I haven't written in here in awhile,even though I've had a few problems i do wanna talk about....still procrastinating on everything...
So let's start.
Me and my father were talking about fears and he said he's tried to get over his arachnophobia and I said I've tried to get over my aquaphobia,which i don't think he believes...anyways.
I have very good reasons to be scared. And I did try. I dunked my head underwater because of him...ended up having a huge panic attack. Recently I tried to again but could only get half way before a panic attack.
Anyways. He said no you didn't. And we argued about it. Eventually I just stopped talking,really upset because that was really hard for me.
A few minutes later when he realized I was serious about not talking to him he tried to say "Come on,I was just picking on you." Even if he was that was not nice in any way shape or form. He tried to come over and hug me so I had to kick him away.
After a minute I just went into my room,where I am now. I colored in one of !y drawings and made a new one... Where I drew someone drowning.
I laid down and cried a few times just thinking of putting my head underwater.

So now you know how I'm overreacting. *sigh*

I messaged a friend before I started crying to try and talk with them but...its been almost two hours and they still haven't responded.

I'm probably just tired.

...bye for now.
-error