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Jason:

"You'll be fine"

"You'll grow out of it"

"Eh, who cares about the past?"

"Its just a phase"

"You're weak for thinking that"

"You can't even handle yourself?"

Fuck them all. I'm done. I'm so, so, so done. I'm just done.
I won't be fine.
I won't grow out of it.
Without the past, there is no future.
Its not a phase.
I know I'm weak.
I can't handle your bullshit, much less myself.

Life has been getting worse. I was first demoted from the legion because I had chosen to become Greek, always been an outcast among the Greeks because my originality was Roman.

Piper broke up with me to date Annabeth.

Leo got Calypso, and now it seems as though he just doesn't need me around anymore.

Nico finally got his dream boy, Will, and now, of course. He doesn't need me either.

Jupiter doesn't care about me. Neither does Zeus.

Thalia is a hunter, she's so busy with her new life she forgets she even has a brother.

My mother, Beryl, is dead.

Hazel and Frank are now praetors of Rome, and they're doing amazing, both with their relationship and their jobs.

Reyna has also joined the hunters.

And me... I'm just alone. You know, there are so many occasions you have to bear so much pain, and you don't even realise how much it hurts.

But after a while... The intensity of the pain and hurt hits you hard,  and... Its all you can do to not give up completely. And yes, by giving in completely, I mean killing yourself.

Nobody has ever had any patience with me from quite a while. They just give those fucking useless pieces of advice. But Percy... He's so... Perfect. He doesn't seem to be irritated or annoyed with me, ever. And he's so strong, and so outgoing and so... So likeable.

He always has a smile on his face, despite everything he could've gone through. Agreed, I don't know much about his past, but going through Tartarus and back, being able to fucking bloodbend, and just overall being so strong... Is bravery. You have to admit that.

*T*I*M*E***S*K*I*P*

I was just sitting at my table, alone, y'know, because I'm the only son of Jupiter here. Percy just randomly waved at me and walked up to my table, sitting on a bench. 'Hey dude! Sup?' He asked cheerily, slurping his blue slushie. I only had a few small pieces of bacon with me.

Thanks, Anorexia. Really. Thanks.

Percy looked at me, expecting an answer. I gave him a fake smile that hopefully looked genuine. 'Oh, good, all good. You?' Percy's smile fell, but only for a second, and he smiled again. 'I'm fine, just gonna go over to mom's house tomorrow. I'll meet Estelle! She's five now, and she's so cute and...' Percy just continued speaking as I zoned out, absentmindedly tracing a few scars on my arms under the table, staring at nothing and everything. Percy stopped speaking, although I was barely even aware of it.

'Jase? You good?' He asked, and I snapped out of my reverie.

'Wha? Oh, yeah, just... zoned out.' I could tell Percy didn't believe me. Suddenly, he grabbed my arm and jerked it towards him, studying the white and red scars intently, not saying a word, his expression unreadable. 

I swallowed.

After a moment, Percy's eyes softened. He sighed, then rolled up his sleeves slowly.

That...

'You?' I whispered, not trusting myself to not cry. Percy nodded, shuddering slightly.

'A year ago. When Annabeth... you know. Broke up. I was...' He shook his head. 'I was in a... in a dark place then. And you know who helped me?'

I shook my head, feeling tears well up. The whole pavilion was staring at us. Percy quietly took my hand and led me away from the attention.

'Do you know?' I shook my head again.

'Tell me.'

Percy was quiet for a few seconds.

'... Myself. And I... I don't want the same for you.' He whispered, looking down. 'You... you probably know how hard it is to stay locked in your head with no way out to stop thinking and realising that at the end, it's just you who's gonna never leave... And it... It's a horrible feeling, knowing no one is out there for you.'

I gasped quietly, and until Percy swiped his thumb under my eyes I hadn't even realised I was crying. He smiled softly. I hadn't ever seen him smile like that. It wasn't bright or cheery or cocky or sassy or even happy. 

It was vulnerable. 

I swallowed again, blinking back the remaining tears as the nausea of Percy seeing me so open finally caught up and I felt dizzy before Percy caught my hand in his and held it gently. 

'But I... I care about you, Jase. And probably... Probably a bit too much.' He chuckled quietly. My mind spun. I looked at him, confused.

'What... d-do you mean by... that?' 

Fuck you, stutter. Fuck you. Go to hell.

Percy just smiled. 'I like you, Jase. And I have, for quite a while now. I just... I was focused on trying to find the right time to say it but I guess...' He looked at our intertwined hands.

'I guess there... there is no right time for things like this, so... I like you.' He said, voice trembling slightly. I blinked and muttered something genius like 'shumma shumma.'

Percy laughed, hugging me. Gods, the hug... If heaven ever existed, it was in his arms.

'So, is that a yes from you?' He asked me, sea green boring into my eyes. I just nodded, tackling him even though we both were already hugging, which kind of made us both fall to the ground embarrassedly but you know.

I was the top. 

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