I can't get you out of my head. I've had days like this but its been weeks. I don't know what's caused it. Everything I see reminds me of you. We've shared so much, bonded over nearly everything. But I've been able to bear it. Maybe it's the season. We both love Halloween, we shared our first dance, and your friend tried causing a fight. Its getting colder out, and constantly wishing I could pull you close to me and warm up. Feel your head against my chest, running my fingers through your hair, our breaths falling into sync, all the things your sharing with him now. All the things you promised I would never lose. Then I went and fucked it up. I regret it every day. I tell myself I can move on, but I know I can't. I need to but I can't. You won't come back to me, I need to quit daydreaming. Stop wishing. Quit waiting for the first star of the night, quit staying up until 11:11 just to make a pointless wish. It's a waste of my time and hurt myself every time. I can't stand it. I'm done trying to get you back but that doesn't mean I'm over you. No matter what anyone says I never will be over you. My entire being aches for you. I don't know what to say or what to do, because I know I can't do anything about it. I can't change the past and there's no point in wasting my time trying to change the future. I don't know where to go from here, but I need to say I'm sorry. A million times over I'm sorry.