The first time I saw him was when I was 10 years old. He and his family had just moved into our neighborhood. His house was just opposite to mine.

I still remember how he looked that day. His eyes were puffy as if he was crying. The corner of his eyes had dry tears. He was standing behind his mother's long legs when his parents came to visit us at the request of my father because his father and my father were colleagues in the same company and best friends. Coincidence, isn't it?

He was two years younger than me, you guys should have seen him that day. He was soo cute.

I still remember the first conversation we had on that day.

*Flashback*

"Son, go near him. You don't want to play with him?" The little boy just stared at me with tears brimming from his eyes.

"No Mom! I want to go home! Our old home! I miss there!" The boy started to cry behind his mother's legs.

I looked at my mom who just smiled at me back and telling me to go and console the crying boy. But, I don't even know his name. Maybe I can ask him, right?

"Annie, just come along with me. My son will talk with him na." My mother said to aunty.

Aunty looked at me and my mother before she smiled and left me and him in the front garden.

I slowly walked to him who was still crying silently.

"Hi, there! Why are you crying? Do you know? Boys don't cry like this. Boys should be strong and adventurous!" I tried to cheer him up.

He looked at me with shining eyes as he rubbed away the traces of his tears from his cheek by the back of his hands.

"Really?" He asked me while tilting his head aside. Soo cute!

I nodded my head and smiled.

"But...but.... I miss my home! I want to stay with grandpa and grandma. I want to play with them and eat blueberries in our garden. I miss my old home. I miss grandma and grandpa." He said as a small sob came out from his mouth.

I don't know why but it really hurts to see him cry.

I went towards him and took his arms and led him to my back yard. He didn't even protest.

I made him sit on the bench near a tree and rushed towards the blueberry tree in our garden and puck a few from it and rushed towards him.

When I came back I saw him looking at the various colored roses in our garden with a small smile on his face. I felt very happy seeing the small smile on his face.

"Hey!" I called out. He looked at me with confusion.

I asked him to give his hands and he complied with confusion. Soon his face glowed like a star seeing the blueberries.

"You have blueberries here?!" He asked with an enthusiastic voice.

I laughed and nodded my head.

"Now don't cry ok? Whenever you want you can have blueberries from here and I promise you that I will request your parents to visit your grandparents every weakened so that you can see them, deal?"

"Deal!!"

I laughed as he started eating the blueberries as if he hadn't eaten anything for a week.

"So, what is your name?" I asked him. I haven't known anything about him yet.

He looked at me with those shiny dark brown eyes and smiled before he answered.

"Sorry I forgot to introduce myself. If mom gets to know that I behaved like that she will scold me. Sorry na, don't tell mom, please?"

"No, I will not tell," I replied with a chuckle to which he nodded happily.

"My name is Kongpob Suttilak and I am 8 years old. I'm studying in grade 3. What about you?" Kongpob asked me.

"My name is Arthit Rojnapath. I am 10 years old and am studying in grade 5." I answered him back.

"Oh, that means I should call you P'Arthit, right?" He asked me with his cute voice. It was soo sweet.

"Yeah" I replied with a chuckle.

*Flashback end*

Those years with him were the best days of my life. It was soo cute to see his childish behaviors, his simple quarrels with his elder sister and me when we tease him. Still after 10 years I still never get bored of that idiot.

But through the last 4 years, I started to have another feeling towards him. I know it might be seen crazy. But it's true.

I love Kongpob.

I don't love him as a friend nor a brother.

I love him as a person, I love him like I want to hold hands with him and kiss him on his pink lips every day I wake up from the morning and when I go to bed at night. I want him as my lover.

But I dare not tell him.

What will happen if he pushes me away in disgust? What will happen if he cut our friendship? I don't want to let him go like that away from me. I don't want him to abandon me.

"P'Arthit! Come on, let's watch Netflix on TV!"

Kongpob's voice brought me back from my thoughts.

Kongpob really changed through these years.

He became tall, just the same height as mine. He was no longer that kid who would look at me by lifting his head up. 

He became more handsome and .... Cute. 

His dark brown eyes always filled with excitement whenever I see him. His eyes would always shine when he concentrates on something. His long face was always decorated with a smile that would make the world shine, even in its darkness. His tanned skin became more smooth and it gave him a different vibrant to his handsomeness.

"P'Arthit?"

I shook my head as I heard me call me again. My cheeks started to burn when I realized I was staring at him the whole time.

"Is something wrong P? You seem different somehow?" He asked with concern evident in his voice.

See, this is my Kongpob. Always concerned for the silly matter.

"No Kong, I am fine. Just a little tired from projects." I replied.

He nodded his head and pulled me up from the sofa to our theatre room.

"Which movie you want to watch P'Arthit?" Kongpob asked excitedly as he searched for the movies.

"Choose your favorite Kong." I dismissed him with the offer. He looked at me and smiled widely.

"Then, can we watch this movie? Please?" Kongpob looked at me with those puppy eyes that shut my mouth up from saying 'no'.

"But Kong it's a romantic movie! You know I don't like those genres." I said as I looked at the movie he picked.

Kong was always a person who liked romantic movies and animation, not like me who liked science-fiction and drama.

"Please...please...please, P'Arthit! Please??" Kongpob started to shake my arm with his pouted lips and puppy eyes looking at me.

I looked at his lips which I just want to kiss senselessly but I can't do that. My face started to turn red just at its thought.

"Ok! Ok! Go and keep the movie!" I shooed him away. He jumped like a kid before he went to fix the movie and taking the popcorn ball and giving it to me.

Just after a few minutes, the movie started and we both started to watch it. But my concentration was not on the TV, it was on Kong.

I still remember how the beginning of this year I and Kong had a major fight because of one of the decisions Kong had taken.

After my graduation from high school, I joined the engineering college as being an engineer was my dream. I wanted to make robots and many other things, those were my missions. And I have told it to Kong too. I and Kongpob never had any secrets between each other, we were best friends, even though he was 2 years younger than me. I only have one secret I have with me that is I am in love with him.

Kongpob had always told me that he wanted to study economics, it was his dream! But you can't believe want he did after he graduated from high school.

He fucking joined in the college of engineering! Not any other college, but the same college as me!

The first time I came to know about it was when the freshman year started and I was the head hazer of SOTUS system as a third-year senior. He stood up against my orders on the first day. It was then only I got to know he joined my college.

I was so mad at him. I know that his dream was to study economics but he chose engineering. There would have been students who was dreaming to study here and just because of his stubbornness they lost the chance to study here. I thought he chose it because he wanted to see me and study along with me.

After classes, I went to meet him and asked him why he joined here as my anger was boiling. I asked him why he didn't choose economics. But the answer he gave me somehow hurt me.

"P I'm sorry I didn't tell you na. You know Mom and Dad want me to take over their company as I'm the only boy child in the family. So, they pressured me to take this course P'Arthit. Since you are also here I thought it might be okay, you will help me to study. But don't worry about my dream P! I made a deal with Dad and Mom that after I finish this course, I will study economics as my dream! And they agreed! Now please don't be mad at me na P!"

I just smiled at him hearing his answer and we walked to our dorm.

But somehow his answer made me hurt. I thought he came to study here was because of me but turns out it was because of his family.

Kongpob's dorm was just opposite to mine to its coincidence. Even he didn't know that his dorm was opposite to mine. I and Kongpob would most of the time sleepover at each other's dorm and it became a routine for us. I even ditched my friends for him.

Just a few months later I muster up my courage and asked Kongpob if I and hi could live in a small apartment near our university so that we don't need to bother going to each other's dorm every time. To my surprise, he agreed to it with a wide smile on his face.

I turned to my left and saw Kongpob's eyes were becoming misty with tears threatening to fall. I turned towards the TV to see the actor breaking up with his girlfriend and leaving her with tears.

I only shook my head seeing Kongpob wiping his tears which fell from his eyes. He had always been a softie when it came to romantic movies. He would cry even the couple breakup and also if the boy will prose to his girlfriend. But the tears that fall from will have two different meanings.

I took the tissue from the table hand handed it to Kong.

"Here you go softie," I teased him.

He looked at me with pouted lips but still took the tissue to wipe his tears and blow his nose.

" Don't tease me like that na P! I still know that you are scared of ghosts, ok P'Arthit? Last time we saw a horror movie, you even asked me to guard outside the bathroom." Kongpob said with a smirk on his teary face.

"You little shit!" I cursed and pounced upon him.

I started to tickle him on the sides on his stomach and his beautiful laughter-filled inside the room and it was like a melody to my ears.

I started to tickle him in every corner I could reach, Kongpob was a person who was ticklish. Very ticklish.

"P...haha...P'Ar...haha...Arthit...haha...Stop!! Haha!! Stop P!!" Kongpob tried to push my hands away. His tears were now falling because of laughing so much.

Kong tried to push my hands away but then I held both of them in my hand and pressed on the cushion which was just above his head. He looked at me without stopping his laughter.

I don't know what got into me that moment. Seeing his face so near to mine made my heart beat fast and there were butterflies in my stomach.

Automatically my face started to get closer to him and his laughter also slowly subsided.

His shining eyes looked straight into mine. It was like I was being drawn towards his eyes. Those eyes which were always filled with happiness and excitement. Those eyes which shed tears when I was in the hospital last month because of high fever. Those eyes always looked at me with care whenever I was unwell. Those were the eyes which always sprinkled with mischief when he pulls a prank on me.

Without me realizing our faces were just an inch apart. I could feel his hot breath against my lips. Only the sound from the movie and the air conditioner was heard in the room. I don't know whether if it's because the air conditioner is not working, my face started to sweat and I felt....hot.

I slowly tilted my head to the right side and moved forward to capture those pink lips that were inviting me.

Our lips were just a centimeter apart when the realization hit me.

I released his hands from my grasp and stood up quickly, the shock was evident on his face.

I gulped with nervousness.

"I....I...um...I am going to sleep. I... I... have classes tomorrow." I shudder before I spirited to my room which was just beside his, leaving an utterly shocked Kongpob back in the theatre room.

I locked my room and sat on the floor leaning my back on the door.

"Shit! Shit!" I started to hit myself with my hands.

I don't know how to face Kongpob now! I almost kissed him! FUCKING KISSED!!

Oh My God! My heart is beating so fast, it can pop out any second. I can't meet him again. I can't.

What will he think of me! His best friend tried to kiss him!

He will think I might be disgusting! He will think I am a freak!

So many what-ifs came into my mind as I thought about our almost kiss scene.

I don't know when but, with tears in my eyes, I slept on the floor.

*************

*Knock* *Knock*

"P'Arthit! Wake up! You need to go to class!"

My eyes shot up hearing his voice.

I stood up from the floor and stretched my sore muscles. I looked around the room with confusion to why I slept on the floor.

It was then flashes of last night's incident came into my mind.

My face started to turn red with embarrassment and I could feel it. I looked around for my phone but I couldn't find it.

"P'Arthit? Are you up? Please open the door na P." Kongpob called out for me, but I didn't have the courage to see him.

"P'Arthit? Wake up!" Now he started to bang on my door.

I let out a frustrated groan before I opened the door.

"What?" I screamed at him. But my heart skipped seeing his eyes filled with hurt.

I rarely shouted at him. 

I was never a morning person and Kong was the one who woke me up at every morning as he was an early riser. But whenever he woke me up, sure I shout at him for giving me 5 more minutes but not like now. Somehow when I shouted at him his eyes made me regret my choice.

"Sorry P, but you have to go to class early today. P'Knott had called you on phone telling to come for the hazing meeting that the hazers have. You left your phone in the theatre room P." He said as he handed my phone to me.

Before he could say anything else I thanked him and closed a door.

My mind was filled with the view of Kongpob's eyes which was filled with pain. 

Soon my eyes started to become misty.

*************

"AI'ARTHIT!!!"

I covered my ears because of the scream.

I glared at Bright who was looking at me with a smug look on his face.

"Care to explain what you were daydreaming my dear friend?" Tootah asked me with a smirk on his face.

"Fuck off!" I screamed at them as I took the pencil beside me to hit on their heads.

Knott and Pream on the other hand only chuckled seeing my behavior.

Our hazing meeting was over and I and my four friends were at the canteen for eating our breakfast along with revising our test we have in the afternoon.

I dozed off in the middle, thinking about my crush who I tried my best to avoid.

Today we had no hazing meeting for the first years and I was thankful to God for that. But God made ems suffer more by bringing Kongpob everywhere where I am.

He even tried to approach me but I ignored him telling I was busy. I hurt I saw in his eyes made my heart clench but it was for the better.

"Ai'Arthit? Are you okay man? You look....pathetic." Knott, who always had understood me even in my slightest change in mood, asked me.

I only smiled at him softly and told him I was fine.

"You don't look good at all man! You have been all grumpy from the time you were with us in the meeting." Pream started to join the conversation.

"No need to worry guys. I just didn't get enough sleep." I lied to them.

Bright and Tootah looked at me with their eyebrows raised but didn't comment.

"P'Arthit..."

My body stiffed when I heard that voice.

I closed my eyes and tried my best to think it was a dream but I was just mere truth at the end.

"Ai'Arthit! Your best friend and your favorite junior are here! He is talking to you!" Tootah said as he nudged my shoulder.

I took a deep breath and looked at Kongpob's brown eyes.

"What do you want Kong?" I asked him with irritation evident in my voice.

I heard gasps from my friends when they heard me say.

Well, I am not surprised by hearing it. My friends know about mine and Kongpob's friendship. They know that we both are like cake and its frosting, inseparable.

Whenever Kongpob approached me I always greeted him with a smile and would always ask him to accompany me and my friends. I never hated his presence near me.

So, it didn't come to a surprise to me seeing my friend's reaction, moreover, Kongpob's reaction.

I saw him hesitate for a second before he opened his mouth to say the words which made my heart beat fast.

"P'Arthit? Are you trying to ignore me?" Kongpob asked me in front of my friends who were looking at me and him with pure confusion.

"Me? Uhh...No...No I am not. Why Kong?" I tried my best to act cool in front of him.

His eyebrows raised up in doubt.

"You are clearly ignoring me P. Is...Is it about last night? It is, Right?" His words brought back the memories of yesterday night into me.

I looked over ta my friends who were trying to ask me what happened the last night.

I grabbed Kongpob's hands and pulled him along with me to the isolated area of the school garden.

I released his hand and looked at the ground as if it was the most interesting thing have ever seen.

"P'Arthit?" Kongpob called me.

I gave him a vague hum in reply.

"P'Arthit, tell me! Why are you ignoring me? Is it about last night? Please talk to me P? Yes or No? P'Arthit?"

"YES!" I barked at him back as I looked up.

He backed off a little at my outburst.

He sighed before to ask me again.

"What did you try to do yesterday? I could merely understand. Were you trying to kiss me?" Kongpob asked me and my eyes widened.

I sighed. I don't think I can push back my feeling now. I have to let it go. I don't think I can keep it as a secret anymore.

"Yes," I replied to him looking at his eyes.

'Why?" That was his only question.

"BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU KONG!!" I screamed at him.

I gripped my hair back in frustration.

"I love you Kong, I love you! I have loved you ever since 3 years. I don't know when it started. Maybe even before I realized it. You are everything to me Kong. I love you so much that it started to hurt me without saying it out to you." Drops of tears started to flow from my eyes as I spoke to him.

"Why didn't you tell me P?" He asked me with pure innocence in his voice. His eyes were glimmering as the sunlight reflected his eye color.

"Because...because...I was afraid." My head hung low, I found the grass beneath me more interesting than ever.

" I was afraid you would disown me. I was afraid you would reject me Kong. I was afraid you would look at me with disgust in your eyes. Moreover, I am afraid we will lose what we have now. I am afraid if our friendship will break and you will move away from me. I know we both are men, but I can't help falling in love with you Kong. I' sorry Kong, I'm sorry. I love you so much Kong, I love you so much." I started to cry. I even didn't have the courage to look at him in his eyes.

There was a long silence between us. Only the sound of the cold breeze was heard.

"I love you too, P'Arthit"

My eyes shot up as I heard the words from Kongpob.

"What?" I asked him again to make sure I wasn't in dreamland and I was not hearing things.

A small chuckle escaped from his mouth.

"I said... I.love.you," He confessed to me with a hint of blush creeping to his face.

"But...how?" I still couldn't believe what I was hearing. The love I had for him was being reciprocated to me and I couldn't ask for more.

"Why do you think I chose engineering leaving my dream for economics, P? Sure, my parents had a part in it but, all above that, my reason was P'Arthit. I don't know when my feelings for you started P. But I realized it when I was in 10th grade. Well since then I hid it from you. I was afraid too P'Arthit. I was afraid if you would leave me and find me disgusting. I didn't want the bond we had to break. I love you so much P'Arthit and it will never decrease."

His confession made me feel like I am on the moon. He was loving me for 8 fucking years and he kept it hidden from me! He loved me even before I realized my feelings! I can't believe it. It is all like a dream for me.

"Is this a dream?" I heard pure laughter from him hearing my question.

"If you want I can pinch you P." He said and I chuckled.

Slowly I moved forward towards him. His eyes looking straight at me with lots and lots of love that I failed to notice.

I held his chin when I stood in front of him.

Slowly I decreased the space in between us.

I felt as if the time stopped when my lips met his soft pink ones. I sucked his bottom lip as I moved my hands on his chin to his cheeks, holding those soft cheeks in my arm.

The most wonderful feeling was that he reciprocated my kiss. His hands were resting on my shoulder and his beautiful lips sucking my lips with love and care.

We pulled back hesitated, as we needed air to breathe. I looked at his blushing face and smiled, m face was no better, it was burning.

"I waited just to kiss you for so long," I said to him, to which he smiled widely at me.

He pecked my lips quickly and hugged me tightly.

"Me too." He replied.

I hugged him back and we were in our own little world, until, we heard loud screaming from the side.

I and Kongpob soon pulled away and saw that our friends were looking at us with a smirk on their faces and wide smiles.

"I never thought you are this bold to kiss your junior Ai'Arthit!!! I am so proud of you man!!" Bright screamed towards us.

I glared at him and looked at Kongpob who laughed. Just seeing his brought butterflies in my stomach. A small smile formed on my lips without me noticing it, but it soon changed when I heard Bright and Tootah screaming.

"AI'ARTHIT AND N'KONG ARE A COUPLE!! EVERYONE LISTEN!! THE PINK MILK MONSTER AND HIS 0062 ARE A COUPLE!!"

I looked over at my new boyfriend whose face was turning chrisom red but still had that beautiful smile on his face.

"Kongpob, I think I have to deal with someone," I said to which he nodded while laughing so hard when I rushed towards Bright and Tootah with a stick on my hand that I got from the ground.

"AI'ARTHIT!!! STOPP!!! I'M SORRY!!!" They both screamed

"I'M GOING TO KILL YOU AI'BRIGHT!!!" I yelled back at them. All the students were looking at and laughing.

"Ai'Arthit wait a minute!" Tootah said as he held his hands up motioning me to stop on my tracks.

I stopped and looked at them. "What?!"

Bright and Tootah looked at each other and a mischievous smile decorated their face.

"CONGRATULATIONS!!"

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