Title: And I Flew

Reality abandoned me when my car hit the railing.
When my head hit the railing.
When my life.
Hit the
Wrought iron railing.

And as I plummeted.
Over the side of that bridge.
I remembered my friend.
Who had died the same way.
Only willingly.

And

I knew it would take 4 seconds

4 and a half

Measly seconds until I was submerged in the waters of death

And

I knew I was going to die.

But

I wasn't afraid of then.

I was afraid of now,

Now,

When I face my whole unattainable existence.
That I Spent.
Swimming with my eyes closed.
Reaching with my hands
Tied.

One.

I scream until I have no voice
As if someone could save me.
As if someone could fix the
already cracking
Backbone
Of my every breath
Taken in fear.
Burning my insides
Charring my lungs.
Suspending the pure
Untainted
Terror.

Of falling with no one to catch you.

Two

I Slam my hand on the door.
And pound
And pound
And

Pound.
Until the glass shatters.

My resolve
Shatters.

My mind as blank
As the eyes of my mother

As wet as the cries of my father.

When the phone rings.

And their world explodes.

Three

My life was like a rope
And I was tethered to
An image
Of perfection

A fingerpainted puzzle
Of everything
I ever was.

Everything I tried to be.

I was smart
and
decent.

I did my best

Sometimes.

And I was nice.

But

I wasn't kind.

They are not the same.

And shame is a worthy emotion.
And so is fear.

I wish I had known that.
Before I ruined all my relationships
Trying to fix things that were never
Broken.

Four

When I was young,
I would dream of flying.
Knowing that in another life
I must have been a bird.
Or a superhero.

So I would climb to
The tallest place I could find.

And jump.

In the seconds before I hit the ground.

I soared.

But then
The earth grabbed hold of my body.

And trapped me in its
Iron embrace.

I cried for my loss.

And

Broke my arm every time.

My Time is almost up,
And
Now I know how my friend felt.
And I'm no longer betrayed
Because we are one in the same.

Except they were kind.

So now I know.

And I am afraid.

But not ashamed.

Because I lived my life
the only way I knew how.

I watched

And I wondered

And I
Fell.

And I

Flew.

-Eliza, @sparkleunicorn123