[(Were back with Nico :) ]

I saw Leo and Piper leave Percy's cabin and this time instead of knocking I decide to just shadow travel inside.

Yeah, suck it up. If he has something to hide, he doesn't anymore.

Didn't know why I ended up in his bathroom closet until he comes in and the door isn't quite shut. So I can see him. And he wasn't taking a shower or using the toilet so I thought I was good.

Until he took off his sweater and his shirt. And usually I would've left then and there but something caught my eye.

Scars. Fresh scars on his arms. One covered in bandage. With blood leaking out.

Then what he did next I'd never expect out of Percy. Not the Percy I knew. Not the one that I... Just not him, you know?

He took out a razor and I don't think much of it until blood was dripping on the ground and I saw where it came from.

Percy.

I had flinched when I saw that and Percy heard and looked around, panic on his face as he cut his arms a lot worse and covered it back up. Then he left the bathroom and got out of the cabin.

Do you blame me for following? After what I just found.

He was acting like himself and when Percy was at the arena and I'm peaking my head, hiding whenever he looks in my direction.

" Nico playing stalking wannabe boyfriend?" All of a sudden Jason scared me to death. And I glare at him.

" Well that's what it looks like." Jason explained as he handed me a water. it was hot out, so I took it.

" Seriously though." The son of Jupiter said. " What are you doing?"

" I found out a few interesting things about Percy." I said. " Just seeing if there was some huge reason for it or something."

" And what's that?" He asked me, taking a drink of his own water.

" Percy cuts." I said " Like with a razor and his arm."

The water flew out of his mouth and it landed on Percy who looked in our direction. And when he saw us.

He said nothing. Just gave both of us a cold look and went back to what ever he was doing.

" Percy?" Jason whispered this time after a minute. " Cutting? Are you sure?"

" I saw the blood dripping from his arm." I was pretty positive. " Im pretty sure about it."

Jason nodded his head.

" What should we do about it?" Jason asked me.

" Let my try talking to him first." I said. " We'll go from there."

" Good plan." Jason said and walked away and I just did what any other demigod would do. Take out my weapon and practice.

After maybe a minute of me doing that Percy stopped and he tried leaving.

But the door was locked.

" What the Hades!?" Percy said, getting pissed at the door. Odd. He's never had a short temper. " The door won't fucking open!"

I stop and look at him.

" Just calm down." I told Percy and he glares at me.

" Very funny." Percy told me which got me confused. It's not like I did this. He'd know that...right? " Now unlock it, Nico."

" I didn't lock...." I defend myself. " I didn't know they could even lock."

It was the truth and Percy knew that.

" Great." Percy flew his hands in the air. Mad. "Just great. Now I'm stuck in here with you."

He was getting frustrated. Okay. I could manage with this.

" Gods, I didn't do anything to cause this, Percy." I said as I saw him gaze over at Riptide and even for a second my sword and I put my hand over my sword. I knew what he was thinking.

" Oh, no you don't." I told Percy.

" How would you even know what I was thinking?" Percy snapped at me. Cold. Harsh. Full of nothing but hate. " You don't know anything."

And that was when I lost it.

That was when I lost the one last thing I had that kept me going in life. That very very little sense of hope I had left in me that maybe I had a chance in life.

But no.

It's gone now.

And I just lost it. I started backing away. Pain and loss and sorrow flowing right back into me. I hit the wall and started sliding down it. I didn't know what to do. Like I could be straight. Yeah right. Anything but.

That hole inside of me overwhelmed me as I sat there and store at the one person that I was now positive I had no chance of. I can't even dream it's too impossible.

" What?" The 17 year old boy's voice filled up inside of me as I could feel the hate sense off of it. " Why are you looking at me like that? What did I ever do?"

And then I realized he was doing the same thing I was.

He was panicking. Different reasons. Way. But he was flipping and trying to hide it.

" You're looking at me like... like I'm some sort monster." Percy starts walking backwards. " Why are you doing that?"

I didn't speak, just looked away and felt the first of tears fall.

After a minute I could tell Percy was looking at me.

" Are you... why are you crying?" Percy asked and it was the weirdest thing. Like he cared.

Then I remembered.

What am I kidding? He'd never...

I answer anyway. For years it's been inside of me, just building up larger and larger, eating away at me.

" I DONT KNOW!" I shout, making him jump. " MAYBE BECAUSE I REALLY DONT HAVE SOMETHING TO GO OUT TO MAKE WORTH LIVING! MIGHT AS WELL JUST END IT HERE! LIKE You'd CARE!?"

I calmed down for a moment.

"Like anyone would care."

The tears start rapidly streaming down my face and I didn't care if he was there or if anyone was there. It wasn't worth it. None of it was.

And Percy shocked me once more.

" No." Percy said after minute of what looked like thinking. " Just no. Don't you dare start thinking like that. I don't care if I'm not your favorite person. I won't let you."