Can't Escape
It doesn't matter where I go. School, home, friends house, it seems like the whole world is out to get me. This past year has been a living hell, nothing but hospital visits, losing friends, and having less places to turn. Some people have problems at home, so they can't wait to get to school and have a break. Some people it's the other way around. But me, I cant get away from any of it. Family arguments at home, bullying and embarrassment at school, it's tough. I won't pretend like I have it worse than others, because compared to people that I know, my problems are nothing. But when I'm writing and listening to music, it's the only escape I have left. I don't expect anyone to enjoy what I write, or consider me talented or poetic, that's not why I write. I do it to get out of my own head. All my problems are throwing me into a pit of despair that will just keep getting deeper the more I try and fix them. So for now, all I can do is sit back and try to survive the fall, while easing the stress with these poems, if that's what you want to call them. My keyboard is my escape, and the buds in my ears are what are keeping my mind away from the darkness inside. It's unfortunate, but it beats the alternative.