UNDERNEATH

I was smiling with serenety besides
Looking all around me with gay and awe
All seems to be mighty dandy and fine
Like still waters deceptively calm

Who would have guessed that underneath
Strong current conceals it's existence
Running downstream and not to be stopped
Taking with it anything that it touched

I wasn't done healing the battle wounds of my past
Sometimes I asked if, "Will I ever be?"
I would have been if it's that easy
If only my memory stops tracking it's lane.

Yes! I'm hurting deep within
Smiles that shouts, "Nauche!"
I hope that nobody hears
I pray that no one gives a damn.

Alone I can take it all like a masochist in sexual throbe
I shouldn't forget my yesterday's bane
I should remember and carry the weight
Fairytale my ass! Real world is harsh.

I will remember and savour the sting
I would always smile with eyelids shut
To hide my pride and my teary eyes
To brave this life amidst all it's fucked up shams.

I'll keep on going...

Wattpad UN - @EmmMiss
Preferred Name - Oxy and/or Madame Eks