I just finished watching marks video where he was talking about changing the world and it got me thinking...why am I not? I mean I could but...sometimes I feel like I am forced to stay in one pkace from my parents. I mean I love them of course but....they're overprotective...
I can't go out without them,I can't even go into our backyard. I lock myself in my room because its the one place I feel completely safe. Somewhere I fully made a home...

I want to make a safe space but everytime they just barge in here it feels less safe...

I just want privacy...or even just the ability to have a curfew would be amazing. I am trying so hard to better myself,but I just can't even they're holding me back.

I've tried online therapy has my mom doesn't believe I'm depressed and my dad doesn't get it....but even if said I'm beyond this. I can't get meds because if I tell a doctor they'll take me to a asylum and lock me away from everyone I love to find out what's wrong with me.

I just want help....I want to be better....I want to better this hell hole we call life....but I can't. I just can't

I tried to take a few days off but I wouldn't be left alone.....I just need a break...something....anything.

I'm tearing up has I write this,has I realize how....broken I am....

I can't change myself without help

I want to be better

But they won't let me try

a treadmill isn't the same has a walk outside.

All this from a ten minutes video....

I'm just going to take some time off and think....

-Error

The_Wannabe_Director