Fuck feelings. Fuck friends, fuck life, fuck that but most importantly FUCK YOU! You fucking stole my best friend and true loves heart. If you go on that fucking date with her I swear to god... I won't do shit. Because I'm not mad at you, or at her, I'm not jealous of you and I'm not feeling pitiful. I'm upset. Because I'll be replaced in her heart. And I can't blame you. It would be pointless. Obviously there's something in you that I don't have. But if there's any spark there, I can't look at her the same way. I'm sorry but I can't, and maybe that makes me a bad person but so be it. I know how she is. If she's with someone, they become her everything. I'll be cast aside, and she'll say to me "you could never be replaced, I promise." And it'll be bullshit. Because whether I like it or not, you'll be her top priority. She could pretend like nothing is different when she talks to me, act like we're still best friends, but the truth is your partner is your best friend. She will probably be reading this you know. And she will probably want to reassure me that I won't be replaced. But I already have been, whether she knows it or not. She doesn't see me how she used to. And I'll slowly become less and less to her without her even realizing, and eventually without her caring. I'm prepared for it. Just, I'm not ready for it. I can't fight for her. I've fucked up too many times, made too many mistakes, but I'm not ready to let go. I'll pretend like I am. But I still won't tell her I'm okay with her seeing anyone. Because she doesn't deserve to be lied to. But I also won't control her. I won't try to forbid her from dating you or any other guy. That's not anybody's place to say that. I don't want you anywhere near her, because I want her all for me. I'm not ready to be replaced. And I never will be. Yea I'm obsessed, yea it's unhealthy, but guess what? Fuck you. But maybe I should say fuck me too.