》4 months. I can't get over him, I'm tired. While he's being happy, I'm miserable. I want to be happy again. But it's so hard. 《

The sun stroked your skin and as you tried to get up you felt arms around you.
Fuck. Who. Is. That.
You turned your head a little, to see a boy laying next to you. But you couldn't look up to his face to recognise him completely.
Please, no.
Suddenly you heard a cat meowing, a familiar cat. You reached out your hand and when the white cat started licking the palm of your hand, you breathed out a sigh of relief. The arms you were familiar with now, grabbed you tighter and you put your arms around his. It was Jimin. He had probably picked you up last night after you had started vomiting. The amount of alcohol you had consumed maybe had been a little bit too much. Your memory was shattered, you knew that something happened last night but you couldn't figure out what exactly. When you picked your phone from the table next to the bed you saw that you had gotten a lot of notifications, but one made you gasp. It was a message from Taehyung.

Taehyung: can I pick you up for lunch?

Sent: 8:38 am

You remembered. Everything. And you were burning like a tomato. Punched Barbie? That's so not your character. You've never been violent in your whole life. Everyone would know that you did that because you were too drunk, so embarrassing. Maybe everyone would even come to the solution that the reason you became violent was jealously. You needed your friends advice now, that's why you opened their messages.

Irene: GURL OH MY GOD WHERE ARE YOU

Sent: 2:56 am

Irene: okay found out that jimin picked you up. Just for the record if you don't remember anything: you totally hit barbie. But it's okay, she was exaggerating anyway, we are proud of you LOL love u xx

Sent: 3:01 am

Amber: YOU OWNED THE NIGHT, THE BITCH GOT WHAT SHE DESERVED LMAO btw sorry that we let you have a bit too many shots xxxxx

Sent: 4:47 am

To say that you felt ashamed would have been an understatement. But you were glad that the girls got your back. However Taehyung's message worried you... would he be mad? Of course he would. You totally hit his girlfriend, you were out of control. There goes the thing about becoming friends. Not that you thought it would work anyway but now you had just ruined your chances getting closer to him. You were aware at some point that it would be better anyway to get distant to him again, but on the other hand somehow you wanted to get closer. Maybe there was a mini sparkle of hope, you two getting back together?

Jimin moaned into your ear and you felt ashamed immediately. He didn't deserve a girlfriend like this, he was too good for that. Using him as a rebound was against your will but somehow you couldn't help it. This situation was too difficult to handle.

"Morning, honey.", he kissed your ear and stroked your stomach.

"Good morning best boyfriend on the planet. Thank you for picking me up, I'm so sorry...", he interrupted you by pecking your lips softly. He made you face him and put his arms around your waist, pulling you closer. You put your arm around his neck so that your bodies would touch even more. It was beautiful and you enjoyed the moment laying in bed with a boy who really cherished you. Just like Taehyung did at the beginning of your relationship. Before he changed.

~

Jimin brought you home and believed you saying that you were going out eating lunch with one of your friends. It was the first lie. And you noticed you were becoming like Taehyung in your relationship, but you couldn't help it. You promised yourself that this was the first and last time you lied to Jimin.

You had told Taehyung to come over at 1pm, and he came super punctually. He was ringing like he used to. Short short long short. A thing he broke your heart with again, remembering all this.

You opened the door to welcome your handsome looking ex - boyfriend. He was wearing a black pullover with black jeans and a black jacket. Even though he seemed tired his face looked perfect.

"Hi.", you mumbled, checking him out.

"Hey, you ready?", his voice sounded lower than usual and even a bit raspy.

Quickly you grabbed your keys to be ready to go. You nodded.
You didn't talk about anything the whole car drive so the only thing making any sound was the radio.

He drove into a parking lot with no restaurant in sight. You looked around to see if you could go eat anywhere but there was nothing but closed shops. Taehyung got out of the car, heading to the trunk to get something. He came back with two boxes in his hands, Chinese takeaway. Oh no, was this what you two had eaten on your first date? He had probably ordered it without thinking any further but still the memories broke your heart.

With his smiling face he passed you your box and your chopsticks followed by your thanking smile.

"Thank you, Taehyung. I'll give you the money back."

"No worries. You don't have to pay me back."

You shook your head opening the box. It was indeed exactly what you had ordered on your first date. Asshole. Not realising what he did to you. Fate plays funny jokes sometimes. The first minutes were filled by you two quietly eating before he started the conversation.

"I still want to know the details."

"What details?"

"The details on how you and Jimin met."

You almost choked and had to quickly drink some water so spitting out the food would be prevented.

"Why? We made a deal!", you had calmed down.

"Deal?"

"Yeah... I won't tell you unless you tell me."

"That's not fair."

"What?"

"Forget it. I'll have to get you drunk to make you speak with me."

"What are you talking about?"

"Last night."

"I can't remember us talking..."

"Actions speak louder than words."

You dropped your chopsticks. He was talking about the incident. How could he say it so directly?

"I can't follow your words.", acting innocent and stupid was the only right thing to do right now.

"Acting stupid is no help. You want to come over at my place?"

"What, why?"

"I have a few Wodka bottles at home.", he smirked at you, knowing he was driving you crazy.

"You're still stupid."

"You're still a bad liar."

"What is this exactly? I thought you wanted to meet to curse me out for punshing your girlfriend but now you're talking such gibberish?", you said seeming to be out of breath. He was making you go crazy, out of your mind. Every second you had to fight the tears from streaming down your face. You had made a mistake. Meeting up with Taehyung was a mistake.

"I told you... I want to become friends with you.'

"And Barbie is okay with that?"

"You're calling my girlfriend Barbie?"

"Seems so, doesn't it?"

"If you want to know the truth, no she's not okay with it. But we had a fight last night anyway so... I can do what I want in my relationship anyway.", he was trying to defend himself somehow. At least it seemed like that.

"Why did you fight?"

He shook his head and closed his box, he had already finished and your box was still half full. It was quiet again before he suddenly turned around to face you directly.

"How have you been after our break up?"

You looked at him confused, wondering how he could be so direct. Not knowing what to say you simply shrugged your shoulders, still looking at the food.

"I want you to tell me. I feel bad about it. There are many things I regret."

Your head shot up at these words. What did he regret?

"I shouldn't have lied to you. I should just have told you that I fell in love with another girl only a few weeks after we got together."

Your eyes got wet and you couldn't stop it.

"Did you ever love me?", you said as the first tear landed on your cheek. Of course you regretted asking it immediately, but somehow you just wanted to speak now. To find out about everything you've been worrying about the past year.

He shook his head and his eyes looked scary. So dark.
Your mind wasn't working but what you knew was that you didn't want to be in a car with him for any longer. You got out and started walking away before you felt his arms grabbing you from behind. He hugged you while burying his head into your shoulders.

"Let me off, Taehyung. We can't become friends. Forget it.", you tried to get him off while the tears were streaming down your face.

He did the opposite. He hugged you even tighter.

"I know."