23.11.2018

Singto sighed as he leaned his head against the bed's headboard. The phone in his hand echoing the sound of his and Krist's voice. It was Ourskyy's last episode, Arthit and Kongpob's episode.

Singto looked ou of the window, it's pitch black outside, it's quite late still he's awake.  Unable to sleep with the emotions that flood in his heart. It's been already more than 10 times he had been re-watching Arthit's and Kongpob's story.

Singto closed his eyes and took a deep breath. The last episode of OurSkky had just released four days back and all the fans are still tagging him and Krist with the episode's shots. Each time he sees the picture of him and Krist, no, Arthit and Kongpob kissing at the airport his heart beats fast. The feeling inside him started to grow day by day. After the shooting of OurSkky, his mind is not at all stable. There is this constant pull he feels towards his beloved nong but he couldn't grasp what it was. Or rather, he didn't want to agree with what he was feeling.

Singto's thoughts were broken when his phone started to ring. Singto sighed hearing the ringtone, the ringtone he had only set up for that one special person.

Singto took the phone and swiped it before he placed it on his ear.

"Hello, Kit? Why are you up? It's pretty much late now," Singto's voice was concerned. Of course, his nong doesn't usually sleep early but since he's quite busy with his schedule and constantly working, Singto couldn't help but feel worried about Krist.

"Oh P, why are you always nagging at me?" Krist said through the other side.

Singto chuckled as the image of a pouting Krist came to his mind.

"Whatever, why did you call?" Singto asked.

There was a moment of silence from the other end and Singto himself doubted whether the call was cut but it wasn't.

"P, I want to tell you something," came a low voice from the other end.

Singto's eyebrows knitted, his face expressed worry for his nong.

"Kit, you know that you can tell me anything. What's the matter, N'Kit?" Singto waited for a reply. He heard a sigh from the other end.

"You will be free on Christmas right? Like we do every year?" Krist's voice was filled with nervousness and worry.

Singto sighed. He doesn't know what is bothering his nong now. The latter had been soo cautious nowadays and he seems to overthink what he is going to tell to Singto and the elder couldn't help but think there is something bothering Krist, because Krist is usually a carefree person, cheerful and playful and lively. He never overthinks about anything before he speaks up.

"Of course, Kit. We always spend Christmas night together since we started shooting SOTUS. I'll never change that Krist. The morning I'll go to meet dad, then I'll come to your apartment at night," Singto smiled through the phone.

"Hmm...P...can we stay at your apartment? Please?" Krist's whiny voice filled Singto's ears making his heartbeat abnormal, it's always like this. Krist knows that his whiny voice is Singto's weakness.

"Okay, I don't have any problem. But, we usually celebrate it in your room right? Why change do sudden?" Singto asked curiously.

"Who doesn't like a change?" Krist said playfully.

Singto's heartbeat raced fast hearing the younger's words. It's as if he read his mind. Krist's words made Singto's eyes misty unknowingly. Singto was shocked when his eyes were wet, he didn't even realize he was shedding tears.

"Ok, ok. Now go to sleep, I've to get up early tomorrow." Singto excused.

"Ok! Bye Singtuan!" Krist said before he cut the call.

Singto sighed as he tossed his phone on the bed. The room was dark and the only light was from his phone and from the window.

Day after tomorrow is Christmas and somehow Singto felt as if it would be his last Christmas to celebrate with his nong. Memories of their happy moments played in his mind.

He didn't want this to happen, yet it happened. He didn't want to ruin his nong's career even if he is gone. He didn't want to be the reason Krist regrets one day.

Singto covered his eyes with his hands, silent tears rolling down his cheeks.

*****

24.12.2018

Singto threw his bag on the couch. He was exhausted. P'Jane had just dropped him back to his apartment after his small gathering with the fans. Since tomorrow was Christmas he decided to meet his fans to wish advance merry Christmas. Singto checked his watch, it was going to be 11 pm already.

Singto took out his phone from his pocket and opened the contacts. His fingers automatically moved towards his nong's number.

Singto halted before clicking the number.

'He might be with his fans. He might be tired. No need to bother him more, anyway I'll see him tomorrow.'

Singto sighed in exhaustion before he placed the phone back on the table.

Singto moved to his room and decided to take a shower. He stripped down his clothes, tossing them to the laundry basket before he took the towel and walked into the bathroom.

He soaked himself in the hot water that springs down the shower. The water pours down, it drips by his side, as his mind fades into dullness and everything turns into a foggy illusion. The sensation of the steamy water calms his overthinking mins, it takes his mind off things. Yet the same image of that beautiful and handsome, fair-complexioned man's figure appears in his mind.

Singto shakes his head trying to get the thought that brought pain to his heart away, but it was of no use. He couldn't get that image away from his mind, that cheerful smile, those pouting lips, those angry eyes which directed towards him when they fight over things. All were special to him.

Singto let the look warm water string down his thoughts. He doesn't know how much time he has been standing in the shower but the ring of the doorbell disturbed his internal turmoil.

Singto turned the shower off and wrapped the towel around his waist before he stepped out of the shower, water still dripping through his hair and body.

The doorbell started to ring continuously as Singto stepped out of the bathroom, trying to find an outfit to wear.

"COMING!" Singto shouted.

Who could it be at this hour? It's almost 11:30.

Singto thought as he put on a black tank top and a black trouser, his towel around his neck as he rushes towards the door.

Singto opened the door with an annoyed face thinking it might be P'Jane. Who else would come at this late hour?

Singto's eyes widened when he saw the man infront of him.

"Kit..." The voice escaped from his mouth.

"Singtuan!" Krist pounced on to his senior taking him in a bone-crushing hug making Singto stumble back.

"Singtuan! I missed you so much! I couldn't wait till tomorrow to meet you, Singtuan! Singtuan, don't this name ring good with my voice?" Krist asked with a laugh as he tightened his hands around Singto's shoulder.

Singto rubbed his nose as a striking smell hit him. Singto shook his head seeing his junior's condition.

"Krist, are you drunk?" Singto asked as he tried to pull away from his nong but the grip was too strong.

"How couldn't I?! My darling P was away from me for a whole month and I should be happy with it? Do you know how much I missed you, my love?" Krist planted a kiss on Singto's neck.

Singto's eyes widened at Krist's remark. The kiss sends shivers down his spine. He knew that Krist was drunk so he shouldn't take the latter's words seriously. But he wished it was true about what he was thinking at the moment.

"Krist, you're drunk. Come on, I'll get you some water," Singto touched Krist's ears making the latter push the elder away as he rubbed his ears with a glare directed at his P.

Singto smiled apologetically at Krist, he knew Krist's ears were sensitive and at this stage, it was the only idea that popped in his mind to release himself from his junior's bear tight hug.

Singto locked the door and dragged Krist to the kitchen making the latter sat down on the chair before he took a glass and poured water into the glass.

"Singto, you look soo beautiful and handsome," Krist said as he watched his P pouring water into the glass.

Singto looked at Krist and rolled his eyes.

This kid!

"Krist, drink this."

Krist looked at the glass of water and at the man who held it.

Singto's nerves tensed up when he saw some unknown emotions flood up in Krist's eyes. Those eyes were screaming for attention, Krist looked as if he was trying to catch something that he had been longing to have.

"Krist?" Singto patted on the younger's shoulder making the latter shake his head.

Krist took the water from Singto and drank it in one gulp.

Singto sat down opposite to Krist, taking the towel around his neck to rub in his hair to dry it, it was still dripping water drops.

"Now tell me, what is the reason for you to get drunk? Did something happen?" Singto asked, still busy in drying his hair.

Singto knows that Krist doesn't get drunk so easily like him. Krist has more alcohol capacity, even if he drinks two bottles full he would still stand and talk like a normal person. So if he gets drunk that means there's something serious. He might have drunk a lot.

"There is something wrong, P'Sing and I have been trying to hide it from everyone! Even from you! But I can't anymore P! No more! Not after I understood what this feeling is!" Krist said as he kicked his eyes with Singto.

Singto's breath hitched. He removed the towel that was covering his eyes and placed it neatly on the chair beside him.

"What do you mean Krist?" Singto asked confused. He has never seemed Krist soo helpless and confused and....scared. Not even when he had to ride a roller coaster.

"I'm in love P. I'm in love," Krist said, his eyes still not leaving his P's.

Singto chocked on his own saliva. He could hear the clinging sound of his own heartbreaking into pieces like a glass thrown on the floor.

"Oh...re... really? Wh...who...who is...it?" Singto mentally slapped himself for the shuttering.

Krist was silent for a minute, his eyes traveling on Singto. Observing the various emotions that flooded the elder's face before he nodded his head.

"The person is very beautiful, charming, enchanting. The person never fails to flutter my heart. Just the mere voice of the person sends shivers down my spine. I don't know how long I have been in love with that person but in these few months, I got to know what I was feeling, till then I was in a daze. Trying to move it aside just like a mere infatuation. But it's not P, that person means a lot to me. I'm afraid that person doesn't love me back," Krist said as a drop of a tear slide down his cheeks.

Singto P's eyes glimmered with tears which he tried hard not to fall. His chest ached to hear Krist's words.

His nong was in love. And just by seeing him Singto understood the man was deeply in love with the person. His faced flooded with various emotions, hurt, pain, regret, love, jealousy, everything.

"You...you must be really in love. That person is very lucky to have you. Who is she?" Singto asked with a. The smile that didn't reach his eyes.

Krist stood up absurdly and lifted the chair he sat on a second ago and threw it on the floor making a loud bang sound.

Singto's eyes popped out at the action, he stood up quickly.

"Krist!" He shouted.

Singto gasped when the latter glared at him with tears threatening to fall from his eyes.

"What do you think of me P'Singto!? Do you think I'll betray you!? Do you think my love for you is nothing!? You're saying I love some other fucking girl!" Krist shouted.

"Krist! Watch your language!" Singto spoke in a stern yet calm voice.

"Oh, just shut up! Fuck up with this! I'm talking about my love for you and you're scolding me for my language! Wow! Bravo P! Bravo!" Krist clapped his hands sarcastically.

Singto's jaw dropped as Krist's words registered into his brain.

"You...you...love...me? This much time you said about me?" Singto asked as he pointed at himself.

"Then who else P!? You don't know a fuck about how much I love! I love you so much P! The thought of my feelings not being reciprocated made me go mad! I thought I'll loose you one day! Please, P'Singto! Please love me! I'll do anything for you to love me! I love you so much P'Sing and cannot live without you," Krist started to cry as his knees gave up.

Singto rushed to Krist's side holding him against his shoulders. The sight of Krist crying broke his heart, at the same time his heart filled with joy as he heard Krist's words.

Krist lives me!? Krist loves me! My love wasn't one-sided! But...

Singto felt a bitter taste in his mouth at the thought

What if it's all because he's drunk? He'll regret it when he wakes up.

"P'Singto please don't leave me. I love you, please be my lover Singtuan."

Krist placed his hand on Singto's cheeks and caressed them, his eyes threatening to close but he didn't let it. He wanted to see his P's flawless face.

"I love you too, Krist and whatever it is I'll never leave you."

A smile engraved on Krist's lips as he heard his P's reply. That was the last thing he heard, his P's face was the last thing he saw before darkness took over him.

********

Krist groaned as he clutched onto his head. A throbbing pain flowing through his forehead.

Krist shook his head, his eyes fluttering as he adjusted to the light coming through the window. Krist looked around at the room, soon recognizing it wasn't his. He sat up straight on the bed, groaning as the headache came back.

Krist sighed in relief as he took his surroundings, the room which was way too familiar to him. Soon memories of the past night flashed through his eyes.

Krist's heartbeat rosed, his cheeks turned into a shade of red as he bit his lower lip. He slapped himself for what he had done, he could have ruined their friendship. But...

"I love you too, Krist and whatever it is I'll never leave you."

Those words from the person who means the world to him made him happy for what he has done.

He was too thinking of how much he loved his P. Thinking about his love not being reciprocated made his mind turn wild. Not able to hold the person's hand which he loves more than his own life not as lovers broke his heart.

He believed it was only him who lived the elder man. He believed he was the only one who fell in love with his co-actor.

He wanted to tell to the world that he loved Singto Prachaya, at least he wanted to tell to the said person about how much he loved him but the thought of not being fool infront of the elder and not receiving the love back made his heart in a mess.

All the situations of what-ifs crossed his mind halting his steps. That's why he went to drink, to drink to a content that he would able to forget the man.

But it only got worse. As he took down each bottle of alcohol the face of the man he loved appeared before him. Those enchanting smile, his lean figure, those calm composure, that caring nature, everything about the man who made him fall for him more and more.

That's when the wish to see the man brought up in his mind. He asked his friend who tried to stop him from drinking any further to drop him at the said address, which was his Singtuan's apartment.

Krist knew that it was pretty late but he wanted to see his crush. He didn't mean to disclose his love for the guy and expect his feelings to be reciprocated.

A small smile appeared on his face thinking how their relationship status has changed now.

Krist moved out of the bed, he noticed that his clothes were changed into more comfortable ones. He looked at the study table and saw his outfit of the previous night neatly placed on it. Krist took the outfit and smelled it, as he thought, his P'Singto and washed it.

Krist placed the cloth back on the table and stumbled towards the living room. He looked around for that one person, the person who he had confessed to.

Krist's eyes caught a figure at the balcony drinking coffee.

Krist took a deep breath, his ears turning red as he walked to the balcony. He saw how Singto flinched at the sound of the glass door sliding but soon relax.

"How's your headache?" Singto asked, still not turning to his junior. His eyes fixed on the view of the city. It was already 9 in the morning and the city was filled with people bustling around. After all it was a day to celebrate.

"It's okay, I guess," Krist said as he walked to his P's side and stood with his hands placed on the railing.

"P'Singto...I..."

Singto raised his hand, he turned towards Krist. Krist's heart skipped a beat thinking his heart was going to break soon.

"Just tell me one thing Krist, do you really mean what you said yesterday? Do you really mean that you are in love with...me?" Singto's eyes fixed on his nong's Balck ones.

Krist took a deep breath, clearing his throat.

"Even if I'm drunk or not, I'm always serious about you P,  about us. Yes, it's true, I love you. I've been in love with for the past whole years but I still couldn't name that feeling back then. But after the shooting of OurSkky, I made sure what this feeling was. That it was love, to the person who I live the most in my life. The person who brought me up as the person who I'm now in my career. Without Singto I'm nothing and without Krist, Singto is nothing. It is always the same P'Sing."

Singto started into Krist's eyes, trying to find any mischief or silliness behind those words but he found none. Instead, it was filled with pain, love, and care.

A small smile bloomed on Singto's face.

"I love you too Krist, for a long time I've been in love with you. I was afraid of your reply, I was afraid that if the public comes to know about it your career, I...I don't want to ruin you Krist, I...."

Singto's eyes widened when a pair of lips slammed onto his.

Soon he closed his eyes and kissed the latter back. Nibbling on to each other's lips, a small moan came out from both the young men's lips. Their tongues swirling around in each other's mouth.

The two parted of breathless.

"Whatever it is P, we'll face it together. Let others think whatever it is. I love you and you love me, that's all I want P," Krist smiled widely at Singto.

Singto smiled back, he placed his hand on Krist's hand.

"So, can I ask you a question officially?" Singto asked with a sly smirk on his face which made Krist laugh as he nodded.

"So, will you Krist Perawat be my boyfriend?" Singto asked.

Krist placed a peck on his P's lips before he nodded his head.

"Yes! It's always a yes!" Krist jumped in joy. Singto chuckled seeing his nong's face light up like a candle in the dark.

Singto cupped Krist's face in his hand and caressed those soft cheeks, smiling as he stared into his lover's eyes with so much love and admiration.

"Merry Christmas love," Singto wished his lover.

Krist smiled, he totally forgot that it was Christmas.

"Merry Christmas Singtuan," Krist hugged his P.

"Christmas will always be a special day for us," Singto mumbled into his lover's ears.

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Happy Christmas Eve to everyone!
Hope you like the chapter!
There is one more chapter for this short story and that will be a Christmas present from my side to all of you!

Hope you guys enjoyed!♥️