So..I will be swearing in this..

Basically its what I want to shout at the top of my lungs.

"How come my dad can be grumpy but I can't?! Its not my fault he's risking his fucking life just to drink. He didn't take his meds just to drink!! At least when I'm mad it's towards one person and only them. I don't fucking drag down another person just to get back at them!!
I have to watch my brother just so y'all can sleep so excuse me for being grumpy.
Yeah,Im moody but it not my fault! I keep getting sick because of cramps or food!
I can't even listen to music to calm down!
But nooo its all my fucking fault!! I keep getting panic attacks and dad keeps fucking pushing it by idiotically risking his life just to fuck with my night.
I have been around too many people and haven't gotten any socializing breaks.
So ex-fucking-cuse me for trying to fight back!!
I can't believe this shit.
I just want a break!!
He wants to go and be grumpy but i show attitude for one second and I get completely yelled at and in trouble!
I get it hard,its hard for me too so don't expect me to be a fucking saint.
Don't drag my brother down into this shit hole you put me in.
And finally,don't you even think I'll let this just slip by."

*sigh*
The_Wannabe_Director