This is how I feel like this most the time anymore....... I can't help it though. My mom had the perfect child with my sister and brother.. I'm just the mess up..... she's proud of my accomplishments.... she supports me but I'm always doing something wrong in her eyes... some people don't even like me.... guess I really am cheap trash...... that girl was right...... thank you Miss. Ryan for making me self-conscious.....and for making me believe it...