/TW : SUICIDE, SELF HARM/

the girl with a joyful smile
was always laughing so loudly
that it was even annoying sometimes,
admitted her friends
but that's how she was :
happy,
cheerful,
sometimes a lil bit too loud.

but they didn't know of
the tears in her eyes at night
the hole in her chest
and the scars on her arms
she was always hiding behind some oversized shirt
trying to mask her pain
as if acting like it doesn't exist
would magically make it vanish

sadly it doesn't work that way
and the girl with a joyful smile at day
turned into the girl with despaired, begging eyes at night
every inch of her body hurting
because of this pain living rent free in her heart,
her nightmares wouldn't leave her alone
and day after day,
her smile would lose its brightness

if one person had ever asked her how she truly felt,
why her eyes seemed so tired
when her smile was the biggest,
maybe it could have ended differently,
but no one did
and the girl with a joyful smile
was slightly dying on the inside
until the day she closed her eyes

f o r e v e r

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hey there ! i'm super insecure about my english so if there is a mistake, please tell me ;')

have a good night luvs