leaving no dust or traces, it was as if you never existed in that world.

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