I've been trying for months. You'd think someone with a passion for writing would be able to summarize it. Leave a last goodbye. But I just can't find the words that would support everyone. Once I'm gone, there won't be a shoulder to cry on. I won't be able to explain myself. There will be things I want to say to certain people. Its not like I can write a book, saying my final goodbyes to everyone. But I can't think of anything that will help everyone. People will be sad. More loved ones broken. But that wont be my problem. I wouldn't be able to regret it. I just don't know what to say that will really tell people how I felt. There's no justifying it. Unless you're in the exact same position, you won't understand. It's the one question people always ask. "How could they do that?" "Why couldn't I help them?" The answer feels so obvious. They didn't want help. I don't want help. I don't want you to keep thinking of me. "When I'm gone, just carry on." Thanks slim. People should take his words more seriously. Maybe then people could understand better how I feel. I just want to be happy. There's no chance for that while I'm alive. Don't ask yourself what you could have done. Don't say you should have tried harder. You didn't know what I was feeling. And that was intentional. I didn't want you to know. Every time you asked why I looked sad, and I said I was just tired, I wasn't lying. I was tired. Tired of living. It's not your fault. Its nobodys. Wow. I'm addressing my parents on a website they don't even know exists. Maybe this is how I say goodbye...