"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."

Skylar Jones
Chapter 38

"Cameron?" I yelled for my dear life, hearing a slight echo of my own voice flowing through the hall.

Carefully I stepped into the dark doorway of his house. The silence and emptiness I felt within this house was honestly scary, everything around me looked neat and clean. And in that moment my feet were glued to the ground, making me shiver a bit from the sad coldness.

Nothing stood out to me and it was completely silent in his house which normally should have calmed me down; but I was everything except for that. My heart raced so fast that I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, my hands were shaking uncontrollably and breathing seemed to be hard as anxious tears slowly formed into my eyes.

I could feel the sadness hanging in his house without even seeming Cameron, it was almost unbearable to me.

I hope he was okay.

"Cameron!?" I yelled again, knowing he wouldn't respond whether he was inside or not.

Without a doubt I instantly went towards his bedroom, but then I stopped for a second as I held the doorknob. I didn't exactly know if I was ready to see him right now. The last time I saw he.. He looked so..

So devastated.

And all that thanks to me. I broke him in a way that nobody else could do. I knew after a while that I was capable of that, breaking every last inch of him, because he only let me in and nobody else especially in a romantic way like this. He genuinely liked me back and I used that to my advantage.

He trusted me.

Slowly but surely, I opened the door to look inside. I frowned when he was nowhere to be seen, but then I suddenly saw the boy who used to be strong, cocky and bold, all broken and curled up in the corner of his room. He was swaying himself as he birdied his head in his legs, not able to see me. That's when I realized that I broke our spinning stars down and he was paying for that.

And that sight definitely touched me.

"Cam?!" I yelled in panic, rushing in front of him, taking his delicate face in my hands. "Hey.. Babe, open your eyes, please" I begged him when he closed his eyes in defeat. "Please wake up.."

He looked bad and defeated. There were heavy dark bags under his eyes, showing me his exhaustion. His perfect cheeks and nose were slightly turning pink which revealed that he had been crying. My heart shattered from it, seeing him like this made my throat close whilst I struggled with breathing properly.

Because I did this to him..

Why didn't I just quit that damn deal?! Then none of this would've happened.

But it did. It happened and it was all on me.

I pulled Cameron in my arms, lifting him to his bed and laid down with him. I wrapped the blankets around us and hugged him against my chest. My eyes laid on him; watching his broken beauty. His dark hair was messily laying on his forehead and his lips turned into a slight frown. I smiled a bit when I listened to his soothing heartbeat, that was the only thing that gave me a calming feeling. Even when he was lost, he looked so genuinely gorgeous.

I know he didn't want to have to do anything with me now, but it was obvious that he needed someone. Someone who would twist the grays in his clouds to colors, who led his through the dark tunnel like a light source and someone who would love him through the good and the bad.

And I wanted to be that someone.

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"Skylar?" His soft voice pulled me out of my never ending thoughts.

"Cam? Hey you're awake, I'm here shh" I hugged him tighter, afraid of his reaction.

"What.. What are you doing here? Go away! Now! I don't want you to be here," He growled low, roughly pushing me away from him when he saw me hugging him.

I deserved that.

"Cam, listen.. I know you don't trust me anymore and you have all the right not to. But give me a chance, a chance to explain and make it up to you. That's all I ask, please" I said, hoping he'd say yes.

"I.." He took his time to think and thankfully seemed more calm now. "I don't know. How can I trust you after what you did! I.. I hate you" He murmured, not looking in my eyes.

"Don't.. don't say that. I know you don't mean it" I breathed out.

"You don't know that" He growled, glaring harshly at me.

"I do. Cause I'm still your boyfriend and I know you Cameron" I told him fully determined, staring in his warm chocolate brown eyes as I took his hand in mine to prove him my point.

Please let this boy be happy.

"Fine, take me, but I still don't trust you" He glared, taking his hand away.

My eyes widened in surprise as a sudden weight fell off of my shoulders. I felt relieved as I breathed out. He may not have forgiven me yet, but this was a step in the right direction.

I could finally execute my secret plan.

Hehe.

"That's better than nothing at all" I smiled a bit at him, walking outside with him to our special designation.

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"Why the hell are you taking me to the basketball field? I swear you really are weird Skylar" Cameron commented, looking around as he noticed his own practice spot.

"Just be patience!" I smiled wide, feeling myself getting impatience too.

"Fine, suck my dick" He said in his low voice as if it was the most normal thing in the world to say.

"Seriously?!" I laughed, looking at him when he slightly smirked at me.

Oh man.. I may have missed his sexual teasing.

Just maybe.

My smile brightened even more when Cameron's teammates including Jack appeared on the field, playing I kissed a girl from Katy Perry.

I took Cameron in the middle of the field as everyone started dancing in their training clothes.

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention

"Oh my g-" Cameron looked amused at the boys.

I loved seeing him smirk so cheeky and cocky like he always did.

I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chap stick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it

And now it was my time to shine!

I took my jacket off, revealing a white shirt where I draw a dick on it as I walked to his teammates, dancing like idiots with them. We sang along with the music, changing the lyrics a bit to what suited Cameron and I's relationship.

No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what, good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I looked at Cameron to see him laughing out loud with tears in his eyes, I heard that laugh above the music, because that was what was music to my ears.

His laugh.

I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chap stick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it

We grabbed our white boards which revealed a sentence as we held it above our heads, still dancing like crazy.

'I love you, forgive me?'

Us boys we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I loved to see him smile and shake his head in shame, but then again I could see he was amused by those cheeky twinkles in those brown eyes. He always got those whenever he got excited and amused about something.

I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chap stick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it

When we were done we all bowed and laughed our asses off, high fiving each other. I smiled proud and walked back to my boy.

"And? Did you enjoy the show?" I laughed as he still had tears in his eyes from laughing so much. He was basically crying from laughter, it was priceless.

"Look" I started more serious. "I know you won't forgive me right away. But we can try? I'll win your trust back if you can give me one last chance. Because I meant everything I said, the feelings and words.. Nothing and nobody could ever compete against you, because truth is there, I love you more than anything Cameron" I blushed a bit as I confessed my feelings again.

"I don't know what to say.. I mean.. I'm sorry, but I-"

"No please, give me one chance Cameron.." I interrupted and walked up to him, standing close to him as I whispered soft. "Don't tell me that you don't feel the chemistry between us? The electric feelings.." I murmured, touching his fingers and feeling the tingles instantly shot up. "Look me in the eyes and tell me that you're done with me, only then, I'll stop" I told him.

Sure it was a big dare of me to say that, but I could handle it. I knew there was a part of him that wasn't done with me even though I haven't been the best boyfriend for him.

He stayed quiet for a while whilst I bit my lip nervously, watching him in all anxiety.

"No more secrets..?" He slowly spoke up.

"No more secrets, I promise" I answered right away.

"Okay.. Then.." He trailed off a bit.

And this was the moment that my breath hitched in my throat.

"Then I guess.. I'll have to forgive your sexy ass huh?" He smirked cheeky, actually grabbing my ass this time.