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CHAPTER 29
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A/N: This chapter contains an explicit scene. Viewer discretion is highly advised. Please skip this chapter if you're uncomfortable with this kind of genre.

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IT IS HAPPENING ALL over again. He has been acting aloof ever since the incident. I didn't know why it was such a big deal for him to be so upset that I pushed Haera.

"Oi, I sacrificed my work for you even though my cases are piling. You think being a lawyer is easy?" Ryujin rambles, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Sorry," I sigh heavily. "Can I ask you a question? How do you get someone to talk you when they're upset?"

"Why? Are you having a fight with your hubby?" she teases with a silly grin.

"Yes, actually, I didn't know how to tell you this but uh.. I pushed Haera,"

"You pushed Haera?" she looks at me, not even slightly shocked. "So?"

"Ryujin, I pushed her to the ground while she's pregnant," I emphasise on the word in a monotone voice.

Her eyes widen but not the one I was expecting. Instead, she looks proud. "What?! Wow, you are on fire!"

"This is serious, Ryujin," I frown.

About Haera, thankfully, nothing happened with her baby's condition. I felt so terrible and the guilt keeps me alive although I have no intention to harm her or the baby on purpose.

"Okay, sorry, but why did you push her?"

"Well, she manipulated me with her evil words," I huff in anger, still remembering the way she talked to me that day. It was offensive and hurtful.

"What did she say?" she asks curiously.

"It doesn't matter. Thinking about it makes my blood boil," I roll my eyes, annoyed. "Back to the topic— do you have any ideas? Please, please help me. Any ideas will do,"

"Oh, I have an idea! Try to entice him. It works on every man," she bluntly blurts out.

"What do you mean? Like seduce him?"

"Yes, I think it's time for you to give up your insecurities. I know that you're not ready yet but until when are you going to keep yourself isolated about this? You should try to learn and educate about the process. Trust me, you are going to be fine because you still have him. He's not gonna leave you,"

Everything about what she said was true. I was being so paranoid all this time and I should have taken an empathy towards his feelings.

"You're right. Of course, you're right. Do you think I'm ready?"

"It doesn't matter if you're ready or not because I know you'll be a great mother," she smiles and squeezes my shoulder affectionately.

"I trust you,"

She quirks up a proud smile. "There you go, girl! Make sure you wear a nightgown. You have that right?"

"Nightgown? Why should I have that? I'm using pajamas,"

"Pajamas? My God! Let's go shopping," she inquires, standing up and tugging my arm with her out from the coffee shop.

•••

The sky manifested into a dark surrounding by the time Ryujin gave me a ride back to the mansion.

I strode in after unlocking the door and everything is so quiet and dim, except for the lighting upstairs from his office room.

I walk up the stairs slowly, feeling nervous all of sudden. I could feel heat and adrenaline rushes to my face with sparks electrified around my body.

With faint footsteps, I paddle to his room and noticed that the door is slightly ajar. His deep voice echoes in my ears and it seems like he is having a conversation with someone on the phone.

"I know but this is for the best. I need to do this to protect her," he taunts seriously. "You're asking me why? Because I love her,"

I freeze behind the door, standing in shock after hearing his revelation. Who is he talking about? Haera?

"I couldn't stand her getting hurt anymore," he irks, restraining his voice from cracking. From that sentence, I know it is Haera. "Please, don't tell her. I beg you,"

After a moment of silence, he finally speaks up. "Thank you. Call me if you find anything else. Yeah, okay. Bye,"

My world has come crashing apart and my heart stops as if someone has stabbed me in the chest. His betrayal hurts even more than anything in this world.

All this time, it turns out that he still loves her. Why does it hurt so much knowing that?

At this point, I was upset, mad and angry. I didn't realised that tears ran down my cheeks when I burst into the room.

A loud gasp emits from his mouth as his shock eyes turn towards my presence from the couch.

"Mia.."

"You love her? Is that why you avoid talking to me? Because you feel guilty?" I mumble in tears as I could feel my heart breaking. "I can't believe that you love her after everything she did,"

"N-No, darling, listen to me," he baffles, flabbergasted as he reaches to take my hand.

A look of desperation swimming in his eyes while staring into my soul. "I.. I wasn't talking about her,"

"Can you stop lying? You cared so much about her. You made her as your secretary, you wanted to take care of her baby, you brought her to the hospital as if your life was depending on it. What does that tell you?"

"Look, she was my fri—"

"God, that stupid excuse again! Yes, she was your friend but she took advantage of you! Is that what you called a friend?" I let my frustration out on him.

His face falls but then he regains his composure right before he responds to my harsh words. "Please, Mia.. I really don't want to start a fight with you. Let's just talk calmly, okay?"

I take a sharp breath. "I'm sorry, but I really can't do this anymore if you keep lying,"

"I'm not lying, I swear. And to answer your question, I don't love her. I never did,"

"Another lie," I snort in disbelief.

"No, no, darling. Why would I want to lie to you? I'm telling you the truth," he replies back in a much softer tone.

— WARNING: explicit content ahead

My skin crawls when he moves forward, closing the space between us. His hand manoeuvres to my right cheek and caresses it with tenderness.

"The woman that I love is you," he declares, his velvety voice ringing in my ears.

My heart skips a beat over his confession. "I'm really sorry for ignoring you. Let me make it up to you, hm?"

"You love me?" I stare at him. His words are hard to decipher and I'm way too appalled to believe.

His hearty-shaped smile turns brighter than ever as he nods his head. "You should know better by now that you're the only one, baby,"

It took me a while to process. I came to my senses after something inside me snaps like a twig. Without any warning, I pull him down by his cheeks and I press my lips on his.

He gasps before reciprocating to move his lips slowly against mine and glides his hand to my waist. I break our kiss to catch my breath and I watch his smile grows wider, beaming at me fondly.

"I love you. So so much,"

I grin sheepishly and about to kiss him again but I let out a noise of surprise as he slithers his arms on my back and thighs, carrying me into a bridal style. With my arms cling around his neck, he walks to our bedroom.

He places me carefully on the bed and bends his head down to kiss my lips. Goosebumps prickles onto my skin when his hand trails along my arm, tilting his head to a different angle to deepen our kiss.

He detaches his lips, his darkened eyes staring wildly with lust. "I want to make love to you,"

My head swirls in dizziness, causing a gasp falls out from my lips. "What?"

"I can't hold myself any longer, Mia. I've been dying to get intimate with you," he darkly whispers, making my heart burning in desire. "But I promise I'll be gentle,"

"O-Okay,"

His eyes light up like a moonlight but soon, it darkens. My breath hitches as his cold fingers sneak underneath my blouse.

"Can I take this off?" he questions sensually, gesturing to my garment.

"I— yeah sure,"

He smirks and guides my body to tug my blouse and pants off. After discarding my clothes, he removes his black shirt, exposing his chest and biceps rippling on his body.

I gulp nervously but unknowingly lick my lower lip to admire the obscene view.

He bites his bottom lip, suppressing a bashful smile. "Are you seriously agreeing to this? I'm not forcing you, right?"

"No, I'm ready," I answer him more confidently this time. I was ready to give him everything at this point.

Without any words being said, he connects our lips and we kiss for a few seconds. I whimper the moment his lips touch my skin, trailing kisses on my neck to my shoulders.

Things escalate too fast as he pulls away to unbuckle his pants. After he is fully undressed, he hovers back on top, situating his body in a proper manner.

"I want this to be perfect. Please tell me to stop if it hurts, okay?" he softly murmurs, his Adam's apple bobbing up and down.

He looks pretty anxious and I could tell that it is probably his first time too.

Like a deer struck by lightning, I let out a shock gasp when a unfamiliar sharp of pain shoots right through my body.

He claims my mouth with his again to ease the pain. My heart melts when he grabs ahold of my hand, pinning it next to my head before interlocking our fingers together. I grunt, clawing my nails on his back because of how painful it is but somehow, I can feel the pleasure.

He pulls away from the kiss. "Are you okay, baby? Do you want me to stop?"

My chest heaving up and down as I shake my head. "N-No, it's okay. You're doing great,"

He nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck, thrusting in and out slowly. He groans as he rolls his hips, snapping onto mine in a slow motion.

He goes straight back to my lips, giving me mouth kisses as he whispers breathily. "Can I move faster?"

I hum as a confirmation and immediately, he picks up his pace. After a few more hard thrusts, his pounding turns sloppier but firm until the sticky liquid releases inside me.

Both of us let out a loud moan, breathing heavily as his body falls beside mine. He flutters his eyes open and a grin appears on his lips, smiling gently.

"I love you too," I whisper to him, cupping his cheeks before pecking his lips.

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A/N: HMMM OKAY NO WORDS. But congrats to all who survived this chapter and thank you so much for reading and supporting my story until now. I really appreciate it!!! I LOVE YOU ALL AND SEE YOU NEXT CHAPTER. ISTG THIS IS THE FIRST AND LAST SMUT IM GONNA BE WRITING LMAO.