(This is in Percy's POV BTW)

Why did I just do that?

I store at the door after slamming it in Nico's face and considered opening again. But that wasn't...

I knew better. He was lying and I was being stupid for even considering him to be a person to care about me. Because that's who Nico Di Angelo is. A kid who just doesn't care.

I heard Nico mutter something but I couldn't make sense out of it. Barely heard the noise. Much less the words.

I heard something smack against the door not long after. What followed was footsteps away and I walked into the bathroom. Night two of this personal hell I've kept to myself.

Last night I thought it was just the break up. It wouldn't make sense, after all. But now I know better than that. It's all of it. From Gabe to my dad to the wars to what Nico told me this morning.

" This is for you Nico, Dad." I said as I uncapped the razor, rolling up my sleeve. " But especially for you Gabe."

The silver drew red all over my arm as I did different things with it. Experimenting with it. And after a while I'd stop, put the razor away, and stop the bleeding. I mean, what else can I do? Just smile because I don't really feel like it?

It's not like anyone would care to notice.

I put on a sweater being one, it was chilly in the cabin and two, just in case it still bled a tiny bit. So it wouldn't show.

Payed off, too. When Leo knocked. With Piper. And they looked so worried and scared.

" Hey guys." I said, seeing they looked desperate. " What's up?"

" We need your help." Piper told me and I let them in, not wanting to get a jerk. Though I feel bad for slamming the door in Nico's face.

" What's wrong?" I asked them.

" Pretty sure Jason's gonna kill me." Leo said.

" Why?" I asked.

They both look at me and ask this question I can barely answer.

" When you were with Annabeth or like even before that with others." Piper said. " Did you ever consider leaving them because of somebody else you feel more about....?"

" That's like barely a question." I said. " Yeah. I mean , who doesn't? Quite a few times I did. Why?"

They look at me. No words were said but I knew what they meant. Piper wanted to leave Jason. For Leo. After at least a year together.

" Come on, you were with Annabeth forever." Piper said. " I'm begging you, Percy. How do I do it?"

We all sat down.

" Well in the three times this had happened to me." I try to help her by telling her my story. " The first time was serious bad timing for it to happen as it was. I wanted to stay but I couldn't, and really just had to tell her that. Haven't seen her since. Doubt I ever will. The second time it happened I was 'with' Annabeth though we really mainly weren't. And I would've left a long time ago if the oracle never came. And the last time it was just all gone. That's it. Had to be honest and broke up with her. Too much guilt in all of it."

" What ones weren't Annabeth?" Leo asked.

" The first two." I said.

" What was the first?" Piper asked.

" You don't want to know." I was honest with them.

" Yeah, I do." Leo corrects me. " Who was she, Percy? Was it Thalia? Is that why she joined the hunt?"

" No, and seriously?" I asked. " What the Hades."

" Tell us." Piper begs me. " I'll tell Nico you killed Hazel if you don't."

" It's already bad enough between us!" I said.

" Speak now or forever hold you peace." Leo just had to. And I got it out.

" Calypso." I said and Leo looks at me like 'oh.'

" What?" I asked Leo. " Why are you looking at me like that?"

" I met her in the war." Leo said. " She mentioned you."

" Oh." I said. " Fuck. She remembers me."

" What did you do to her?" Piper asked me.

" I didn't anything to her." I said. " It's after those days what I did."

" The war?" Leo guesses.

" No." I said. " Not that."

And here storms in Hazel.

" Perseus Jackson!" Hazel hollered. " What in the hell did you do to my brother!?"

" Nothing." I told Hazel. " He's the one who told me to screw off."

" Wait, what?" The room fell silent after I say that. " Why does he have such a problem with you?"

" Before your time." Was all I told them. " Before the war."

And Hazel is thinking.

" Where's his sister?" Hazel asked and I looked at her, pleading she doesn't explain Bianca. I'd rather die.

The others just looked confused.

" You are his sister, Hazel....." Leo goes with that.

" Yeah, what are you...?" Piper asked.

" His other sister." Hazel explains. " Where is she, Percy?"

Nopenopenopenopenopenope.

No.

" I don't...." I can't say her name.

"Bull." Hazel insisted, suddenly wanting to be an ass. " Where is she?"

" Where is who?" I hear from Jason and we all stare at him as him and Frank walk in. Along with Annabeth and Grover.

" Nico's others sister...?" Piper explained to them, confused.

" Where is she?" Hazel went on, as if that'd help this situation.

" Don't push him, Hazel." Grover stopped the daughter of Pluto. " He doesn't like talking about her. It's his soft subject."

" It's not even his sibling!" Hazel fires up.

" That doesn't mean it can't hurt to talk about!" Annabeth snapped at Hazel. " You don't have any right to know about that anyway, Hazel."

" She's my sister, too." Hazel gets out her knife and I had to sit down before I pass out or something. I didn't feel good. Why didn't I cut later? I should really think this through.

" Then what is her name if she's your sister?" I decide to ask.

" You tell me." Hazel said and I don't know how Jason knew or who told him.

" Bianca." Jason said and the three of us. Annabeth, Grover, and myself just stare. " Bianca Di Angelo was her name."

" How..?"Grover asked and looked at us.

" I haven't spoken her name in years." I promised, knowing one of them would rat me out to Nico.. " Much less... I haven't said a word about it. I swear."

" I almost forgot about what happened after she joined." Annabeth said. " And I never would've if either of them were on board. I'm not that heartless."

" How do you know that name?" I asked Jason and he shrugged.

" A few dreams during the war." Jason said. " Just a guess, really. Funny thing, Nico was happy in those dreams. But then again, he was also like 10."

I wanted to slap him for saying that.

" Anything else useful for Nico?" Piper asked.

" Well he yelled at Percy a lot in the end." Jason said and I wasn't feeling so good all of a sudden. " Percy promised something to Nico but I can't remember what. Why?"

I ran straight for the bathroom. Locking the door behind me and I sat across from the sink and garbage and toilet just in case.

And I heard knocking and I knew I was going to be sick.

" Percy, are you okay in there?" I heard Leo asked and I threw up. Been a while since I've done that. Well, uh, for being sick.

" Percy?" I hear Frank now. Or I think it's Frank. " Are you okay? Do we need to get Will down here?"

That was when I started vomiting and getting a serious headache.

And then Thalia was there. With the others. And I didn't want to deal with any of it. I mean, I never do. But this was just getting worse.

" Who mentioned the dead one?" Thalia sounded mad.

" Your brother." Annabeth said and I heard Thalia slap Jason through me vomiting.

" Ow!" Jason said. " What was that for?"

" You don't mention the passed daughter of Hades around either of Percy or Nico." Thalia said. " Idiot."

" Why?" Hazel asked.

" Because this happens." Thalia answered, suddenly pretty livid. " Nico will break down crying or Percy will get so nervous and self inflicted with it he will start throwing up everything he can and not leave his cabin for a week."

" You say it like it's happened before." Leo points out as I finish throwing up. Feeling like nothing useful.

" Well people are stupid." Thalia said. " Now unless you're Piper or Leo, who were on here for a reason not related or tied to that, leave."

I hear footsteps and it was silent as I lean back against the wall after flushing the toilet full of vomit.

I calmed myself down, washed my face with just water a few times to help that and stepped back out.

" You okay?" Piper asked me.

" Yeah." I said. " It happens. Just a side effect like flashbacks or nightmares."

" Is it the name or the other thing?" Leo asked. " Because if I don't know, I'll be slipping up all the time."

" I'm okay with hearing her name a few times." I said. " The other I'm out right away. But mention her too much and it doesn't end pretty."

" That's actually a good thing to know around both of you." Piper said. " But how accurate were those dreams of his?"

" From what he said." I said. " Accurate as can be."

" Even age and mood?" Leo asked.

" Believe it or not." I told the two. " Even Nico was happy once."

Piper decided to go tell Jason, or really break up with him after that so Leo and myself hung out for a bit. And I asked how exactly that all happened. Piper and him.

He just shrugs.

" We've known each other forever." Leo said. " Just mended into that. Now how did you and Annabeth end up together with parents that hate each other? I've always wanted to know."

" We met when we were twelve." I said. " Friends before I was claimed. Stayed friends and four years later we got together. About a year and a half later that failed."

" How old were you when you started?" Leo asked me. " 10?"

" I was 12." I told Leo.

" OH." He replies to me. " I though you were 16. Or turning 16, anyway like Jason and Piper and me."

" No." I said. " Gods no. Kill myself if I was."

" What?" Leo asked.

" It's a long story be glad you will never be a part of until aftermath." I explain. " Ask Annabeth or Grover."

After maybe an hour Piper got back. She looked pretty happy which was good to see. She reminded me to much of Silena. Same with Leo and... and Beckendorf.

And it kind of just made sense all of we sudden and I look at them standing together and all so saw was them in 4 years. Looking like their siblings. Together and hopefully not dead.

" What?" Piper and Leo asked as I looked at the now official couple.

" Nothing." I said. " You guys just look so much like your siblings it's like holy Hera."

" What one?" Piper asked. " Not all of us have just one."

" Oh, shut up I know." I told them. " They were older than you guys. Charles Beckendorf and then Silena Beauregard. There's an ironic part to it, too."

" What?" Leo asked.

" They were a couple, too." I said. And they realize one thing.

" Were?" They both asked.

" They didn't break up." I reassured them. " They died within the same week."

" Are you sure they are real people?" Leo asked me.

"Yeah." I said. " They were. Beckendorf died on August 11. Silena died on August 17."

" Well who died the next day, then?" Piper asked.

" Really?" I asked. " This is why I don't talk about my 16th birthday. It was not a happy day."

So we all talked for a bit and right before they leave I heard him. His voice. Their voices. All three of them. Luke. Beckendorf. Silena.

" You still refuse to speak of those days?"