Ever had that feeling were you like someone but don't do nothing about it because you know you're gonna mess it up?....or you have that little voice in the back of your head telling you they're not gonna like you back.

yea that's me

"Laura hurry we're gonna be late!" Trishaun screamed at me from my bedroom as i showered. my muscles ached from a long run with ross this morning. i felt like i was falling to pieces.

"Shut up idiot!" i shouted back as i turned off the water. 

i wrapped a towel around me and limped out of the bathroom. trishaun was sprawled on my bed with a bunch of my clothes on top of her. she quickly stood up upon my appearance

her face stretching into A grin

"I'm dressing you."

"Funny." i snorted as i moved

"pretty please, i swear i will not bug, or buy you any cute clothes for the rest of this week. carla too" she said

i immediately stopped and turned to her.

Carla and trishaun had a habit of buying me clothes i never wear.

 "Ayeee,you like?" ask asked wiggling her eyebrowsrealizing she got my attention.

"For a whole week?" i asked

you maybe saying so what? it's just a week

but you'd be surprise what she and Carla can do in a week.

black and white Adidas

black ripped to the knee jeans and camouflage jacket

White t-shirt

she fixed my hair into two buns then spinned me around to face the mirror.

"You like?" she asked wiggling her eyebrows 

"No." i deadpanned

"Two bad." She said pulling me off the chair she scanned me and smirk. "You look hot."

"Come on we'll be double late." she said

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"You look pretty." I said as we ma our way to school.

things were oddly quiet between us, only because Trishaun seemed to be steering a storm in her head

she shaked her head and turned to me quickly licking her lips then turning back on the road.

"A..am i a bad bestfriend, as in do you really trus me to tell me stuff,do you feel offended or anything when i tell you stuff, ?" she asked me really fast but stuttering sometimes.

"What?" i asked dumbly

"Look laura, i want you to know that i really love you, you're the sister i had."she said

"Same." i replied eyebrows frowed

"Laura, i know i hardly comment on your weight, cause i always thought that you didn't care, or that you were cool with it, and in truth i always avoided talking about it, but every sinc this whole thing with Ross, it has been bugging me. Any way i guess what i am really, really truly trying to say is... I know you're getting frustrated and tired but truly you are getting somewhere, and you're so beautiful. never think or believe otherwise." She said softly. she had parked the car.

"You know i love you right." I told her sniffling  A little as a tear escaped

"I Love you more baby girl." she said hugging me a little.

"Now step on it  we're gonna be triple late.

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by the time we got to school first period had just finished and we shuffled our selves to class, parting with a kiss on the checks and her screaming my name as she ran down the hall.

walking into Geography class.i wasn't late for it but their was A bunch of kids already sitted.

when i walked in everyone turned to look at me.

some faces were shocked, some jealous, and some ....well expressionless.

i quickly made my way to the back of the class and sat next to a boy who had his head on the desk.

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by lunch time almost the whole school was looking at me, i didn't know if it was something good or bad, if i wanted it or not.

i walked into the cafeteria, quickly took my lunch........well as quick as possible and found A sit.

A movement behind me mad me turn around.

i was met with the body of ross lynch he sat next to me andplaced his head on the table.

he peeped at me once, twice trice. then he giggled a little and lifted his head, making me giggle with him.

when i really looked at him i immediatly knew something was wrong

his eyes were red and swelled, not been in a fight swelled, but sicky swelled.

his face a little puffy, he was still handsome but it a childish way.

I placed my hands on his forehead and immediately flinched back.

"My god ross you're hot." I said eyes wide, as i slowly moved to feel his troat.

"Why thank you peony, you look smashing today, truly i do like your still.you look hot." He said smirking at me looking me up and down.

  i turned red.  

but in truth he did look hot today too

does he ever not

what you watch ross?

shit up

stupid ross

"Shut up, ross you have a temperature, you shouldn't be in school come on,let's go."

I got up and grabbed his hand.

it was hot.

"where are we going?"he asked his movements were slow 

poor thing

"Your house." i said as we walked down the hall way

trishaun walked up to us.

"I'll call you i'm busy i gotta get ross home." i said 

"oh Cool. you guys look hot together." she said snapping a picture of us.

"I know right." he said making her laugh.

"i'll text you." I said

as i pulled ross along.

"Peony, my home? i didn't know you were that type of girl."