On my hands and knees I've begged her. For days ive needed her back. I hurt her heart, now I'm hurting my own. Razors have started to ease my own pain. I'm becoming far too reliant on it. I can't help it. I tried weeks ago and hated it. They left scars that I'll have all my life. I promised so many people I wouldn't do it again. I can't use the excuse of cutting myself on a tree branch again. And they clearly aren't cat scratches. My whole arm is red. 3 times today alone. To make things worse, I'm developing feelings for my closest friend. She has a boyfriend. She knows my feelings and she may have them back. I made it clear its him before me, but I can't help but flirt. Still I'm not over my love... these new feelings for my friend scares me... As of today my parents have split up. Im stuck with my dad for the time being. He told me just today to drop out of school and get a job to move on my own. I'm 15 years old! Life just keeps getting harder and I can't take much more.