So...update I guess.

I went to and got a eye appointment awhile ago. Mom filled the form out and one of the questions was about any mental disorders or something like that. The two options were for it if yes were "Anxiety" and "Depression". She asked and I said both but she said "You know they can take you to a doctor" and I was like "Well...yeah." And she responded with "And take you away from us" and I was like "?????" But she just circled anxiety and left it at that.

I couldn't believe it and almost ended up messaging a friend about it but...well...anxiety...

Anyways,the technician was a jerk and almost gave me a anxiety attack because she didn't know what she was doing... God I swear she had to stick the weird "Eye pressure" thing to my eye like fifteen times because it wouldn't work???

I ended up tearing up and kinda shaking but mom had to hold my head still....

I ended up having a depression crash a few days later over it...so yayyy.

Anyways,a night or two ago dad got drunk again...and I realized something.

I'm always told we act so much alike but....we don't...

Sure we have a similar sense of humor but there are so many differences.

Like I would never ever ever anger my brother on purpose....
I don't deal with "pain" with alcohol.
I don't smoke since its like a requirement when drinking.
I don't make up excuses for my behavior.
I try and own up to how I act.
I don't depend on my significant other to care for me like a child.
I may tear myself apart but I would never tear apart my family.
I don't have anything to help me sleep.
I don't make sure people know when I cry.
I try and take care of those I know need it.
I don't hurt my family so much some of them feel broken because of it.
i actually believe it when people say they're depressed or have horrible anxiety.
I don't force them to do anything they're uncomfortable with...

I'm not like him....I'm not...

I never want to be like him...

The_Wannabe_Director
Sorry for disturbing you....