I don't know why.....my confidence took one huge spiral downwards. I'm not even sure if I'm gonna dress up for future career day tomorrow anymore......I just feel like nothings going to get better.......I haven't heard from gattino in hours. I'm getting sick......I'm really thinking about not doing it tomorrow. I'm afraid I'm gonna get laughed at for my dream. I'm afraid people are gonna think I'm ugly. I'm afraid I'm going to fail......like normal.......I can't dance to save my damn life. I can barely sing in my own opinion. I know most don't think that but I do. I don't want to be me anymore.........I just want to be the nobody I was 6 years ago. Never moved. Hated. Used. Just the old me. I don't want to be this new person anymore. I don't want to be. I don't.........