As i sat in ross's car arms on my chest as i glared at him and Trishaun talking through the windshield. 

i had calmed down and we were going back to school, but decided to stop and buy something to eat.

i saw Trishaun go back into the store and ross walked towards the car.

he came in and din't say a word just looked at me like he was thinking hard.

"Ross can i ask you a favor." after 5 minutes i finally decided that i was going to ask him what was on my mind.

"sure whats up?" he said turning around to look at me.

"can you...just never mind it was stupid." i said changing my mind at the last minute i saw ross scrunch his face. "come on laur if somethings bugging you just say it you can trust me." he wasn't his usual funny self instead he was serious and thinking.

"um so lt's say i asked you to help me lose A few pounds would you do it?" ross was A jock and was always exercising ,i hoped he could help.

he took a few seconds before he answered staring at me,which made me regret my question. "you know what never mi-" "yep."he answered

"w-what?"

"yea but i gotta ask,why do you want to lose weight, i think you're pretty awesome the way you are." he said looking at me in my eyes he hadn't once smile.

exhaling i looked outside where was trishaun. "You wouldn't understand ross, it's easy for you to say that,for people o say you should be comfortable with yourself,but the truth is i'm not, no one fat is, must of the time people that say that aren't even fat,they can just talk they don't really know how we feel,they don't have to suffer from looking at other people and wishing they were that size,or having to suffer from being insecure, they don't know what it feels like because it's not them, it's easy for them to talk,but they don't really know how we are feeling in our alone time,We question our sleves wondering everyday am I beautiful, if i fall in love will this person love me for who i am, will they still love me even though i'm fat? but we're ashamed to speak out, and hell i don't even know why i'm telling you this but i just am, Ross being fat isn't anything easy, you see me as aggressive but in truth i'm not all that aggressive, i have put this up so no one will cross the line, or make me feel insecure, that is the worst feeling there is and the feeling of being unwanted and i've felt that a lot, so i ask you this so that me being fat can be history,  i kill myself everyday trying to figure out why i can't just be one of those persons that no matter how much they eat they just won't get fat.but i've come to terms that i'm not so i ask you ross to help me, please. I'm sick of feeling this way." i poured my heart out to him, all the things i've been keeping in and all the things i'm afraid to say.

looking me in the eyes he smiled a little and grabbed my hands. "I'm here for you, just tell me when you're ready." he said making me smile, before i could answer him Trishaun had returned.

"All right people it's lunch tim e,let's fine our ass's to school." she said

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short chap.

laura poured ou her heart to ross.

I KNOW HOW SHE FEELS