"Dammit where is it??" You growled in frustration as you tore through your room with vigor.

After a couple of minutes of struggling, you gave up and huffed annoyedly while perusing over your room with one last scowl.

You collapsed on your bed with a groan. "Where the hell did I put it?..." you muttered to yourself and frowned.

You knew that you had left your coat in your bag the other day when you first came into work and you had completely forgotten about it until you remembered you needed to get it dry cleaned.

That was the only good coat you had. The weather wasn't getting any better either but at this stage you neither could afford nor be bothered to buy another one either...

"Ah fuck it..." you sighed and then shrugged on your baggy knit cardigan that did little to shield you from the bitter cold.

It would have to do until you eventually found yours.

It was definitely somewhere in the building anyways and someone was bound to have seen it.

With that thought you peeked over your phone to check the time and pretty much had around 40 minutes left before you needed to be at work.

That was the perfect amount of time to do a coffee run and you smile softly knowing that you had already grown accustomed to each member's preference of coffee now.

Your smile turned devious as you thought about what you would do to push Yoongi's buttons today.

For the last couple of days you had been messing around with him, from picking on his sense of style to making fun of his similarity to a rock -emotionless.

Each time you teased him he had never failed to return the favor and your grin widened as you also thought about how your range of vocabulary had increased thanks to him.

That wasn't to say he had exactly warmed up to you but he was getting there, or at least you hoped he was.

The members took a little bit more time to get used to your brazen character but had all eventually taken it into stride soon enough.

You pondered over how long you were going to be their PA for. It had been roughly three weeks and you were itching to learn more about music production but you weren't necessarily complaining either.

Getting closer to each member validated why you were doing this in the first place and you genuinely enjoyed their company despite how difficult it was to keep up with their needs and schedule.

After that night when you had gotten caught in Yoongi's room, you made a conscious effort to make sure you used the correct studio for practicing.

Since then you hadn't been caught but you had an inkling that Yoongi had an idea as to what you were up to after hours.

Him and Namjoon as well. You took notice of how observant and attentive he was to little details and you were reminded about the extent of his perceptiveness when he had nonchalantly left a bag of your favorite candies on your desk with none other than a simple signature signed on a post it that said 'RM'

He had responded to your shocked gaping with a secretive smile and put a silencing finger over his lips with a wink.

You had only once mentioned your love for the specific sweets and that was when you were chatting and getting to know each of them properly.

You recalled that Joon had been focused on one of his books so you didn't think he had heard you but clearly you were wrong.

Either way you appreciated the gesture a lot and looked forward to the days that were to come.

This time you grabbed your keys and bag and bounded out your front door, glad that although it was cloudy there wasn't any sign of rain.

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Your eye twitched in exasperation as you walked into the building, more drenched than you had been prior to when you left your house.

You had been mistaken and why were you not surprised that you jinxed the entire thing after you opened your mouth.

If it wasn't clear before, the moment you had left your house it had started to rain and by the time you had arrived, you were more than damp. You took consolation in the fact that at least you missed the full brunt of the showers...

The more the chills coursed through you however, the harder it was to stay positive. You shivered and looked down at your cardigan in disdain. "So much for that..." you thought bitterly but shrugged it off as well before tucking it into your arms.

You would just have to hang it over your chair and hope for the best. If you were lucky it would dry before the day was over.

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"Y/N-ah/ya you should wear a sweater or something, it's pretty cold today" Jimin pointed out with concern as he eyed your long sleeved shirt with uncertainty.

You chuckled, touched by his considerate nature and you stuck your tongue out at him while ruffling his hair.

"Don't worry about it. I'm not cold right now and if I am I'll just grab my sweater later" you lied -so that he wouldn't worry needlessly.

His eyes narrowed in suspicion - clearly not buying your words at all but he nodded regardless and then threw his arms over your shoulder, steering you towards the common room so that you could join the rest of the group.

When you entered you took note of how tired everyone looked -they probably didn't get much sleep and you made sure to file away how you could improve that when you were free later.

You contemplated, only for a moment, if you should give them a couple more minutes to relax but then you decided that it was better to get them moving now so that they could actually have an early finish and get some rest at home.

So you pulled out your best evil smirk and saw Kook and Tae swallow nervously in response, before they eyed each other in muted horror.

"Should we make a break for it?..." Kook whispered in fear and Tae shook his head without taking his eyes off of you. "...do you want to die?" He whispered back with dread but his eyes danced with amusement.

"Okay boys" you raised your brow at the two and they grinned back cheekily. With a growing smirk you turned to the others and clapped with mock excitement.

"Who wants to go first and get their makeup done for the next episode of your Run series?" You asked rhetorically and immediately Hobi slams his face onto the pillow of the couch that he was lying on.

"...ugh...10 more minutes" he groaned, his words slightly muffled from the soft cushion and you perked up.

"Alright it seems like Hobi volunteered to take one for the team!" You joked and then nimbly dodged the flying pillow that followed after your statement with a cackle.

You smiled while batting your lashes prettily at the sleepy scowl he shot at you for your teasing.

"Just kidding" you quickly added while grabbing a seat next to Jin on the next couch. He immediately laid his head on your lap and sighed in bliss before shutting his eyes.

Without missing a beat you flicked him on the forehead and he hissed in pain. "Dammit Y/N. What was that for?" He whined with a pretty pout and you snorted.

"Nice try Jin. That won't work on me" you berated and the others chuckled at your antics.

Suddenly Yoongi stood with his eyes narrowed. "Tch. I'll go first since no one wants to take this seriously..." he muttered and he didn't wait for a response before bounding out the door and you frowned at the heat in his words.

You didn't miss the sad and uncomfortable looks the boys shot each other either.

You looked away when you hear Namjoon sigh wearily.

"...he's just tired" he informed you unconvincingly and you frowned but didn't prod him any further.

None of them were willing to expound on that so your eyes narrowed the slightest bit and stood up with an unreadable expression on your face.

"...I know I haven't been here that long but I'd have to be blind not to see that there's something wrong" you pointed out with no bite to your words but only with honesty in a way of stating facts.

"...you guys are like a family so I get that you'll have your ups and downs but this seems to go beyond that. Anyways just know that I'll be here if you ever need someone to talk to" you finished lightly and then gently placed a pillow under Jin's head before standing up.

You sighed and pulled up an understanding smile. "Head to the styling room whenever you're ready to start the day alright?" You murmured softly

They watched you silently as you bounded off for the brooding man, leaving them to ponder over your words long after you had left.

One step at a time

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You see Yoongi from the corner of your eyes and frown slightly.

Despite your words to the others, you weren't exactly sure how you would go about talking to the brooding man himself.

It was strange of you to be nervous and you didn't exactly understand why you cared so much in the first place but regardless you would try your best.

You come closer but by now Yoongi had seen you and you immediately see his face twist into a scowl.

"What do you want?" He bit out and you narrowed your eyes at his tone but you couldn't help how your heart stuttered slightly - you'd think about that layer

"...I'm just here to check up on you" you answered back easily and his nose flared in annoyance but you still took a step forward.

"I didn't ask you to check up on me so feel free to leave" he responded back dryly and this time you felt your blood boil.

You had been making such great progress so why did he have to mess it up by acting like such an asshole again?

You took a deep breath and tried again "Yoongi come on why d-"

His eyes flashed dangerously and he snarled. "Did I fucking stutter Y/N? I don't know what you're trying to do but get it through your thick head that I. Don't. Want. It."

The conversation was clearly over to him and he looked away from you emotionlessly.

Your hands clenched in rage and before you could think it through, you snapped.

"You know what Yoongi?" You murmured lowly and you waited until he fully looked at you before you continued. "It's about time you cut down your 'holier than thou' personality and take that stick out your ass" you told him heatedly and his eyes widened slightly but he still said nothing

You turned away. "At least open your damn eyes. You have no idea how lucky you are to have people who give a shit about you, even I can see that with my thick head and all you're doing is pushing them away." You finished with your own snarl and then walked off, chest heaving after your rant.

If you stayed you wouldn't have been able to stop yourself from saying more and you shouldn't have even said that much in the first place; you needed to cool down.

Why was he the only one that could grate your nerves without even trying?

You stiffly stalked towards the common room, teeth clenched tightly, because you only wanted Yoongi to see what he was pushing away...you realize now that it wasn't the smartest way of doing so but you couldn't take back what you said even though a small wave of guilt washed over you.

You collapsed on the sofa with a weary sigh and placed your arm over your eyes. You felt like crying but you held it back because it definitely wasn't the time nor the place to breakdown.

All of a sudden you hear a shuffling of footsteps and you lowered your arms, only to see Jungkook worriedly looking down at you with a slight frown.

Your face stayed impassive but you sat up, hugging a pillow to your chest, and gestured him to take a seat beside you.

"What's up?" You finally broke the silence and Kook brought up a weak smile. "Everyone's getting ready but it'll be a while until it's my turn so I just wanted to check up on you..." he admitted and you shrugged nonchalantly.

"I'm fine"

He raised one brow at you and after a mini staring contest you had backed down and pouted while flopping back to the seat. "...alright so he really got on my nerves okay?..." you muttered, eliciting an understanding nod from Kook.

He seemed to be in conflict about something but eventually he faced you once more. "Hyung was always a perfectionist you know?" He began with a reminiscent smile and you sat quietly, not wanting to say anything to interrupt the Maknae.

"I don't exactly know when or why he had started to push people away but by the time we realized, it was too late. He stayed behind for hours on end and argues when we try to bring it up with him. I think he wants to shoulder the burden because he doesn't want any of us to experience failure if it happens and even though we've tried so hard to get him to let us in again, he's completely closed himself off." He finished quietly and you sat there with a frown.

It was everything you had assumed but now Kook had confirmed it. What was he really trying to get at?

Kook's eyes glinted with renowned energy. "He's forgotten why we started this group in the first place Y/N and he needs someone to make him understand that there's more to this than being the best. We've tried but since you've started working he's actually been behaving like the Hyung we all know and remember"

You swallowed nervously at what Kooks words meant and he nodded, as if he could read your thoughts so that he could confirm your doubts.

"You make him feel and that's probably why he's even harsher to you. You're probably one of the only people who can bring him back Y/N..." he murmured but you shook your head and scoffed.

"No...that's not it Kook...if anything he feels hate more than any other emotion but I get that you want him to open his eyes again. I really do...I just don't think I'll be the one to make him do that again" you responded back bitterly with a sigh but Kook only raised his brow.

"You don't give yourself enough credit Y/N so it's about time that someone does" he said with a lopsided smile and then stood up. "We can talk about this more later but we've got to get back to schedule" he pointed out and you nodded, mind whirling from an array of different emotions.

You followed him with little resistance.

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"Oi! Hurry up JK!" Jin screamed out and Kook smiled sheepishly but bowed to every staff member while apologizing for holding them back.

You lingered in the background, keeping busy with menial tasks and only when the boys began filming, did you move closer to the set.

It was intriguing to see each member's personality come out in front of the camera and it was slightly more exaggerated than their norm. It must have been because of the image they had to maintain.

You couldn't take your eyes off of Yoongi however, who was a completely different man on screen.

You had to stop your jaw from dropping when you see him crack jokes with laughter and how freely he smiled throughout the entire film.

Your heart thudded as it usually did around the man but as usual you also pushed it aside and filed it under 'things to really think about later' - something you've been doing quite a lot lately.

You had mixed feelings at this point. On one hand you really wanted to bring out the best in him and show him that trusting in people really wasn't that difficult, but on the other hand you had seen first hand just how rude he could be and you really weren't obligated to take that much disrespect from him, what more help him?

Could you really handle all his lashing for something that may not even work out?

Deep down inside you already knew the answer and you justified it for the fact that maybe if you were in his position, you'd wish for someone to have enough balls to pull you back down to earth.

You cringed, knowing that you were about to dig yourself deeper in this mess.

You only hoped that it would be worth it

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Hey loves! ♥️

Sorry about the horrendously late update 😭😭

I'm just about in the middle of moving houses, starting uni and balancing work.

Sigh

I've missed you all dearly and can't wait to update the rest of the series I've left alone for much too long.

I hope everyone's been doing amaaaazing though and let me know what's been keeping you all busy too!

Miss you and see you in the next update ♥️